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The time had change

2011-12-23T13:58:00.000-08:00

Alright it been a long time ever since i blog so Currently am gonna said ish all about my work place , i had change to a new environment , new friends , new challenge ... and the company called Helipad . kinda love this place not because it night life , but ish because the people there are friendly and loving . I knew some new friend that treat me quite good for example , Felicia , bernard , Lu , Tim this four person had never fail to put on a smile on my face no matter when am having emotional thoughts or angry . they are kinda sweet loving frenz love being around with them but well today ish Felicia last day of work everyone was trying to make her smile instead of letting her feel sad haha thinking back the moment it make me feel quite heart warming though , Seriously speaking though the management quite sucks to the extend that i nearly quit this job but have to thanks those people that alway trying their best to make me smile and not to be forgotten that ish Mandy and Sam too well getting to social around the work place really seems to be fun and time seems to pass quite fast ... But currently am still thinking of whether wanna leave this job or continue due to the pay wise damn less for me ...

The next one am gonna blog about ish my life ...

Well , i alway wanted to have a family gathering or dinner but the chances seems to be damn rare ... it been long time ever since i had stay home making , cooking , and eat Tang Yuan (Chinese Traditional Food) together with my family , am still yearning for this day to come but it seems to be never ever will it happen ... Everytime see my friend all post about how they celebrate with their family on special occasion seriously am really envy them to the max ... how i wish i can be like them too but i understand that every family had different life so i won be complaining that how bad my life was . Cause all the while i had to really thanks God that am born perfectly fine without any disfigure at all :) everyone had been telling me that F.A.M.I.L.Y stands for Father And Mother I Love You ... true that but for me i change the sentence to For Awesome Mother I Love You ! cause i had witness how my mum suffer for this whole family so i cant blame her for not able to give me a life like how my friends had . i have alway be grateful to my mum for whatever she do so yeah once again i would like to said Thanks mum ! thanks for everything u had done for me :) I LOVE YOU MUM !!!

Thirdly i wanna said ish about Me & Myself

Thing have been going really hush on me every year , new thing have been coming up for me , new challenge , new people and new enemy well i have nothing to said so i just had to suck thumb and use the most widest smile and face the world everyday ! :) cause no matter what happen on that day it will alway a relaxation at the night so all i can do was to hoping that time pass fast and i can go home and just rest ... To be frank i donnoe how long more can i endure with this kind of heaven will torture that falls on me , i have been strong for too long ! i need a shoulder to lean on and someone to hug me in the arms and tell me everything will be fine ... though i might not be opening my mouth had been keeping thing inside my hearts ish not because i wanna behave like this ish just that i need someone to understand me by themselves as i don have the used of telling other how i feel and so on ... but this had been a real hard stage for people who wanna get close to me and noe what am i thinking ... Seriously am a person who don really talk much about myself , but after all am a human too thing that u don like to do den don do it on me , i will get piss off easily ... don't ever said that i don wanna share my problem then ended up i just drink my life away ... u are not me so u cant judge me just like that ! :) sometime i just feel that am just feeling too hectic that i actually go to the extend of giving up . but i have to keep myself having optimistic thinking , haiz well life still goes on anyway ... what i can said ish wait till the day i give up that means it had already over my limit so one day i change to someone that my friend also don't know ? don't blame me :) i had my own reason to do that ... alright it getting late now gonna get to sleep cause later on still got to work ... :( gonna blog next time when am free :) night blogger !!!

From : Ethan Chan

Cheers !!! life still goes on !

another day pass

2011-11-19T12:51:00.000-08:00

well currently am just back from club and start to blog due to my mood was not in a good condition , am starting to write what am bothering about this few day , Oh i should said all this while ... alright here i go . :)

All this while i hope and i wish that things would turns out well for me but it seems that everything ish going against me ... suddenly being sack for no reason ... as due to some backstabber ... and i decided to stand up again and move to the other job but well thing isn't seems to goes well for me ... cause after being sack , bad thing have been coming and coming ...

quarreling with frenz , having relationship problem etc etc... i can said that this time really hits me damn hard , real hard ! that i nearly cant even handle it but well i still over come all this thing and move on to the next chapter of my life , well there alway this words going around ish that , friend comes and go , even best frenz ... what new's ? isn't it ? all this while i have been so loyal till tat everyone takes me for granted ... even in my relationship ... i cant even handle such a simple thing yet i still hope to get something big ... kinda loser isn't it ? everyone was despising me , criticizing me , and even detest me ... what can i do ? nth seriously !!! just because am not willing to be who they want me to be ... i just wanted to ask is it so hard to be myself ? am i born out to live with on the way u guys wan me to be ? joke seriously ! i have not been enjoying myself ever since i start to independent but what i get in the end ? nth ! just nothing ! all along i fight for so hard in the end still get nothing ... i just wan a basic respect from others is it so hard ? no i don think so ! cause i have respect u guys even u guys don respect me ! but u guys just like to take me for granted ! treat me like a fool ! but still ... i just let u guys play me out cause i believe if i can put a smile on u guys by taking me for granted or even to the extend of treating me as a fool ! it more den enough for me ! but i just wan u guys to know one thing that ish am a human too ! i have feeling ! don treat me as if am a robot ... now am living my own way by being myself and u guys said am being so despicable , going around flirt , willing to have sex with other without any complain , being so sluttish everywhere i go ! i really wanna ask u guys one thing ! do u guys ever put urself into my shoe ? nope :) did u guys ever walk pass what i had gone thru ? nope ! :) so i hope u guys just shut the fuck up thanks ! ish not that am changing ! ish just that i stop living in my past ... get it ? i also hope to do something big ! and willing to forgo my own pride ! FOR YOU GUYS INFO ! am not being cheap and i believe i don owe u guys any reason for what am i doing :) ! destroying my own health ? destroying my own reputation ? destroying my own pride ? or whatever u called that ish also my own FUCKING BUSINESS ! hope u guys can understand ! as least i do all this thing won hurt me as much as in relationship ... to be frank i really need a getaway ! for permanent seriously how i wish that i could just gone like that but i told myself every obstacle i face ish every step that am growing up ... no matte how tough it ish am still gonna bite my own teeth and move on ... like this few days am really down and i just hope that someone just anyone will do could just understand how i feel ! i felt hectic , felt restless , felt lonely , felt breathless , felt impulsive etc etc i don hate myself ! i just purely hate what ish happening around me ... i need a break really i wanna cry out , cry out real loud , nobody understand how i feel , tons of burden ish pressuring me , but still i manage to face everyday with smile ... well i should stop blogging cause my tears are dropping ... the heartache , the sour feeling , the agony feeling are rapidly filling my heart ... so to prevent this thing i should just head to sleep now ... will be cont next time :)

From : Ethan Chan

feeling damn low now :(

Hello

2011-10-25T08:35:00.000-07:00

Alright gonna update abit in my blog , it been so long ever since i update this >.<" hmm been really hectic for this few mth due to busying with my own stuff ... well as this few month i have learn what ish fon trust people so easily and stuff ... haiz not really in the mood to post anything right now . but well i be starting back my blog from now on so yeah whenever am no happy or whatever i will just post down here and one last thing hello blogger :D am back!!!

From : Ethan
signing off
peace out "V"

Just some random thought ...

2011-02-09T19:14:00.000-08:00

6 more day it gonna be valentine days ... it a day where every couple go out and celebrate their monsary and anniversary ... Toward me ? what ish valentine ? i donnoe ... Have never go thru valentine day before ... at first i find it beri Shameless , but now ? haas :) nothing at all only thing ish that i really envy those couple ... They argue , They Fight , They Cold War but no matter what they don sarcasm each other which hurts the other party and in the end they still talk to each other and being sweet to each an other hmm am not complaining that why my life ish Much more Different then them or maybe can call it "Special"

This ish how i feel and what i thought :

Being Single

they have lots of freedom ,

They can do whatever they wan but no

one to spend the pain with ,

they tends to eat alone , shop alone ,

sleep alone , Go home alone , no one to chat to every night before sleep

No Morning Msg or GoodNite Msg ... looking at sweet couple they only

can sit there and envy after that they got to tink Positive thing to make them happy

Being In relationship ,

They Fight , Argue , Having Doubts , Cold war , misunderstood each another

but they are as sweet as Honey after every raining period .

They envy Singles cause no ppl to control the freedom Etc Etc ....

and on valentine day , some laugh at those singles , some ask the singles

to join them go out ... they have no bad intention to hurt singles but to ask them join

in the fun in the end they donnoe that they had hurt singles without any their notice .

Singles appreciate it but in their heart they are hurt just that they don show out to others .

Being In Complicated Relationship

They Discreet , They scare of being expose in the public , they are in a special relationship that other ppl might detest it a lot , this ish the relationship that makes them headache cause whenever what u do ... they mind about ur past a lot .... even u told them the truth , they tend to said ok they believe u but in the end they don even give a fuck to what u said and they jus keep on having doubts on u , once they noe that u are at other place never meet them they will tends to dig out ur past and said sarcasm words that hurt u deeply and what u can do ish to keep it to urself and don let other noe how hurt u are ... u just bear the pain beecause u choose to be discreet in this relationship , u have no choice but to keep everything to urself ,

Other thing ish ur other party isn't being sweet to you at all not really care about you at all . All they noe ish they are in right whatever they do thing , even if they are wrong they tends to don said

sorry to you unless u demand for it .

They will tell u they treasure u a lot but Actual Fact ish they freaking take u for granted , just because they noe u need them in ur life so they can act like they noe everything but the fact ish they just scare of being correct etc etc so they tends to push it to other party and eventually it become ur fault . when u told them stuff they will tends to ignore u or just reply with sarcasm word , they don actually noe how u feel at all till u let out everything and they will just say " why u don tell me earlier and must wait till now " or " i just don want to sound out anything cause i want to see whether u will tell me onot if not

This kind of people deserve a one tight slap from the other party . it so obvious that u want them to care for u but in the end u are in the fault ...

That why i alway said , Wants to be a good man or Bad man ish indeed hard ... cause no matter what u will got blame by them ...

This ish Base on how i feel ...

There ish no People that i referring to ...

Congrats to those who already in relationship

and those who are not Fret not alright u will meet yours one day :D

Towards me ? i have or don have also same cause i have never Celebrate

Valentine for 21 years so i don mind though i really hope i can celebrate too :D

Cherish all ur partner now before they are gone alright

No matter u just got into relationship or not just treasure it before its too late :)

From : Ethan Chan

Cheers guys :)

Good bye 2010 :) welcome 2011

2011-01-06T00:25:00.000-08:00

RECALL OF THE PAST

Hmm it a new year and came to think back about it , Another year jus pass as fast as lightning and i cant

imagine that am going to lead a 21 years old boy , oh no ish man , cause am already adult ... hmm

guess that more and more thing will be coming toward me ... another year have pass means that another

challenge has arrive ... when ish it ? i donnoe ... but not to worried as i believe i can overcome it why i said

so ? cause i guess that 2010 ish already a bad year for me and hopefully this year will be better and am up to

any of the challenge :D ... hmm 3 more mth ... jus 3 more mth and am out of this stupid NS ... ish like finally i can

really find a high pay job rather den taking a 400 plus Salary every mth ... hmm alright let my title ish recall the past right so let recall 2010 past ... and it will be the beri last time ...

2010 ish a year where a lot of thing have been happening to me ... such as :

BAD TIMES

being DOUBT by people

having MISUNDERSTANDING with frenz

Break FRIENDSHIP with someone i have totally put trust in .

lack of MONEY ( damn worse )

have some ARGUMENT family ...

argue with someone i HEART most ...

get CHEAT by people (such as MONEY ETC ETC)

do something which will make me feels DISGUSTING of myself

get HURT by people .

get BETRAY by some frenz

GOOD TIMES

I got what i wan such as :

My cam EOS 550D

MAC BOOK

SHIRT AND PANTS

GO OVERSEAS ...

HAVING GOOD TIMES WITH CLIQUES

All this thing ish i had for good time kinda sad right :) but no matte what i still face life with optimistic view

i agree that am having a life that totally different with other ... hmm but who cares right :D i love the way am leading my life and if u guys tink that am a player or what ? i can tell u guys :D u guys are totally wrong :) if u guys donnoe how i use my attitude to face life den jus kindly STFU thx :D so what leading a life that ish totally different from other ? including u guys ? so are u guys trying to said that u guys life ish better den me ? haha good job and congrat den :D for having a better life den me .... XD all this ish the past as i don wish to mention it too so yap :) a new year have arrive ? i shall forgive everything but never forget what had happen :)

To : Those haters ... Listen up bastard/bitches

If u guys wanna to make frenz with me jus to stand some gain from me , den all i can said ish Jolly well

fuck off in my 2011 life :D cause i will treat u guys in a beri different way ... Say all u wan den cause i don really give

a fucking damn on you haters :D if got anything ? confront me den :) i will ans u everything ... now i will ans u guys some of the question that u guys have been backstabbing me :D

Answer/Question

A : Please luh ! he handsome meh ? for what fuck did so many gals/boys falls for him !

Q : I did not said i good looking , so don assume anything bitches get thing clear before u say anything and

i sure have a way to treat the them nice and sweeter den u haters do :D i can give them whatever i wan if i wan to :D

so don jealous about it and get a life yea :D

A : I seriously hate him , don like his attitude at all ! he wear mask in his life times

Q : S.A.E (Simple&Easy) i did not ask u to like me either , and no one ask u to like my attitude :D

yap i agree i wear mask but only toward u haters :D

A : Please don fall for him ! his a playboy and gigolo !!!

Q : Why ? u scare they fall for me and i treat them real sweet and u BTH ? haha alright i understand

hmm yap so what my past it ish ? at least i got the figure to be one of them ? what about u ? please don speak till

like u are innocent pls ! MY FOOT !!! U AIN'T BETTER :D

A : OMG HIS A CHAI TAO !!! Just use his money only !

Q : FUCK U , since when my head grow leaf ? And i have learn how to see thru people :D

A : Oh please refrain urself by what u are doing ...

Q : Yes thx i will but i don tink that u noe how to :D

A : he only noe how to backstab ppl don make frenz with him jus leave him aside .

Q : Erm FYI i don backstab :) change something else better thx :D or are u jealous that me and that whoever ppl u are referring to relationship ish better den you ? haas Jokes

A : OMG now i den noe his a coward or whatever u call that !

Q : :) thx for the compliment that me for not finding and problem not because i coward or what :) wan try ?

bring it on man :D

A : I agree he ish a good looking guy but what for have a good looking face in the end having a cold heart ?

Q : Thx again for the compliment , i have a cold heart ? perhaps bah but there ish reason behind me :D u guys won wan to noe :D

That all for the ans cause i cant be remembering so many thing that u haters said :D

To : Those who hurt/cheated me before :)

Short and Simple : thx for hurting me once and jus because of what u guys did to me , i have

learn how to stay strong , u guys make me drop tears before and i sure i don have to mention

out all name cause u will noe who am i referring to :) it u guys who makes me become today me ...

i agree i did change a lot but it not a choice for me ... i force myself to do it so that i don have to repeat the

same mistake again ... and u guys are alway forever in my mind though u guys have hurt me before ...

but don get me wrong ... i have to said this first , if there ish one day u guys turns back wanna to be friend back

with me ? i will said thx :) i appreciated but sorry am scare of being hurt twice :) please leave me ASAP alone :D

i shall move on with my life since it another new year right :D that all for u guys a deep and faithfully thx to u guys :D

Hmm alright i have already done my 2010 recall the past note ....

now all i can do ish to move on in my life and no more procrastinate anything that coming in my way :D

all the best to Ethan Chan Jun Xi .... forget the past and move on with my life :D hopefully this year will be a better year for me :D May God Bless Me .... with all my might i will try to strike for what i want and i mean it :D

Last but not Least : i hope that in a new year we can like have our own house and hoping that my mum health will be healthier where everyday pass , wishing that my sister had a windfall including me :D money money come come so that we can really live in a world without THOSE people who look down on us :D and let my frenz all can past every year with smooth sailing ahead :D and hopefully what i wish for can come true :( i really pray for it ... hmmm alright that all for the post :D

From : Ethan Chan

It a new year and i believe everything

will be smooth one day :D jus be positive thinking

and every bad thing will eventually walk off ...

and one last thing FUCK OFF HATERS XD

I cry again

2010-11-10T01:00:00.000-08:00

今天的天气预报，我哭了，因为一些个人的事情...为什么其他人的生活往往会导致更好的然后我。我试着去争取我的未来，但我失败了，我不能是一个懦夫我要留强，使无论是什么在我的生活发生这里不会有一个回头。加油！Ethan , 我相信你能做到。携带争取你的生活，一切都会好转的罚款。今天的天气预报结束。

From : Ethan Chan

No Matter What Thing Will Turns Fine One Day .

another moody day

2010-11-09T01:17:00.001-08:00

haiz cant think of anything to write anymore so maybe jus here to update my blog and post nothing at here luh hmm ... kkae bah don feel like writing anymore

From: Ethan Chan

今天的天气预报,今天我感觉非常喜怒无常,

不知道发生了什么.今天的雨是超级大

我突然觉得很孤单了, 我发现我慢慢失去自己的方向

不知道我想要什么 :( .

我不知道什么时候才能真正站起来,说我超罚款。

JunXi今天的天气预报完成

Thing Will Alway Stay The Same .

2010-10-28T21:07:00.000-07:00

It been so long that never been to blog and update . so now trying to find something to update

my feeling and thoughts are like blank for the past few day , mood swing suddenly came and i don even noe what ish it about hmm perhaps it because of the weather bah ... looking back at the photo that i thought it was all erase or delete but somehow i found some still leaving behind my old com happen to open my NoteBook and i found all pic ish inside ... Hmm i donnoe ish it i have become more stronger or becoming more and more heart less ... am sorry to said that but when i saw those pic we taken together those group photo and those night riding photo together i really hope that everything will stay the same but den ... So i have no choice but to delete all ur photo . Tear away all photo that been printed out ... haiz maybe this ish jus a part of life bah everything comes and goes and i believe that u are also the other obstacle that makes me lead to a better life without u i learn to noe that whose ish more important to me and whose ish being real towards me ... All this while i tot that u are only one who understand me more but am so wrong ... So after i delete all ur photo i have make up my mind to be happy and not to tink of u . Am proud to said that i make it :D i did not shed any tears when i saw those photo ... i tink there not a needs for me to act happy and put up a fake mask anymore :) i'll be who am i . U lead a better life ? So am I :) i bet and i believe that my life now ish better without u :) all those thing u have cheated on me i won hated u even if i see u now I'll jus said it over !

:D therefore i have to thank you for passing by my heart and leave ur foot step over there as i can learn how to be strong and finally learning to be realistic and not being so over paranoid over a small case :) i learn to be calm and steadfastly settle thing ... A BIG Thanks to You :)

From : Ethan Chan

今天的天气预测,喜怒无常的感觉

思想是混乱的,不知道什么是我该做的事

我真的需要一些建议,但我相信一切都会在我自己的优秀基地

Junxi今天的天气预报报告结束希望明天会是一个更好的日子.

Dumb Cock XD

2010-10-02T00:58:00.000-07:00

Hmm Donnoe how to said YOU seriously haha :D u tink that being a keyboard warrior , will make u become as if u are something like Genius ? nope sorry u are jus making a fool out of urself hahas :D and one more thing if u think that u got the guts den talk infront of me :D if u have no guts den kindly jus fuck off COWARD !!! Get it ? weirdo ? yup kinda agree :D being a stalker instead of ask ppl out ? ish that all u can do ? Haha den i can really said that u are really Childish :D Oops yah forget u are xiao didi sometime ur balls will jus shrink when u met someone that ish more fierce den u ? only noe how to ask ppl to help u when u have trouble ? Oh pls jus bring it on :) the best ish u face this urself i would admire ur courage but too bad u are not :P hmm guess should not said so much le bah haha ownself noe can liao one last word for u :)

U ARE JUS A PIECE OF SHIT , no need to use vulgar language on u cause am more civilize den u get u kiddo :) go back to ur playground and play bah haha Xp

From : Ethan Chan

Lol You Look Like A Freak !!! :D

And Want Said Me ? Come And Find Me

Don Be A Coward :) Go Home Suck Ur Mum Milk Better =X

Mark My Words

2010-09-27T13:57:00.001-07:00

Hmm have been tossing around in my beed for sooo freaking long and i still cant get to slp ... So i decided to blog and finally after my blogging i can really get to sleep :)

Alright gonna blog about what happen this few day :)

HmM let start on the 5 days back .

Thursday : went to club and drink alot because having foul mood and have been neglect

quite alot of ppl i cry again because of thing that am not suppose to think as i promises

to get over with it but it seems like a hard thing for me to do so :( but still am willing to try my best to do it cause everytime when i feel sad i told myself tmr ish a better day :) thx for being at my side though it was a short time :) i do cherish it but i bet that u will not believe it at all but nevermind , the problem ish i noe can le .

Friday : stay at home do nth till the late nite meet up with someone to have dinner with :) after that head home

Saturday : wake up and it like freaking late luh so sam came and meet up with me and den we had our dinner at JALAN BESAR (CURRY RICE) after that head to club :) as usual haha hmm really had a quite a good time over there cause it seems that we won a group of ppl by dancing hahas CONGRAT SHAWN and of cause ME hahas :D

Sunday : Went back camp and was like stonning all the way at work after that take half day off and accom alvin go shopping awhile and den head home IT WAS A FUN OUTING but den am tired so went home early .

Monday : went out at nite to eat den head to LAN to play awhile and den head home till now haven even slp hmm gonna get to slp soon after my blog :)... that all for the days :) and i gonna start night part time soon le wor ... haha earn money earn money XD

Hmm Ok i have been tinking alot ever since the day i start to get emo ...

i find that everything seems to be so fake to me but why am still using

a mask to cover up my unwillingness ? so i have to get myself up and

buck up luh ... i gonna change my life and everything surround me :p

i have to work beri beri hard in order to get myself a good life and

also change a image of mine . i gonna MIA for a time being one day after my ORD

and came back with a different ETHAN CHAN JUN XI ... a Ethan that no one

uses to it ... though i noe that it might be hard but as i said NO PAIN NO GAIN :)

so i gonna change and prove to anyone that ish looking down at me a new Ethan

i make sure when i came back with a Different Look i swear i won make any revenge on

them i will let them noe that in the first place they did not treasure me and now make them

regret ... MARK MY WORDS !!!

To those all the way look down on me and trying to act good to me pls Fuck off now frankly

speaking :) i do bite one day :) if u don like me den jolly well fuck off don stay around me jus

because u can get any thing from me :) sorry it a big NO way to u HATERS ....

And don tink that u are good looking and u can start to show off by taking other for granted

i tink that my looks can even compare to ur look luh pls NO ONE ISH BORN PERFECTLY

GET THIS RIGHT :)

so what even u got the looks and brain ? calling other pathetic ? ish this how far u can go ?

don try to sympathy other when u ownself ish also not in a good state :) so why not jus stop

all ur freaking gossiping and spreading rumors about other ? and get ur thing done :)

since u said that u born with a good brain den why not jus use ur thinking on some other thing

instead of thinking how to plot other and get other into trouble . not gonna said so much about those haters that look down on ppl :P

Whatever it ish , Am sure that one day i will surpass you :) get it ? SURPASS MY HATERS :D

AND THIS ISH WHAT AM GONNA FOCUS NOW :) hmm nth le bah nite hope that i can get to slp now .... haiz

From : Ethan Chan

Work hard Work hard

Work Hard for my future

Jia You Jia You Ethan Chan :)

PersonalThought

2010-08-27T01:32:00.000-07:00

Hmm been busying with lots of thing like , frenz bday , my own stuff , meeting up with frenz , trying to entertain everyone around me , but what makes me happy was to see them laugh and their smile on their faces , hence but for me ? i don wish to stay unhappy , who wan right , but i jus cant seems to be controlling all my emotion , when times comes i will eventually wear on a mask
to face ppl . it not those evil mask yea :) it those happy mask but i aint happy at all ... sometime i
did question myself why am i facing so much thing and i still can smile ? why not jus show out all
my emotion , Laugh when am Happy , Smile when i feel Delighted , Cry when i feel Sad , Frown when i feel Devastated or Vex , but i still cant find the ans yet but i keep telling myself , i can do it no matter what happen , there sure a way to solve it hmm that why am being so optimistic putting a smile all along my life ,We question love because we did not find it. We question the meaning of dreams when they dont turn out the way we expected. The problem with dreams and ideals is that they prolong our pain and disappointment, making us wonder was it wrong to think that way in the very first place, or when can these dreams come alive.

We need to learn to believe that although some things have not been found does not mean that they don't exist. Perhaps we just did not open our eyes wide enough to realise what is around us. Love, dreams and ideals they're all around us. Life doesnt give us the most perfect answers and most times our hopes and disappointments taint our view of the world - but we should not be unfair to ourselves and to others. And those who hold on steadfast will find their way out of all the darkness that surrounds them.

Like the quote above which is directly translated from chinese, the show actually inspired me alot. It tells us that although things may not be the way we want it to be, we may be devastated over and over again and the rain in our hearts can be prolonged almost as if it's eternal but let's not forget that some day all of it will be washed away. All of this requires our faith and continued hope that there will be something meant for all of us.

But in order to do that, we need to let go of the rainy season. We need to come out of it in order to let go in order to receive. Some day all of this pain will go away.

ALRIGHT ENOUGH OF ALL MY EMO THING .

Hmm so where shall i start ok yesterday it Amanda Gan Ye Shan my 14 years best frenz finally she turns 20 haha old one more year luh so i hereby wishing u another HAPPY BIRTHDAY YEA MY BESTIES !!! yesterday was quite a fun and hectic day didn really get enough of sleep and went to work , after work rush home to change and go bugis meet up with lim , howard , lay hong , ah ting , my sis , ah wen , vivian . we went for steamboat at chong qin , we ate quite alot of food we like eating lots of junks luh haha den after the dinner , i went to maxwell to meet up with amanda they all as she celebrating her birthday in club mah reach there i already see that she been surrounded by her best frenz and present luh , after wishing her happy birthday i sat at other day , watching how happy she ish , I can see that she really enjoy and everyone over there really brighten up her day , i was super envy luh noe :) all my frenz around me are like having ppl to celebrate with them present all around hmm like example : Family , Friends , GF/BF etc etc . but me ? haha nvm forget it :) am alway happy go lucky :D maybe am jus born to envy ppl and cant have the thing i want hahas am not trying to act pathetic down here and don need anyone sympathy at all . cause it jus some of my PERSONAL THOUGHT that all :D

hmm i really donnoe what to said liao le luh i tink i had enough of writing liao hahas :D
Thinks that am going to stop here le luh :D
This all thing ish what am been thinking of everytime haha silly me right ? haha i noe :)

From : Ethan Chan
Just Some Personal Thought
Seriously No Offence :D
Cheers Earthling ...<3>

Give Me Wing & Let Me Fly

2010-08-26T01:31:00.000-07:00

Every night as I lay in my bed, I hate to admit but I take a short escape. When my eyes close, my heart opens. In the quiet moments that I lay still, memories replay themselves. I watch the scenes go by, the people that've come and gone, the places that have be populated and left deserted. I always wonder to myself, is life as fleeting as a dream? How to we make permanent the things that seem to float by?

I tried all my life to capture my dreams. I felt like a fisherman dipping a huge net into the vast ocean and giving a huge sweep. It takes too much effort, we cant fight fate. The net can only hold so much, and so much else will get away. I'm a dreamer and in my own quiet times, I am guilty of letting things pass me by, just thinking passively that dreams are meant to be imagined. I've lost out on putting up a good fight for the things I really want in life, I sink back in my chair rather than take a step forward. In these same ways, I have been very unfair to myself, believing that good things happen to those who wait. This inertia gives me reason to be defeated. I seem happy to be losing.

As I grew older, I became more and more tired. Tired to put a positive spin to a sob story, tired to smile on the days I know are sour. There is no need for falsities and let's not pretend everyday is full of yellow sunbeams. If they're black, they're black. I often think about my dreams however, and I've always wondered how they could retain such perfection, such idealistic flavour that it makes me desire and long to be nowhere but closer to my imagined perfection. The tiredness that is in my soul feeds the energy and the search for that one beautiful thing - i don't even really know what it is anymore. But vaguely i know it does exist; it is almost an essence found in love, life and our dreams.

We search endlessly without knowing what it really is. Take me somewhere so that I can fly again

From : Ethan Chan
Every Moment With Black & White
I Will Fill It With Colours Again :)

useless ethan

2010-07-21T01:30:00.000-07:00

Hmm jus now talk to my frenz i feel that am so useless luh frenz got their cert and manage to get into flight steward and guess what out of 1000 only 50 person will get the job and he manage to get the job and am super envy him luh den he ask me to join him as a AIR STEWARD and i ask him what their requirment and he said O level ish like wth can haiz den i told him that i only got N level cert and he said also can ask me to go try tiger air or jet asia den he still encourage me to go take up that challenge cause the pay ish high . can u expect that when u jus got in and become a air steward ur salary ish as high as 7k can can u guys imagine that ? hmm i wanted to try but am scare and lack of confident .... hmm still wondering what kind of salary i be taking when am ORD luh i wish to get a pay higher den last time and obviously higher den NS pay but it really hard luh sooo many competitors like how to get in also donnoe can :(
Now my only motivation i also scare will be gone soon luh , i wanna to study hard and work hard but it seems like a impossible job for me luh haiz i noe that nothing ish impossible but still i will keep trying bah if fated only can work a job that ish giving me a 2k salary i also jus take it as fated and jus accept it :D better then no job luh hmm am gonna make sure from now on in my life am not gonna to make any more mistake . strike for my future that i wanted . i know i can do it if i work hard so am not gonna to lazz around buck up for now .... aint no regret whenever road am ended in :D jia you ethan chan jun xi :D
first am gonna try to go for the interview at airport :D
when i going to near ORD
AIR STEWARD , if not jiu OFFICE JOB :D

From : Ethan Chan
have to work hard
for my everything
jus to lead a life without
any major worry :D Jia You !!!

tired of drama

2010-07-17T21:06:00.000-07:00

Hmm am back to blog again , hmm where to start ? alright i should make it short den hmm
this whole week am damn restless luh also donnoe what happen ... wanna to update my blog also lazy to update ... hmm this whole week had happen quite alot of thing for me and it quite some happening week bah hmm i laugh like no body business , i did drop my tear again , thx for the memories that came back again , i have tried to to cut down on my diet hahas , and lots of thing
Alright one thing that make me cant really forget the past ish because whenever i tot i have already forget that person already but that day that person appear infront of me again , hmm but i told myself am not a weakling come on i can overcome it ... XD guess what ? I MANAGE TO DID IT !!! am feeling so proud of myself cause i can get it over but bad thing ish .... thing really have to end up like this jus to end everything ... i been thru hard time a really hard time till now ... hmm even though am blogging now my tear are around my eye i have to control it i cant drop anymore tear for anything not anymore ... I noe that it not good when i have to bear everything on myself , alot of ppl saying that am jus torturing myself but frankly speaking NO !!!! am not cause i donnoe who to face to even i found someone to talk to i donnoe how to start and i don even like ppl to sympathy me that all so i rather keep everything to myself .

There are once , someone had told me this , don worry no matter what happen u need me i alway be there to be ur listening ear share ur every sadness happiness together , but did that person did it ? haas the ans ish Big Fat NO !!! everytime i did try to call that person but in the end being hang up on the phone , i had enough of all this nonsense luh , what i wish for ish to be like normal ppl whenever they are sad ppl will be there for them ... i had put on a fake smile for ages no one had realise it , i admit i do envy , i do jealous , i do wish for thing like that but perharp this fate bah :) hmm i learn to tink positive and everything luh ...

Once again , i had to thank them for leaving footstep in my life , and walk away without giving any warning ... and let me be alone down the lonely street in the cold weather ... let me learn how to fight alone in the lonely war , thanks for everything i will forgive everything but never will i forget you !!! you noe that who am i referring to . i tink am not talking much about all this thing le bah cause whenever i recall back this thing i jus feel like crying out ... hmm kkae bah should stop here am not talking much bah ...

LABEL : I MIGHT SEEMS TO BE STRONG BUT DEEP INSIDE ME AM NOT ,
I HAVE MY OWN SORROW TIME WHO NOES ? HMM GUESS NO ONE DID
I LIVE FOR MYSELF NOT FOR OTHER , THANK FOR LETTING ME
BECOMING SO INDEPENDENT AND STRONG THANKS FOR EVERYTHING

From : Ethan Chan
i might be strong outside
but actually am not life
alway full of sadness and happiness
jus live for wat u are and u will see the
sky turn blue and flower scent everywhere
and there alway be a fine rainbow above us :)

am wear out , batt left in me 30%

2010-06-12T00:41:00.001-07:00

Yesterday was a fun nite with jojo they all and we were enjoying ourself hmm ...
but due to to my mood was so down i have no choice but to put on a mask to
get high and join in the fun .

alright am not gonna make it draggy anymore ...
make it straight to the point which i wanted to speak .

Am moving out soon , real soon ... staying alone ... i donnoe what to do
yah though i have been independent since 13 year old i thought that
i can adapt to the life of independent , yea indeed i have make it but
i fail to one thing that ish staying alone on other flat ...
we left we no choice , but to move out and stay on our own ...
have already been seperate from dad and become a broken family
and left we the 4 of us Me , Mum , and my two sis ... and i have been
trying my beri hard to hold on to this family but what the point of me
and my mum holding on where the rest of them don give a damn
and jus hack care . Expect their life to be some Luxury life . and in the
end suffer ish me and my mum ... am holding a freaking 420 pay not
4200 pay !!! get this right after paying my bill i left not much to help
and GREAT ! now we have to stay our own move out and stay in a room
with no KINS , no FRIEND , and staying with STRANGERS ... really thanks
you guys alot for making the situation becoming like that . I have give up
am exhausted super tired of explaining everything , rushing u guys to do this
and that , am tired of putting mask whenever am out of the house ...
the mask of fake smile where i don actually have to show out but i have
no choice ... but i have been telling myself that no matter what i still have to be
strong ... that the spirit that falls in me , i do cry but no infront of friends so am
not actually that strong cause afterall am still human , am not a robot ...
hence , when can all this bad luck stop falling on me , i cant take it anymore luh
currently am still rushing to find work and room jus to support for myself ...
Haiz what to do ? even though it really hearts break to see this and am really super
down but i still have to move on cause life still goes on ... every obstacles make me
grow stronger but i don really know i can hold on till when ... i tink let jus let the natural
take its own course bah ... i don wanna predict and don even dare to tink about anything
am scare to face the fact perharps :(
ARGHHHHHHH~~~~~~~~~~~ i need a break , i need a long rest , a long long rest so that
i can don need to think so much ... I noe what i said ish all rubbish cause how can i probably
take long rest where thing already reaching the verge ... sadistic right haiz but i still believe
that am gonna make thru this obstacles ... TRUST ME ! TRUST ETHAN ! everything gonna turns out to be fine one day :) jia you bah
WORK HARDER ETHAN CHAN !!!

From : Ethan Chan
I hope i can close my eye
forever so that i don need
to wake up and face the scary
reality haiz .... am gonna out of
breath one day jus one fine day ...
Hope that thing will turns well soon :(

being philosphere

2010-06-07T21:24:00.000-07:00

Am back to blog again . first am gonna said that am in a super unlucky state recently .
First 11B lost
Second : Passport Lost ...
haiz i donnoe what going to be next luh ... now am suddenly becoming a illegal immigrant luh wtf have to get my passport and 11B done real soon ... sian max luh haiz and one more thing ish that i stalk back ur profile again :( i promise myself to forget u ENTIRELY but i cant donnoe ish u left me a deep impression or i jus merely cant remove u from my life but for now ish not the same will be the last time i stalk u cause i ban u from my every profile hope this time works am not gonna said much le jus to said first of all i gonna said that all this unluckyness faster gone ... secondly i can successfully done with all my thing luh ... argh ....
Gonna post something philosophy stuff jus some random stuff

After all this while i have learn alot of thing should i put it in a good or a bad way ?
hmm Never take people for granted , hold every person close to your heart .
because you might one day wake up and realise that u have lost a diamond
while u were too busy collecting stone , everyone do come and goes in our life journey
what are we holding onto ? Some already know the ans , some are still findind the answer
i donnoe whether i put it in this way ish a correct way but still i tink i have found my answer
My answer for living well and hanging onto ish to find the right one jus for me to spend my
life with ... *i donnoe i have found it not but be it have or not i still have to be grateful to what i have* crave out my own career or stuck to a job that holds a good income living in a paradise or my own i know this might be some hard work or some impossible thing for me to do but no matter what it takes , i will give it a try .... being mean and straight foward ish my style i don mean it ... but sometime i jus have to do it ... cause only like this am not easily beaten up by other
i don really give a damn to ppl who giving me bad comment and saying stuff that ish totally it jus their make up stories ...
Am still hiding in a world where there ish only me , THE LONELY SOUL ... the soul that will be trap like forever ... no light ahead him and every corner feels with cold air ... because of rumor and i become like this sitiuation ... thx to all haters ... but haters i jus wanna to advise you ppl this thing that ish :
Remember This Haters : saying stuff that it not real and making urself feel damn happy , i can tell you that i feel kinda pathetic for you , cause thing will alway reflect to urself one day and don forget whatever u are doing theres something watching at you ... Mind Your Own Business den inteferring other ppl problems ... believe in karma den good for you but if u don den am sorry :D prepare to take ur retribution bah :) hmm nothing much le shall update next time :D
time for lunch with someone special :D takeaire

From : Ethan Chan
The World which left with
a Lonely Soul .... Peace :)

sadness fill the joyful world ?

2010-06-03T00:50:00.000-07:00

可以吗让我和你对调
希望换成你爱我爱得快要疯掉
知道吗你对我多重要
只是现在的我们并不适合拥抱
爱随着风飘荡飘过了你嘴角
飘到天涯海角
把我困在这城堡哪里也逃不了
我不要别人温柔的怀抱
听不见你的心跳
连我熟悉的味道再也闻不到
我只要你喊我一次就好
从前亲昵的暗号
多想再次亲耳听到
让我暂时的依靠
那是短暂止痛药很快会失效
你只要再哄我一次就好
让我可以很骄傲
记住我拥有过的好

记住在你怀里微笑

From : Ethan Chan
everything sooner or later will
become sorror movie but i will still
alway rem the smile u left for me ...

thing have change

2010-05-29T19:54:00.000-07:00

it been quite sometime i blog at here le , hmm let me said some of the thing that have become reality ... recently am down with fever , flu and cough have been resting at home for a period of time don even have the strength to update my blog , alright gonna stop all the crap and move on to the main point i wanna to let out .
Everyone seems to be changing , i donnoe for what reason .
thing around me ?
people around me ?
last but not least the reality that falls on me .
uses to be a kind of happy go lucky person but now ?
The art that use to be so firm have eventually change ,
The old art have started to faded into the most precious memories
I have already expected it so i don tink i will live with regret and so on
i decided to move on even the reality turns out to be worst Etc .
i won hold back anything jus to satisfied anyone .
i donnoe when this all thing start to change but i noe it happen for
a reason ... i won't ask much as i also don wish to know anything .
i will act as if i donnoe what going on and what happening ...
am not hiding from the reality or not being bold enough to
face the fact ... am jus pretending that everything ish ok
where i know it not and it gonna to happen real bad in sometime .
this ish destiny it fate where everyone cant run away ...
sometime i asked myself did i do something wrong again ?
but my mind and heart was telling me ,
No u are not ... but i alway feel that am in the wrong
but for now whenever i don feel in the wrong i won feel any guilty
at all cause i know that i don owe anyone anything ...
So even if they tends to leave , i won hold back or shed any tear .
Wanna said me change ? den look urself at the mirror first or go
reflex how u treat me bah . :D Am not referring to anyone but jus
to voice out only if someone try to comment me or talk bad abt me .
Am not trying to be cocky or what but am jus stating the fact .
so yea am not gonna to talk much anymore le jus let the natrual take
it own course bah ...

From : Ethan Chan
Am not myself anymore ?
i cant find the answer ...

a random post

2010-05-10T02:06:00.000-07:00

hmm a beri random post that am gonna to post today :)

hmm suddenly memory past back it regrading abt family ,
today saw a family was eating in the coffee shop and remind me
how i use to sit down with my family and eat , with my biological dad , ,mum , and two sis
including me . hence sad to said that it all over ever since two years back ... sometime
am really envy those people but i cant said much jus can only see and feel happy for them .
whenever seen this kind of situation am alway smile with my heart breaking .
i have tried to save the house but in the end i fail , i don blame myself for failing this task
cause it a human being rights , i promise not to curse and swear about this thing cause it do
me no good . haiz can i said it a bad thing or a good thing ? ever since my family have never
been good but i don mind cause i have a proper family :) but till now ? everything ish over
i really do hate my dad for throwing us behind and leave us jus like that , but till now i have forget everything noe why ? cause i have my mum love that enough :D hmm though am
smiling with the greatest might i can but deep inside my heart was totally break into
pieces ... i accpet the fact and i admit i lose to fate , fate took away my family , my relationship
and got me into today de me ... i donnoe i have to thank you or not , cause in the first place u take away my family and let me learn how to independent , trust only myself and live with my own
and now i can proudly said that am strong enough to defeat u am not gonna to bow my head to fate anymore . now what i can do was to use my strenght to pull back the bond of my sis and mum . my decision ish to let myself to be strong and though am feeling really down but i will learn to climb up again from my fall , i have seen thru everything le am open with this thing called LIFE ... i seen more den other ppl do , i learn how to survive on my own , i learn how to stay strong infront of everyone , i learn how to bear with those small thing or stupid thing that come against me i learn to overcome every Obstacles , i can said that am stronger den anyone else i don need a listening ear anymore , i don need ppl to cares for me maybe this ish what i become after being thru a deep hurt , ish this me ? perharps bah .
ETHAN CHAN JUN XI YOU HAVE CHANGE TO OTHER PERSON
STAY STRONG FOREVER AND NO MATTER WHAT COMES IN
YOUR WAY , JUST FUCK IT AND MOVE ON TO YOUR LIFE !!!
CAUSE LIFE LEAVE NO MERCY TO ANYONE .

From : Ethan Chan
from the day a brand new Ethan
was born out to fight for his own right
future jia you don give up easily !!!

MONEY MONEY MONEY

2010-05-06T02:01:00.000-07:00

hmm recently jus change my phone to X10 Xperia hmm it look super duper cool can hmm i like the application inside and lot of thing to experience luh am loving this phone alot alot hahas am beri sure that am not gonna to anyhow leave it luh hahas hmm there alot of thing keep pop in my head the first thing ish my bday thing hmm i wish that it can be successfully done but guess that am wrong le now i have to drop this idea due to something crop up and have to super duper save money hmm cause it over the badget hmm so there ish only one thing to do and that ish freaking drop the idea and never think of it anymore , though it kinda sad but what to do ? haha face the fact ETHAN CHAN !!! hmm and now there ish only one thing for me to do ish to work + work + work that all no other thing no more like shopping , and stuff hmm even now i have work with high pay i will never think it enough for me , cause i still have lots to support hmm a simple minded guy handling so much thing by himself and yet he still can manage to put a smile on his face and never show other ppl his weak point that ish Ethan Chan this ish me ! hmm though am super tired already but what to do life still goes on .

in my philosophy life , there ish alot of thing happen ,
people do come and go , frenz walked into ur life and dissapear
at the next moment , family ? having a great strauggle ! No bond ?
i don dare to said , relationship wise will alway never be good for me .
everything keep going againist me i did told my sir abit about my thing ,
and he told me this ish life this ish the stage that am start to grow up to
become a man , i was like if it like this am i counted as a man since 13 ?
have been moulding myself to be independent , and yet i manage to moulded myself
i have lots of question lots and bundle of question but jus that u donnoe who to ask
no one can truely give me an answer , some frenz treat u well when u have money or
u are someone who have power ish this call frenz ? or jus making u as sparetyre ?
i donnoe , have been finding the ans that have pop in my mind for beri long time .
but till now i cant get the answer but den i still can proudly said that i seen thru alot
of thing alot alot of thing den you guys and for ppl who have readed my blog ... i have lots
thing to said but i don dare to stated it down here i jus stated everything in my private blog
Why ? why am i doing all this ? ans beri simple that ish i don wish to let anyone sympathy me
u guys can tell me that u guys are not sympathy nor pity me but still ? i won spilt anything out
as i can handle myself and my own thing i don need a LISTENING EAR :D cause every thing i said might burst out into tear i can said not only me , u guys might burst out into tear when u guys heard about the story of my life , but so sorry am not gonna to leak out anything so u guys can rest assure hmm am a Optismistic person i noe what am doing even if i done or walk a wrong path am still doing all this thing for the sake of myself
u can said that am sound beri deprived but still have to said NO am not .
i wanted to cry and shout out loud but i cant ! noe why ? cause this ish a freaking singapore that have no open space for ppl to let out themself
for me good : 20% Bad : 80% seriously when can i really get over this all thing ?
someone told me after army i get to work my own thing i might can survive on my own .
but haiz nevermind forget let jus sit and wait till i get my army done .
my feeling now ish like closing my eye and forever rest in one special bed and never wake up
but NO i cant cause i cant leave my MUM behind , there one time i have attempt to kill myself by over dose medication but in the end i throw everything away cause the moment i wanted to take up i think of my family , though both of my sis never speak up but i noe they seriously need me especially my mum , so i will never ever leave them behind i will work hard for it :D
hah ! droping my tear when blogging this post i guess that am not gonna said much le bah cause it hinting me not to drop any single tear anymore , last but not least am super tired but yet i can get to slp , am exhausted , shag and stress ! but i still have to hold on ... there only one thing that can buck me up only one word JIA YOU ETHAN CHAN JUN XI U ARE NOT A WEAKLING !

From : Ethan Chan
Philosophy tough and struggle Life
JIA YOU CHAN JUN XI U WILL SUCCESS ONE DAY !

good sign or bad sign

2010-05-03T20:10:00.001-07:00

hmm donnoe wanna to blog as what today as my mind was totally blank after reading ur some note
i believe there ish something bothering u that why u make this choice . i did not done anything wrong this time i can said but if u still insist on choosing this path den ok i don wanna said much
bearing the pain to let a person go maybe thing will come out in a different stories but jus don regret with the choice u are doing :)

for the pass few day my mind was jus popping up those question that makes me so curious and envy luh my frenz have got into a relationship recently and they both seems to be beri sweet , maybe it jus the outlook instead of the inner look bah but still envy them lots am jus wondering when i can really found a relationship that can don give ANTI PROMISES to the other partner though that person have accomplish some of the promise but still it a anti promise u gave if u did not fulfill one of them cause u are jus leaving the other partner of urs a HURTS . till now am feeling so down but am jus putting on my fake mask again , u said that before that u are not gonna to leave me but in the end ? hmm guess that after all it was jus a lies , hmm i won drop a
single tear for u anymore not because i don treasure any feeling with u but am jus trying to tink positive as am a grown up person i noe that even that in my life u are gone , life still goes on so i won even mad at u . all i can do ish to said thx for loving me that deeply once i try to be stonger everyday even though am a weakling deep inside me but am still won let other to look at my weak point . i hide every sorrow behind my smile and laughter so that no one can truely see true me . saying that am a self fish person ? go ahead am not gonna to mad at what other ppl said but well said what u wan den ... am not give u guys any damn :)
Amanda (one of my besties) she did told me once , "Nel , pls lah don ever put ur whole heart onto someone where it ended up ish YOU are the one who gets those shit and hurt etc alway rem this hongster never die ! tiong xim first to die ! (flirt ppl never get hurt but faithful ppl will hurt deeply)" but i alway told her but ethan still alive , but till now i have to accept the reality and admit that ethan has die . haiz i donnoe what to said , listening to song , tinking back the arguement we had , the fun time we had , the stubborness of me toward u , the worries that u had for me , u are the one giving on to me , the courage u gave to me , i do appreciate alot . if u decide to leave forever , nevermind u can go i won hold on to u i will jus bear the hurt move on and won look back ... last but not least really thx u for the past and loving that u shown me , i will not forget all this thing , guess that when the time u leave me it time to move on to the other stage of my life a truely grown up stage hmm . goodbye past welcome future :D

From : Ethan Chan
Come On Ethan wake up to the reality !!!

haiz thing change

2010-04-29T23:37:00.000-07:00

hmm tinking of what to blog about , recently quite busy with my own thing so have no idea to blog abt ...
ok bah let talk about this thing , yesterday went down to play with amanda and their frenz we manage to get in the club but amanda was being bounch out because she lend frenz IC and was being ban for one day , (erm maybe it half day) LOL . me and alvin was tinking of a way to pull amanda and sam in by opening a bottle down there in the end guess what ? that fucking door bitch don let mean don let mah super duper angry knn (FUCK THAT DOOR BITCH ) she was freaking ignorance can ! hmm den after that nevermind i join april they all at there dance and drink after that went home as too tired le , along the road to home i have been tinking alot of thing , haiz yesterday ish the second time i saw him walk pass me after so long luh , and i was like =.=" and my memories start to flash back , haiz i do really miss that person but yet ..... haiz don wish to stated out cause i don wanna this feeling keep on bugging me am enough of it le luh wanted to get rid fast but cant ... Last but not least , i have told u already , but u jus don believe me and see now problem have come out le , not that we suspect u or wat , cause it too obvious le and we did not said u betray us but what make u tink so ? unless u did something that feel sorry to us that why u will tink that wat but i do really hope that u become like last time and not now but if u insist on becoming like now and don wan change i won force u :) cause it ur choice anyway ... hmm try ask me out and find me talk bah maybe can resolve everything ... and hello XIAO JIE , when are u going with me to club uh ? i tot u said wan go ? guess that u also won be going le bah cause tink that u are happy right now ok den so be it bah :) buai and takeaire everyone :D

From : Ethan Chan
Label : Why ? Why ? Why am i still tinking about the past ?
haiz seriously i don like this feeling .
Feeling like tearing up now but i have to stay strong still hmm
cheer up Ethan Chan u can do it :D jia you !!!

what feeling in me ?

2010-04-15T22:23:00.000-07:00

well am back to blog again , it been a long long time i have not been posting any blog .
alright what am going to share ish i been having nightmare that am not gonna to reveal it out
to said what it ish but am jus feeling super duper scare , whenever i close my eyes the picture of the nightmare came to my image and i don even noe how to erase this dream , am not trying to rem those unhappy thing etc but it jus that it keeps on hunting me down and making me feel so insecure but i cant tell anyone abt it cause i donnoe how to put it in , as in i also don like to being sympathy by other ... that why am behaving in a happy go lucky manner ... i don drop tear infront of them but still i also need a shoulder to relies on ... who would be there for me ? i donnoe . guess that am jus being stubborn and not to let anyone noes how i feel and that all , i have one big regret in my life , that why am still holding on to my stubborness and by not telling other how i feel cause i don wish to repeat the same mistake that i trust the wrong person . am not saying that frenz around me i cant trust ... they can trust but i jus don wish anyone to noe how i feel that all . call me self fish or whatever thing bah am not gonna to get piss with what u people comment on me because beside that i only can trust myself excluding my mum , i really wish to cry out loud and throw those unhappy memories into the deep blue sea but somehow i jus cant get thru it ...
i been looking up the sky and thinks back all the unhappy/happy past that i have ,
tear slowly runs down my cheeks , heart become more and more sour .
i try not to drop any single tear since the day where thing happen to be so unlucky for me ...
in my mind i have been thru mountain and sea jus to find back the smile that i uses to have
but till now deep in my heart am still in a lost ... who can unlock my heart , and open the door that have been locked for years and wake me up in from the reality ? i donnoe and i dare not to think ... i don dare to even go find ...
but i know that gods alway be there for me . blame it on myself to throw the key into the deep blue sea and hope no ones find it but i do that i have my own reason ...
am not trying to make myself into miserable mood instead am trying my beri best to gain back
all the smile that appear in my face before ... people around me have seem to be changing alot and i noe i should accept the fact by doing my own job well and not to be so pathetic by making myself so unglam infront of everyone , i hope peoples around me are happy and laughter in their faces and not sad faces ... yeap !!! i do agree i done my part . so i won be blaming other etc ...
what i wish now ish everything goes smoothly and my lucky , smiles come back to me .
and last but not least
TO THOSE POLITICALLY NAIVE PERSON , PLS FUCK OFF IF YOU DONNOE ME WELL !
WELL , AM NOT A DUMB ASS BUT AM A SILENT KILLER
TREAT ME NICE I TREAT U BACK NICE ,
TREAT ME BAD I SIMPLY TREAT YOU BACK WHAT YOU DONE TO ME x2
AN EYE FOR AN EYE , I DON WISH TO DO THAT BUT DON FORCE ME .
RESPECT ME I WILL JOLLYWELL RESPECT YOU
AND IF U DON AND I WILL EVENTUALLY TREAT YOU LIKE A PIECES OF SHIT ! :D
GOOD LUCK TO EVERYONE AND INCLUDING ME , MUM , XIAO MEI , DA JIE , UNCLE :D

From : Ethan Chan
philosophere Ethan<3>

thing that never regret

2010-03-11T08:08:00.000-08:00

hmm today was kinda boring luh ... cause went back straight after work and stay at home all the way ... hmm sian , actually was tot of going to clubbing de but den in the end ...never go due to some crop up ... let don talk abt this le bah hmm call receive call from kes and i call back and ask them where are they den they said they are studing and ask me to come , as nothing to do at home den i headed to whampo find kes they all luh hmm currently now they are studying and am blogging LOL cool right haas ... hmm so let wish philp and kes all the best for their exam bah good luck XD

alright gonna blog about other thing le

guess that u guys been hearing stuff like jack neo have a scandal so and so yea

so let jus talk abt his topic bah ...

although recently found out that jack neo outside having some affair and it like

no big deal can donnoe why recently this thing happen and ppl start to said him

stuff and so on but on the other hand do u guys noe that no one ish perfect at all ?

why cant others give him chance to amend his fault ? hmm seriously donnoe wat going

on with singaporean mind set . Tsk i admit that am singaporean too but i don have that tinking at all but den everyone was saying that singapore ish a peaceful place to live in but why all this nonsense have to come out by ppl mouth hmm ... i believe that everyone have a second chance so let not be some protest like wat other country do ... don because of wat ppl have make one mistake and everyone start to pin point him/her or start gossiping abt him etc etc

and i jus realise that ppl like to make a big fuss when some big stars make some mistake .

ish it that they are jealous abt their famous ? or ish it they jus tink that they are 100 percent perfect that they don do mistake ? pls human being tend to make mistake so i don tink it a freaking big deal for u those ppl to make such a big fuss ... especially those REPORTER !!! i tink i do make sense abt this topic so i don tink am in the wrong for posting this up so yap

People try to give in and be abit more forgiveness to other and i believe that will do some good kin for u but for those

GOSSIPER who give bad comment on those big stars who make such a mistake den i tink that u guys life has nothing better to do so jus get an life instead of saying other ppl bad point :)

One last thing that ish JACK NEO ZHI QIANG it abit disappointing that u done such stuff but if u are sincere to amend i bet that u will be some pop stars again and no matter wat happen i still will support ur show and support u yea don give up life or anything else so easy ...

buck up yea jia you XD

From : Ethan Chan

jack neo it not the end yet

look forward and forget the past bah :D

VEX VEX VEX

2010-03-03T21:24:00.000-08:00

am feeling super duper stress now luh donnoe why recently ppl are keep on suspecting his/her own gf/bf seriously wat the fuck can ... when i tend to tell the truth u guys jus freaking don believe and den when i starting to lie abit and u guys can freaking go believe it frankly speaking wtf ish going on with ur head or mind ? am feeling super duper tired liao leh i don wanna this stress keep on upcoming to my freaking head and makes me need to tink this and tink that ... u guys noe better wat am i and hows my character i don need u guys to freaking teach me how to do and so on i noe wat am doing and so wat i did make a mistake before ? it doesn't mean that i be freaking condem by u ppl forever right ! am starting to get piss with wat ur mind tinking abt and so on cause watever i did not do anything and u guys will be saying that wat ? i flirt , i go out with other ppl having sex with other ? everyone do have a past i believe and one more thing ish am not a perfect person ! if u wanna find a perfect person that won lie that alway freaking follow u have look and so on den be my guest and go find urself i do admit that am not really a perfect person but so wat if u tink am not a perfect person den in the first place why u freaking wanna be with me den ? FUCK !

pls lah i have enough stress and i don wanna add on any problem more into my stress liao luh i cant forget my past and whenever reach till late nite where am alone i will start to tink abt those unhappy thing . why ? cause it meant alot to me that why i cant forget , u guys tink i don wanna to forget those unhappy past ? haiz i seriuosly have nth to said . why am complaining down here instead of face to face talk ? cause i don wanna freaking cause a fight with u that why i keep in my freaking heart and complaining down here . i really wish i could find one place and freaking shout out loud and cry out loud jus because of my stress ish adding on . i don really noe wat to do next all i can do ish freaking walk one step count one step ... i don need any single psycology help from u guys at all cause i can heal myself u guys can said am crazy ! YAH SO WAT IF AM REALLY CRAZY ? it doesn matter to u guys cause u guys makes me to become and behave this way ... from now on i gonna be hard hearted, cold hearted and SURPASS everyone and i make sure i make my future with a freaking light infront of me so that i can show u guys that wat am good at and u guys can simply look down on those freaking N level student ... i make sure am gonna be somebody one day . jus freaking wait and see !!!

From : ETHAN
i don give a freaking damn now
feeling like crying out loud haiz ...

FOR YOU BITCH

2010-02-27T02:32:00.000-08:00

SPECIAL DEDICATED FOR U BITCH !!!

listen up bitch , don tink that u have score ur result well and u can simply jus saying other bad point out . wat abt u u ? jus shut up and out a dudor in ur freaking mouth or u can even take some guys dick to stuck in ur mouth jus to make sure u are shut mute ...
acting as a pro bitch ? fuck u den _l_
there one word to said u and i tink it match u quite well that ish
freaking arrogant bitch ! u tink u are pretty and comparing ur look toward other ?
WAH SEH bird talking sia *tweet tweet* bet that ur house no mirror right that why u cant
even see ur freaking "cinderella" face i mean as in other kind of cinderella like those
having freaking arrogant attitude , speak at ppl back , comparing the look toward other where
u don even have that look at all OMG CAN!!!
look am not trying to be a bitch down here but ish u are the one who make me piss off with ur attitude . wat u tell other ? saying that "UR FRENZ" hello wat ish that to do with ur frenz ?
u tink ur frenz ish better den her frenz ? if u tink that ur frenz ish really that good and u can showing off them infront of everyone den why not showing ur bf or frenz to goverment better right ? wake up ur freaking mind lah bitch don tink that ur backup ish big and u can jus talk without using ur 3 year old brain to tink lah hor ....
and one more thing get this right bitch if u tink that u are most pretty and u are well protected
gal in this world den i can said that u done a good job for that but too bad u're not !!!
There ish one more thing that u have to noe that ish there are still lots of ppl more pretty den u ! don tink that u are everything to other cause u are jus a frog in a well that never even fully seen the freaking world so jus don comparing urself toward other . Know why ? cause in the end u are jus making a big hilarious joke of urself ...
bet that u from sec one till sec 4 u have lots of joke history so i don tink u wan any other joke to
come out anymore right ? SO BETTER STOP ALL UR FREAKING UNNECESSERY NOUNSENE DEN !
having so much confident in urself by asking someone smarter den u to talk to u ?
i bet there not a need to waste the freaking time to talk to u den ...
if u tink that u are smarter den my brother den prove urself and stop gossiping abt other
if his a brainless chap den how abt u ?
ignorant bitch ?
arrogant bitch ?
self decieve bitch ?
or maybe jus a
DIABOLICAL P.L.K ?
maybe u should really get some life to do frankly speaking u are
jus getting on other ppl nerve .
am posting this all thing in my blog ish not going againist u
jus to let u wake up ur mind BITCH ... anyway no point talking to u
and saying much abt those unglam stuff abt u yea so
yap bitch take notes of all i write and started to tink wat u wanna do
next yea stop acting as a childish immature bitch u are old enough to tink
unless u have some speciality in ur brain or mindset lah den i have nothing to said ...
so yap this for u bitch

From : Ethan

to those pathetic bitch

haiz moody day

2010-02-03T09:42:00.000-08:00

Hmm am back to blog again recently really busy with stuff and no time to blog and so on ...
wat am i going to write ? i donnoe . haiz why everytime am in alone mode i start to tink of everything that use to happen in the past ... i really having a big regret a big big big regret that someone that actually can break my heart deeply ... i tot that i have already got over him but NO !!! i haven... went back to kb my last time hometown and make me recall alot of memories down there and i will start to tink of i use to have a beri beri good frenz and everything that we do together i will never forget though he hurt me so deep and betray me i don really wanna blog abt him but this ish only the way i can shout out loud ...
when ever i tink back of him , my heart really bleed and cry , yet at the outside am staying beri strong ... i wanted to cry out loud real real loud but i hold on to myself and i control when i really feel like crying haiz i donnoe wat got into me perharp that his the only one i trust the most bah haiz maybe i still need time to get over it bah ... haiz this time round i lose to myself again , i shed tear for him again ... i wanted to get rid of this feeling but i cant , haiz guess that i need to make myself more and more busy so i don have the time to go think of that bah ... recently my mood was like freaking moody can .... but am jus putting a fake smile on my face that all ... so that everyone tot that am fine , but actually not haiz i noe it really stupid for me to tink back abt him again but i had no choice i cant forget how he treat me luh haiz ... don talk abt this anymore le bah am not in the good mood to said this as am already dropping tears right now but who can see ? who will noe ? no one ! cause i had never told other abt my feeling cause i don really need any sympathy from other ... my own problem i can handle myself , i really donnoe wat to write and so on i only had the feeling of lonely in my heart ... haiz i really wanna gone crazy liao luh ... i don wanna to write anymore le cant control myself right now ... anyway recently meet up with liying they all really ish a fun day hmm and mahjong all the way luh hmm ... kkae bah nth much le luh the rest of my problem i shall keep it to my heart can le bah ain't gonna tell anyone abt my feeling so yap it my decision and i decide to go my own path le ... hmm kkae bah shall blog till here le bah takeaire earthling

LOVES :
From : Nelson aka Ethan
the day when i feel so lonely !!! haiz

AM BACK TO SINGAPORE !!!

2010-01-20T18:01:00.000-08:00

YO!!! Am back to singapore hahas ... guys i can tell u all that melbourne ish really a freaking

nice place to go and guess wat there are lot and lot of fun over there go for sightseeing and shopping and so and so really a place for tourist luh if u guys need a immigration u guys can consider melbourne it really fun and lot of place that really attract ppl ... hmm alright not saying much let head to the topic of my trip to melbourne ...

basically , wanted to go melbourne alot and finally i can get to go there and wat i expect was another not really attraction place for ppl but guess that am wrong ! cause when the first thing i step down to the airport it was like Eeee so messy and so old , but the next moment i step out of the airport it another thing can . i spend my 1 whole week over there and we get to see quite alot of thing ... we went for the GREAT OCEAN ROAD , MELBOURNE CENTRAL , ROYAL ARCADE , KING ST , MELBOURNE CHINATOWN , DAVID JONES , MYER , CROWN CASINO AND LOT AND LOTS OF PLACE !!! and it was really a shopper heaven hmm bought alot of thing down there and it all on sales most of the thing gone to half price but still ex ! LOL !!! went to try out alot of food and the portion of the food down there ish JUMBO man have to force ourself to finish up the food ... hmm alright let head to the GREAT OCEAN ROAD TOPIC

it was really a beri beri nice view down there and the wind , the breeze , the mountain , the cliff , the sea , and the flower was soo natural wanna view the photo pls go to my facebook and see cause i have already upload the photo to share with u guys ! ^^ hmm went to take the helicopter for a better view of the GREAT OCEAN ROAD ... and it totally diff from the land man ... GOSH it soooooooooooo much more beautiful den u see on the land ... really no bluff ! hmm the tour to the great ocean road take us half day to reach there and jus for a couple of hour and we head back to hotel it kinda boring when we heard that the tour guide said we have to go back to hotel hmm but no choice we have to go cause it will be taking us 5 hour to reach back to melbourne CPD area ... hmm it was really s tiring day but it soo much fun den in sg hmm as day pass by time really flew fast wat i can said was if i no NS i might consider to go there find work and stay down there ... hmm 7 day ish totally not enough for u us to explore every part of the attraction of the australia side luh hmm but nvm i tink there will be another chance i be going there and spend my holiday hmm ... but on the Three day it kinda unlucky for us cause alvin lost his whole wallet with 700 australia money and 5 credit card inside luh ... it really sway for him luh ... hmmm lucky got his cousin over there if not i also donnoe how he gonna spend his day down there ... hmm after that of cause we carry on our shopping mood haas it really really fun shopping oversea bought quite alot of thing for frenz ... (not bad uh ^^)

hmm the beri last day when we was at the airport ... i cant wait for the plane to arrive fast cause i really miss my mum alot luh hahas and now yap am at home blogging already haha but after reach singapore am really miss melbourne alot alot alot luh hmm ...

and i have decided le if i really can pass my private O level or higher nitec i might consider going australia to get my diploma cert so yap wish me good luck yea ... hmm cant wait for tat day to come ! hmm nothing much le bah that all abt it le haha ... if u guys wanna noe wat kind of feeling over there i can tell u guys when we meet up yea hahas so that will be our coffee talk topic yea hahas LOL !!! see ya guys nite earthling

From : Ethan Chan

Anything can go my FACEBOOK to

check out everything haas

nites

back to blog again !

2010-01-08T17:35:00.000-08:00

hmm well am back to blog again as it been a freaking long i never blog le ...

Alright i did not blog due to my laptop was down and now landed in the hospital (laptop servicing) hmm sian den have to use other laptop to blog hmm ...
what i have been doing ? hmm actully nothing much , doing the same thing ,
work , go find frenz , go home ... hmm another four more day and i off to MELBOURNE !!!
and will be busy packing my luggage ... ok gonna blog one more thing that have been bugging
me long long time le ... hmm it been a long time liao and yet i still cant get over u ... haiz i donnoe wat happen to me and wat going on with me , i jus cant simply trust anyone else beside u , the last time i trust u and yawhui and now u left and i only can trust him as my brother ...
haiz , i jus cant get the answer why i treat u as my own brother and yet u can jus betray and backstab me like that ... that really hurt ! i promise myself not to tink too much liao ... as it a
new year i have to lead a life that belongs to me ! i don wan those memories that i had with u
keep on bugging me , i wanted to forget but i jus couldn't do it ! haiz but nevermind lah since it a new year it 2010 i have to lead on to my own life and not missing u too much !!! i said it i mean it ! i have pull thru all thsi while without u this kind of bros ! am ok with it cause u choose to go this way so am not gonna to turn back anyway ... even if one day u become like **** or being dump by ur frenz or best frenz don come find me cause i won even pity u ! cause in the first place u treat other for granted and i only can said that a retribution for u ! am not gonna curse u at all ... cause everyone leave has his/her own reason so i tink i noe the reason but i won stated out here ... but somehow i do really miss the day with u but anyway all the best to u first yea !

oh another thing ish that i gonna to find another part time job liao

sometime wanna ppls wanna to become famous , rich , pretty , handsome etc ...
they have to take the risk ! so that in order for me to be rich ! i gonna to take that risk and
wat i wish was all the best to me and nothing will happen to me too hmm anyway i
won be telling anyone wat job am finding cause it gonna be my personnel thing as i jus wanna to become super super rich so
i can get wat i wan and no one will ever look down on me or ppl around me !
hmm gonna wish me good luck on finding my part time job ...
sry for telling anyone but that me ! i don wanna gain any more sympathy from other anymore as i also don wan it but donnoe why ppl jus like to sympathy me so much wat the fuck !!!
why i said this ish because recently there are some CHEESEPIE !!! trying to talk behind my back , so wat if i don have a dad and i have only mum uh ! all i can said that my mum ish great
she can do father and mother job at the same time and she strong so i don feel pity tat i don have a dad uh ... _l_ nah give those ppl who i referring de u guys are nothing better den a CHEESEPIE !!! DON GET WAT I MEAN OF CHEESEPIE ? SO I TELL U CHEESEPIE=CHEEBYE UNDERSTAND NOW ?
hmmm feel much better to shout out loud at here as i don like much trouble so i don confront them but to shout at here ... hmm feeling much more relieve now haas
kkae bah nothing much le nite earthling !!!

From : Ethan Chan

Ain't gonna give a fucking damn to u

oh yah ppl don ask me who are they

cause i won mention their name de

anyway those cheese pie ppl u all donnoe de

ish my other group frenz who like to look down on ppl alot de

hmm cheers Ethan !!!

hmm

2009-12-10T21:49:00.000-08:00

hmm another piss off day ...
go to work as usual and do my thing and guess wat
my here the uncle go take the ladder and climb up the tree and cut the donnoe wat plant
and den he accidentally cut himself and me and all of us happen to be outside and all was
being scold by my captain ... where my captain never even see wat happen in the first place
actually the uncle cut himself before climbing up de luh den our captain said we jus sit down
there and act as if we never see anything where the uncle suddenly take the ladder and climb up
de luh ... seriously wtf mah being scold for nth ... and all of us go tell the uncle that next time wan do
anything , call us to help u , don do thing alone where u noe u cant do that urself . den straight
all of us totally no mood because of that uncle thing luh ... den when open shop liao got two group
come straight in and total child they bring ish 60 plus where our museum can only bring 40
den the teacher plead us den i said nevermind bah i take this whole group luh den my chik said ok
hmm they are really fun they keep running to my side and hug my leg and ask alot of ques where it a common sense question ... haha they are seriously so cute yea ! hmm
hmm they are all from korea childcare centre hmm when i finish the tour i said
KAM SA HUM MI DA ... and all the kids face was like O.O" den the teacher said
OMG U CAN SPEAK KOREA !!! den i said nope haha i only noe this sentence ...
den the teacher said wow u must be doing homework before we come right i jus give
them this look :) haas
and they said they like my tour alot and keep on said well done ... hahas
that really brighten up my day XD
hmm and now was super duper tired cause at home never get the chance to have a good
sleep ... hmm cause yesterday sasi came to my house and slack ...
den pei her till quite late cause today ish her last day .
this few day went out with her really have a good fun and really happy at least no one sms me
and disturb me keep asking where am i and den forget reply start to find fault with me ...
hmm feeling so relax and today was her last day staying in singapore le ... and she be coming back at next year nov or dec again le... hmm don worry SASI KOK we will miss u de yea ...
next year come out we go other place more fun de kkae ^^ hahas don feel sad le lah u left one more year u jiu can come back singapore stay forever liao jus bear with it yea !!!

agree with everyone hmm said don talk abt that thing and start to post thing

in his blog again hmm since that in his life he only noe how to assume thing where it not the fact
hmm den let him be bah hahas ... only jerk would do those thing and don dare admit de ...
if i were him i rather go thai and transexual myself cause no point having balls where he don even dare to admit his a kind of that ... hmm sad nevermind should not polute my blog anymore ... hahas kkae bah anyway takeaire yea SASI MAIPORN !!! haha ...

From : Ethan Chan
a bastard ish alway a bastard
a jerk will alway stay as a jerk !!!

some ppl talk without using some sense

2009-12-07T18:55:00.000-08:00

hmm nothing much to blog abt jus wanna to post something that i must clarify thing out .
first , happen to pass by some ignorance bitch blog and saw some comment that he post de
and those guest post de ... and he can tot ish me totally oh my tian can ... how i noe he was
referring me ? beri simple ... base on wat he said : oh do u noe he been play by his ex ?
with his this sentence can really see how immature ish he and he can keep on saying me
am the more immuture ... diao luh aiya nvm bah maybe he still young lah . haven see the
world yet donnoe wat ish independent only noe how to depend on his parent ... joke saying
i been play by my ex ? so wat about u ? pointing at me using ur index finger ish actully using
ur four finger pointing at urself back ? bet that u donnoe right ? wat else u noe ? nothing but
only noe how to look down on ppl ? Gees !!! please don over confident that u are high class level
and saying am a low class ppl ? hmm tink again and look at the mirror before u said other .
wat do u mean by high class ppl ?
can easily bought wat u wan ?
study in a poly ?
own a mac book and a desk top ?
can go anywhere without worrying abt u don have any money ?
slp in peace no need to worry ur everything cause u have ur parent to support ?

i can jus said that wat u tink ish totally ish a boy not a man yet

till the day u can really independent u will noe wat the feeling of being stress over everything
Erm Opps i tink am wrong again . XD
cause u don even noe wat ish independent right ... xiao boy boy
noe why u donnoe wat ish independent ? cause u are the only child in the home
and u don even noe wat ish bond ?
wat ish love ?
wat ish family ?
all u noe ish wat u wan ur parent will get for u !
starting to feel more and more sad for u leh .
noe why cause u can only have the feeling of being alone as in u don even noe wat
ish the feeling of having a sister , brother ?
u donnoe the fun ! wan blame ? blame it on ur whoever born u de behh !
trying to be demanding ?
looks u are not fit to be a true man u won see the world urself !
all u can see ish all those fake thing that ish happening infront of u !
come on , dude face the reality man !
grow up lah eh !
i said i won go do anything to u mean i won ! don bad talk abt me yea !
if u wan ? i can be more bitch den u SPOIL BRAT !!!
don tink that u are alway the highest person in the world cause there are
still alot of ppl more more high den u !
trying to prove that u are a high profile person ?
den get everything urself instead of asking thing from ppl .
if one day u really can do that i will salute to u ! but sad to said that u will never
do it ! cause all u noe ish to leak other ppl secret out and said something that ish not true at all

FRENZ OF HIS

i donnoe he got give u guys my blog link not . i donnoe
but if got and u guy happen to come and read it .
ask him to face the fact and change him man ...
all his speech to u all ish only a LIE !!!
that wat i can said !
for him ----> do u noe wat ish frenz ? or bff ?
they are all there to help u and not to let u cheat , take them for granted !
all u noe ish to hide the fact from ur frenz ... telling thing that ish not the true and
saying sarcastic thing ? haas sometime i really feel so sad for ur frenzz also leh
they have try to protect u by not letting other to scold u or said u but
the fact ish they donnoe that they have protect the wrong person ! if one day they came
to noe the whole thing ! hah !!! u be in deep trouble ! eventually all will start to leave u !
and that the time u start to feel lonely !
u don wan that right ?
den treat ur frenz equally den don treat them like a fool ... u have been lying to them alway
so u better change cause at home u already ish a pathetic kids le bet that u don wan outside u
also alone right .... hmm tink that u noe wat i mean bah eh ?
and lastly don judge ppl by saying u are a high class person and other ish a low class person
u wan judge , yea of cause u can but till the day u really don depend on other ! get everything urself and do everything urself don depend on ur parent den ! if one day u really can depend everything on ur own den u said urself ish a high class person bah .
if u don , den SHUT UP !!! AND HIDE BEHIND UR WHOEVER PUSSY MAN ...
Gosh u are getting on my nerves !!! that why i post this blog post in my blog !
get thing right before u said me ! check the ip address before u start to put thing in for me yea !
not happy with wat i write ?
call me out meet one place and talk den !
i make sure u be in a guilty state .
wanna ask why u should be guilty ?
haas ... cause that post in ur fucking tagbox ish not i post and if u check the ip address
and mine ip address and u will noe that u blame the wrong person and den u jus leak out ppl
secret ! ish ok since u have already said it ... forget it am not going to said so much .
wat i can said ish that karma will falls on u soon !!!
although u propersly said my secret that i told u de u jus post it in ur blog
and tell ur frenz !
i can only said that said wat u wan bah i won be like u ! said ppl thing out ...
i also noe ur thing but i still won said out i won revenge because of wat u do to me !
cause everything happen for a reason ... am mature enough to noe wat can said and wat
cannot be said am not like u !!! pathetic spoil brat GOSH !!!
if u are looking at my post ! read it and go fucking reflex urself see whos in the wrong lah eh !
don alway think that u are in the right and other ish in the wrong ...
now den i noe why ur galfrenz leave u too ... cause lack of secure tat why he follow others
if u are full of secure no one will leave u de !!! go train up ur secure first bah uh !
gosh !!! not going to said so much of ur thing on my blog ! cause it make me piss off !
buai pathetic spoil brat !

From : Ethan Chan
get thing right before u assume that person ish me
FUCK U REALLY BERI BERI MUCH !!!PUAI
HIGH CLASS PEOPLE ?
HAAS JOKES !!!

thursday nite

2009-12-03T18:57:00.000-08:00

jus finish my hair cut at *heatwave*

after haircut toilet camwhore !

at killiney having our dinner hmm

before leaving work to meet alvin ...

some over due pic hmm

our gross eating style

pic 2 (falend)

lay hong unglam looks haas

taken at orchard central while slacking

haas really nothing to do so camwhore ^^

morning earthling ^^
gonna blog about yesterday outing haas
alright yesterday went out with alvin was a great fun
first we went to shop around at penisular to bought a bag from there
and den we head to marina square and find saloon while walking to there
walk pass city link and went to pedro shop and guess wat their new arrival
have arrive ... wtf gonna buy their shoe omg so nice can !!!
but jus taking a look at there only den continue to walk and walk pass newurbanmale
guess wat again NEWURBANMALE ISH ON SALES AGAIN BUY TWO ITEM FREE ONE
ITEM !!! totally omg luh am going to gone crazy now ... hmm nvm slowly buy can liao hahas
no need in a rush de . hmm so went to marina square cut hair we decided to go HEATWAVE
and cut hmm not bad their service i like it cause need to wear a robe before cutting hair ....
cool right !!! hmm agree it my first time to there so i tink ish ok and thier cutting skill cool !!!
hmm den went to FOURSKIN to buy shirt hmm also like it alot ! den went to arcade to ply mahjong hmm alvin was so funny can he keep being bluff by the machine haas ... anyway it a fun outing yesterday and went bugis walk walk awhile and we off back to home liao ...
hmm leg was super duper tired luh ...

oh ya must post something happen today and it totally a joke of the day .

early in the morning and someone msg me and said something so stupid that make me feel
that am talking to a 3 year old kid . GOSH !!! his tinking was sooooo
"mature" (trying to be sarcastic) can ! saying am a kid where he trying to seek attention everywhere and trying to act pity infront of other ! am not gonna stated out who ish it but
jus gonna said that his a fucking attention seeker and easily piss off OH MY TIAN can ...
trying to slang his ang mo with me and yet sound so childish haiz seriously feel so pity of him
maybe ish that he all the while being spoil by whoever bah ... tat why he become a spoil brat bah
but nevermind whatever it ish over ish over le bah not going to give a damn to him anymore bah ask me to reflect myself seriously he don even noe wat he ish talking about luh ...
tink that he should be the one who go reflect himself and stop tinking like a kid bah gosh
see whose talking now sia ... totally joke of the day can !!! saying am a immature psb ?
den him leh haas not gonna to said abt him cause the more i talk abt him the more i felt that
his trying to make himself like a fool infront of ppl ! jus felt that his so hilarious can i jus cant believe there such ppl in this world ... neverever put himself into other ppl shoe
GOSH selffish bastard , tink that everyone like him ? born in a good family where he can jus get anything as he wan ? haas tink there only one word to describe him useless ! although he had study in poly but his tinking was like primary sch or some secondary 1 or 2 tinking OH MY TIAN joke joke joke of the day man ... make my day brighten by his hilarious joke ... god pls seriously pls bless him and give him
some wisdom bah and make him stop tinking like a kid . oh my tian !!! hmm tink nothing more
to write le bah anyway takeaire earthling the most important thing ish .
GOD PLEASE BLESS HIM ! THX

From : Ethan Chan
i believe that my tinking ish much
more muture den u kiddo !!!!
and lastly u will be gone forever in
ETHAN CHAN JUN XI LIFE !!!

my blogskin

2009-12-03T00:25:00.000-08:00

hmm am back to blog again hahas

ok am gonna to blog abt what am doing recently hmm
meet up with sebas , jojo , falend and lay hong ...
hmmm go out with them having a great fun cause we can from a
topic slowly talk to sex topic luh totally diao sia ...
we say liao don say abt sex topic but den we will eventually turn a big round
back to the sex topic luh damn funny and we discuss abt sex too ...

Alright gonna post on 24 nov de

meet up with jojo , sebas , falend and shao wei ...
hmm went to city link walk walk den went to marina square
hmm had our dinner at the food court and after eating we jus went around chit chat
and we sit down on a corner to chat haas...
chat and chat and eventually we chat till sex topic also donnoe why ...
hahas but it so much fun when we had our outing ever since so long back luh
hmm den falend feel so awkward when we talk abt it lah ... also donnoe why -_-"
haas den after that shao wei came to meet us ...
hmm his kinda sad but am not going to said why he so sad down here ...
but jus to said cheer up yea shao wei u will see the rainbow one day de ^^ jiayou !!!

2dec outing

hmm straight to the point of yesterday outing hahas ...
meet up with layhong , falend , jojo , and sebas ...
we were so crazy yesterday can ... hmmm went to iluma ply arcade
and do alot of stuff ...hmm den after that guess wat ?
it our chit chat session again ... hahas went to TCC slack and talk
hmmm and again we talk to sex topic again ... diao
hahas den after that jojo ask one question .
hey , this water glass drop on the floor will break onot uh
den i said i tink won bah . cause the floor ish make of carpet de
den he ji tao so drama can he say oh shit and the next moment the glass
ish on the floor liao and den the glass break and shatter over the floor and
his face was like O.O" den we ji tao laugh sia !!! damn funnny can ....
his reaction was like in a shock luh even now i was blogging am laughing all
the way sia cause cant forget how his reaction luh hahas .
anyway yesterday was so much fun outside and ...
hmm now we only awaiting for our cycling nite ^^
wit sebas , jojo , falend and maybe lay hong ...
hahas cant wait for that day to come cause i tink it will be a great fun
on that day ...
hmm ok i tink tat all for the outing le we taken quite lot of pic but it at falend hp
he don wan send me so wanna see jus go his blog and see yea hahas
this ish his blog llink : http://falend-at-farawayland.blogspot.com
or u can find on my link too hahas
but i tink he will upload late bah cause he jus lazy to upload hmm ...
alright guess that u guys been notice something right that ish i change my blog skin le
hahas i like this blog skin and it really nice hmm ^^ song ish hidden de hmm
ok bah enjoy yea will upload soon de ... guess nothing le bah hmm
takeaire earthling

From :Ethan Chan
till the day i close my eye <3

bored bored bored

2009-11-28T23:17:00.000-08:00

hmm today ish my second extra day
haiz so so sian can !!! haiz
actually can rest at home de donnoe why wan
give this kind of extra lah wtf can ... hmm
ok am gonna blog about recently wat happen
went to penisular the ACID CLUE there to see tatoo with yawhui
that day hmm den saw my tatoo that i really wanted to put de hmm
total cost 900 buck can ... but it half chest lah hmm so ish ok lah quite cheap
already hmm so yaw hui and i decided to put the same tatoo on the chest
i do right he do left hahas ... really cant wait for the day to come
that tatoo i have been seeing for quite long le since last year
and wanted to put but no time ... so now got time le i must really do
hmm we decided put on 13 dec hmm ...
13 DECEMBER faster come pls i beg u hahas lols
den i jiu can go put le save have to ultra ultra save money save money hahas
hmm oh yah anyway jan going to australia le hmm going there to play haas
and am going to melbourne so happy but abit sad cause i cannot see my loves
one for few days for example my MUMMY , and my FRENZ and so and so ....
haiz but nevermind lah australia trip will be fun and fast ... i hope my mummy can do well in
singapore hmm ... oh ya and have not seen my mummy for few days le am missing her alot
hahas oh gosh why i write all this thing her sia siao hahas forget it ...
ok and from now on am going to cut down my club le as i said i wanted to save money mah
hmm so YAWHUI LET FACE THE DEAD TOGETHER ON 13 DECEMBER YEA HAHA
U GONNA PUT FIRST AS U INSIST SO I GONNA SEE HOW U GOING TO BEAR THE
PAIN !!! WAU KAO !!!
hmm ok that too over of me ... maybe ish because am too boring down here le ...
hmm kkae bah nothing much le will blog soon ...
gonna blog in my private blog now to said everything i unhappy with so buai buai and
takeaire earthling ....

FROM : Ethan chan
i love those people around me
even though they wear fake mask infront of me
MUACKS !!!

PICTURE OF DA JIE 21st BIRTHDAY

2009-11-15T21:35:00.000-08:00

the family of us but xiao mei not there
nevermind next time still can take hahas

this ish wat i bought for
my da jie b'day present ^^
it beri nice tat she show to
everyone and everyone said super nice hahas

alone at orchard ION outside saw this
Christmas tree and start to camwhore around

my da jie birthday celebration times

me and my da biao jie (clanice)

peek a booos haas

me and that bitch haas
she my sister (layhong TLH)

the four of us alway hang around when free

romantic rite hahas
actually his my brother don
misunderstand uh haas

my biao jie her frenz !

vivian and her boyfriend and also
da jie ...

that my gan jie ^^(SiewPing)

my two lovely gan jie ^^

da jie and siew ping wooo(sexy)haas

my da jie de long long bestie sister !!!

we wanting to wack da jie long
time ago le now got the chance
ka cha !!! haas

kb gans (but not all ):(

erm come give some post =p

eh yawhui uh cannot lyk tat look uh
so rude !

she insisi wan take wit me den ok luh
hahas she xiao feng

ah ting , xiao feng, vivian

alpha family ? hmm two not inside hmm

she keep wan to take wit my mummy
den let her luh hahas

that the cakes
hmm actually can take whole cakes pic de
but beside me got ppl so only take half zzz

sis and her lovely bf hahas

celebration start !!!

see da jie smile so wide
hmm comfirm ish vivian pass her the smiling
skill de hahas :P

happy birthday to uuuuuuu....

drink wit cousin ^^

we rocks!!!!

da jie second group frenz

da jie , ah ting , ah wen

da jie and our gan ma (godmother)

the four of us say chesse

biao jie , gan ma , da jie , mummy

da jie and biao jie

second post !!!

third post haas

da jie and the pub boss

da jie and her sweet boyfriend

mark , grace, dajie , peter

being snap shot while smoking

my biao di and da jie

biao di frenz and da jie

mummy and her gans

the sisters !!!

family ^^

mummy and da jie

hmm that all for the day hmm

to da jie this time the cakes cant manage to give u nevermind '
next year i go order liao den give u for the present hahas
kkae lastly happy 21st birthday da jie ^^
may all ur wish come true ...

why everything seems so weird

2009-11-15T19:59:00.000-08:00

hmm alright gonna blog today ... hmm
ever since my life have change to another life ...
i jus felt that am so relieve without u by my side ...
i choose to leave u , i choose to forget u but somehow
i jus cant remove u from my mind . WHY ?
can anyone tell me why ?
haiz even i cant find the ans for myself too ...
i admit that all the while am jus trying to hide everything ,
keep everything to myself , never ever let anyone see my emotion , but whenever i
tink back how u treat me good and how u treat me bad since the day u noe someone
i jus cant bear to drop my tears , all the bad memories u gave me all the good memories
u gave me i jus cant simply forget and put away everything .
i want to move on , simply forget everything ...
forget the hurt that u gave me ... but whenever am trying my best to forget
and i'm on my way to forget , u never fail to appear again .
why ? why ? why ? u are making me damn confuse right now .
at first u choose to leave me and now u saying all this thing ...
why u choose to call me instead of other ... u told me that u don have anymore frenz left
so u choose to call me ... but ... haiz i donnoe wat to said le am really speechless liao luh ...
hmm wanna to said alot of thing to u but am not going to said down here .... am going to write e
everything in my private blog as u said don let anyone noe what happening to u .
so i respect ur decision and i will continue to write in my private blog ...
jus cheer up bah there will be a one fine day coming to u soon de ...
i promise myself not to drop any tear for u but i fail
when i heard u crying over the phone my heart feel sour and
start to drop tear ... i also donnoe why lyk that .
after da jie de celebration we reach k box u call me and
said abt ur thing ... i can see that u call me alot of time and u really need my console .
i really don wanna to pick up ur call but u keep call and call i can sense that something bad ish happening to u so i jus pick up and the moment u heard my voice u cry so badly ... and tell me everything and u jus cry and cry that the time u are making me feeling so down and cant bear it jus cried out ... haiz as i told u before not to believe anyone le but u
jus don trust me and u go believe in other now u are getting
hurt again ....
haiz
kkae anything jus call me i noe u will come see my blog so this ish for u ...
anything jus call me and chat bah i can accom u chat and cheer u up ... don tink too much
i will not let anyone noe that u are contacting me ...

alright not gonna said at this thing le ...

let said abt DA JIE birthday hahas
so long never blog liao le now going to write about wat happening at da jie birthday ...
first get up in the morning prepare and rush down to kallang bahru to get the birthday cakes
before getting the birthday cakes i go ION to buy the alchol bag
guess wat that bag cost 12.9o wtf can so ex but no choice have to buy cause if not i
don have any paper bag liao ...
den after everything went down to 7 haven at kampong bahru there the pub where
the party held . we having alot of fun haas am the camera man of the day using
my digital camera hahas not those dslr or eos de cam lah hahas
alright i shall let the pic do the talking hahas see next post for the picture bah hahas

From : Ethan Chan
when u said u love me i feel so
untouchable...

a heart to heal

2009-11-09T22:46:00.000-08:00

The Visionary had another troubling vision. In his dream he saw multitudes of people suffering from a terrible sickness. They cry night and day and plead for help.

Immediately, the Visionary went to the Inspirer and alerted her of his visions. To his surprise however, the Inspirer continued to attend to a woman kneeling at her feet.

“Can’t this wait?” the Visionary snapped. “We have a lot of things to do.”

“But can’t you see? This woman’s heart had just been broken!” the Inspire exclaimed.

“That’s just one heart!” the Visionary protested. “More people will suffer if we do not hurry.”

“That is where you are wrong,” the Inspirer replied. “All evil starts when we begin to ignore one heart. The moment you become comfortable watching a single soul die, you’d have set yourself numb to all other sufferings around you. Before long, you wouldn’t even care if a whole multitude becomes stricken with death as multitudes of people consist only of individual souls. I am not here to save many. I am here to save all by saving one broken soul, one God-given soul at a time.”

From Ethan Chan

loves never dies !!!<3

story of being hurt ...

2009-11-09T22:14:00.000-08:00

hmm currently at work ... doing nothing but to surf net today ...
hmm mind have been tinking lot of thing and i really donnoe wat to
do hmm perharp i jus let the natural take it own course bah ...
ain't going to speak that much ain't gonna to show out my feeling at all
but den i jus keep right inside my heart ... i know that alot ppl wanna to noe
wat ish actually happen to me . and keep asking me ... wat i wanna said was
i noe what am doing and i can handle my own feeling and emotion myself
i won break down and i won burst out ... and i swear that jus don ask too much abt
my thing anymore le hmm i noe u guys wanna to noe more abt me and don wan me
to face thing alone but i jus got one thing to said ish am sorry i won speak out mean
won speak out ... hmm
nvm bah forget abt it le bah hmm i not going to said anymore abt this thing le going to
blog abt some poem hmm.

I will smile again

Though tears flow from these eyes

I will smile again

And trust tomorrow the sun shall rise

Though darkness may enfold me

Though heavy rain can’t help but pour

Though shattered, lost and broken

Though heart could barely bear it all

Though tired and weary and confused

Though badly hurt and bruised

I know that I will smile again

And I will smile again!

From : Ethan Chan
when the time i felt so lost
i really hope u are with me .
but i know it impossible
but i will alway put ur smile in my mind
and my memories !!!

2009-11-07T14:16:00.000-08:00

hmm gonna blog something really make me piss off today ...
haiz ... woke up and go out to meet one of my frenz after doing my thing
den went to take bus ... when the time i alight the bus i never realize that
my hp was not with me until i walk to mrt ... den i touch my pocket and
realize that my hp lost ...
i faster use my full speed and to run back to the bus interchange and
find it ... haiz no use , it already gone ... recently damn sway luh
2 weeks ago i lost my wallet at the driving center den my wallet lost
it on the Saturday , 2 weeks ltr that ish today
i lost my hp ... it also happen on sat . wat the fuck luh happen at the fucking same
timing afternoon going evening liao ... haiz
nvm bah lost den let it lost bah also cant take back liao ...
no point complaining anymore ... mood was freaking down now luh haiz ...
nvm gonna post something nice again ... not in the mood
to continue writing anymore ... so jus read the posting of L.O.V.E

Love is a temporary madness.

It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides.
And when it subsides you have to make a decision.
You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together
that it is inconceivable that you should ever part.
Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness,
it is not excitement,
it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion.
That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are.
Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away,
and this is both an art and a fortunate accident.
Your mother and I had it,
we had roots that grew towards each other underground,
and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches
we found that we were one tree and not two.
Do not think that love in order to be genuine has to be extraordinary.
What we need is to love without getting tired.
Be faithful in small things because it is in them that your strength lies.

From :Ethan Chan
if i has to choose between loving you,
and breathing.
I would use my last breath to say I LOVE YOU.

feeling so strong !

2009-11-05T22:38:00.000-08:00

alright gonna post abt yesterday thing ... hmm went for jameson birthday
at DBL O and it was sooo packs can ... totally no space to dance at all luh wtf
den we jiu go around search for space to dance finally we found it haas
but the song was lyk quite retro luh zzz totally boring and went home
straight ... and late for today work for around 5 to 10 min ...
was freaking piss off because of some idolt at my work place de hmm but ish ok
i don give a damn hmm wan make me into trouble go ahead haas ...
anyway nothing much luh am getting fine with this few day
jus abit moodless because still tinking of the same thing haiz
am really scare it will happen and starting to make me worry
haiz suan le bah i tink not gonna to post my worries down here ... haiz
ok same thing gonna post something here it still the same poem ...

'Neath velvet cloth of night and shadows,

my heart confessed its thoughts to the wind.
I could feel your smile from a distance
with the touch of your closeness profound.
The sun reached behind a fading sky,
so the moon could take its proper place.
Day to darkness, brightened by the stars,
leaving upon the blue waters
a shimmering portrait of your face.
You, with all your savoring sweetness,
tenderly pierced the walls of my soul
as you wove a new tapestry with
the golden threads of your hope and love.
Yesterday you offered me courage,
today you endowed me with your strength.
Every moment together, a gift.
Every day a celebration of life.
How lovely the music of your heart.
You are the air I breathe, sound I hear
and the spirit that gently moves me.
I don't wish for the moon, because I have the stars.
You hold my hand, I caress your lips,
You look into my eyes and my heart beat skips.
I stroke your back skin so soft and smooth,
I admire your face, every line, every groove.
We move in a little closer, our bodies entwine,
you touch my neck, it sends shivers down my spine.
You whisper that you love me and I know it's true
because I feel it in my heart and I love you too.
And if eternity is the time I must wait
Than I will wait all eternity
For as the earth crumbles away
My feelings are indestructible
And if you keep going on your way
Im afraid to say
I may always be trapped in this game
For as long as the sun rises
And the stars shine
My feeling for you will stay the same .
Breeze skipping over water,
Water reflecting lights strung over the bridge,
Lights shining in your eyes.

The fresh, bold feeling of something new,
As winter melts into liquid spring,
And summer takes shape and ripens alongside love.

The petals from the flowering trees, snow for the summer,
Floating down around us as we kiss,
Once, twice, then forever.

You aren’t just the one i love .

You're my everything .

From : Ethan Chan

This ish the time i getting to worry more !
haiz takeaire and loves <3

string of life ...

2009-11-04T00:22:00.000-08:00

hmm another day have pass and getting more and more sian in
army life liao luh haiz donnoe wat to do at all haiz ....
after work go meet up with frenz and slack ...
when day passing by , am getting more and more exhausted
donnoe why . maybe ish because lack of sleep bah hmm
i wan a long long long long hours for me to sleep ...
an peaceful and long hours of sleep ....
where i wake up i can have the feeling of being reborn haas
going for massage ... am not complaining but am jus stating the fact that
army life ish soooo boring can pay really damn less luh ... haiz wat to do
every guy have to serve NS when they reach 18 or something no one can
escape this kind of fate cause this ish a must ...
alright , i cant also really complain much lah at least i being post to here
the sir all dotes me alots cause i been help them to do thing ....
have to said this clear first .... am not boot licking them , by helping them to do
thing cause i don even care abt the rank at all all i noe ish i jus serve my NS and
fuck off from here and get a stable job to do ... yes !!! that what i wan haas
and last but not least i can get whatever i wan if can work outside job haas
cant wait to ORD ... 1 and the half years more to go sian ...
so as to make my life here not so boring , so i have to help out them by doing thing luh haas
that the reason why they dotes me alots hmm i guess nothing more for me to write le bah gonna post something abt life so jus enjoy

Happiness is not found at the end of the road,

it is experienced along the way.
So take not for granted each moment of your life
and you will find a reason to be happy each day.
There are two miseries in life that are truly painful;
one is that when we can't be with the one we love
and the other is when we see our loved ones not getting their happiness.
Happiness is like a butterfly.
the more you pursue it,
the more it will fly away.relax and take your time
and it will come in itself and rest in your shoulders.

From :Ethan Chan
Truth does not always hold happiness,
and happiness does not always hold the truth.
This ish what life are meant to be !
Cheers XD

bla bla black sheep !

2009-11-02T18:32:00.001-08:00

YO am back to blogging haas :)
recently nothing special happen hmm and i'm doing great haas
recently meeting up with lay hong due to something happen to her
and she was damn damn down hmm ... trying to comfort her but in the end
make myself no mood hmm cause was tinking of something that really worry me lots
hmm ... but it still ok wit me still can take it hahas ....
anyway be going to library to do some reseacrh haas as this few day have been
helping my sir to so some research and i find it fun haas using the micro flim
thingy and search although see already will headache lah but still fun hahas
da da ... da da ... da da ... this ish how it sound when u press fast forward cool right haas
hmm tink there nothing much more to post le bah hmm ^^
buai earthling ...

Love ish something weird

it make everyone goes crazy ,
it got the power to make everyone
SAD
HAPPY
JOY
EXCITEMENT
ANGRY
JEALOUS
NO CONFIDENT
DOUBT
and lots of feeling but if u really get to fall in love with someone
do u really miss them lots ?
do u really love them wholeheartly ?
do u feel lyk seeing them every moment ?
do u really wan to be with them every single time ?
do u actually feel happy when u see them ?
do u really wanna to do everything with them together ?
share all the joy together with them ?

MY ANS FOR ALL ISH

YES !!! I WILLING TO DO IT ...
hmm so are u guys willing hmm i hope so
and hereby i wish all the couple everlasting love and stay sweet alway
don envy sweet couple cause u will find one soon ...
jia you all the best to everyone yea
ETHAN hereby wishing everyone found their loves one soon ^^
and lastly am happy to have u around me i love you<3
ALL THE BEST !!!

BUAI EARTHLING !!!

From : Ethan
I LOVE YOU
AKU CINTA KAMU
I MISS YOU !!!
<3>

I'm really hurts this time !!!

2009-10-29T00:53:00.000-07:00

haiz today mood was lyk sooo bad and down ...
i don wanna to tink that much but i jus cant stop tinking
what had happen ... haiz
alright gonna said what gonna happen but not in the full detail ...

haiz i have change into a better person le

from last time i don even care about u guys de feeling . but
now am not the same anymore , i change ! i have change to another person .
don judge me lyk last time can ?
i been trying my beri best to change everything that don link to my past attitude
but u guys jus don even appreciate what the hell am trying to do ...
u guys need help . am the first one to help u guys and in the end u guys are hiding thing
from me ! if u wan to hide thing up from me go ahead but don compare me with other
where i don even look lyk them my pattern don even look lyk that person at all ...
get this right ! i trust u guys so much and in the end u jus said thing that totally not nice ! for me
i don tink there a need for u all to said that leh ... am one of u all too leh
and am not the last time money sucker to u all liao leh i now don even take money from u
all liao leh i depend on my own to live myself i not depending on u all since long time ago leh
hello when can u guys get this right ? only ish i run out i lend from u all but i got return leh
why u all still wanna treat me as a FAN REN ...
i donnoe i because of u guys do so much thing in the end i get return de ish u all de suspect
i seriously donnoe what the fuck i done leh ... since u tink am a money sucker den fine
from now on i won depend on u guys anymore !

i gonna go do my own way and survive u guys don need to care what am doing recently ...
cause i will not tell u all what am doing right now ... cause u guys deeply hurt me this time
no medicine can cure this pain and hurt ... i will rem it forever but i won revenge on u guys
i will still help u guys no matter wat but am not gonna lend any single help from u guys anymore
my own thing i settle my own ... i don need u guys de help at all !!! seriously
erm not going to talk much cause while typing my tear keep on drop i cant really stop
it haiz ... suan le gonna end up here le ... haiz
am being hurt so deeply haiz
sorry frenz not in the mood to meet up !

From : Ethan Chan
totally being hurt !!!

SOPHISCATED

2009-10-25T19:40:00.000-07:00

hmm now currently at my work place updating my blog haas
gonna blog about recently thing hmm

Hmm recently was thinking of something that really

make me hesitate for quite long time luh hmm
that ish why everytime i do something for ppl and i don even get appreciate
at all and in the end i get to blame and don even get any single credit at all
but what to do ? life still goes on mah hmm so i can jus can jollywell shut my mouth
up and do nothing jus to let them continue to take me for granted luh but
whatever it ish i will still continue to help ppl even if they treat me for granted
not that i stupid cause i believe one day got ppl will found out that am good and
i really treat me well de hahas even one day no one find out or wat i will still continue
cause i lyk to help ppl alot hahas as everytime i see they are happy and they joyful
smile after my help to them i feel so peace and happy
donnoe why am lyk this but jus that everytime can get to see them smile
i already happy liao nothing much i can do but at least i got the power to make
people smile ^^ hahas
oh yah and soo long that i have not been posting my pic at my blog liao luh hmm
i will update soon hahas cause no time to update my pic inside my com hmm gonna find
one day and upload those photo inside le kakas
hmm nothing le bah got to go luh hmm buay earthling
gonna post thing at my private blog liao hahas ...

From : Ethan Chan
I LOVE YOU !!!
<3 Muacks

long time no post liao luh

2009-10-23T08:30:00.000-07:00

it been a long long time i have not touch this blog le ish because

recently i been blog in my private blog hmm ... as recently thing keep

happen ... den am not really happy this few day haiz cause thing

happen to be damn unlucky for me luh ... what am i going to do ???

wallet lost , something happen , being said by some NBCB

i feel so pissed and really donnoe what to do should i jus MIA ?

or should i jus carry on what am doing now ... haiz

and something bad happen on me ... i should not mention down here ...

am lost right now ... donnoe what to do ... ish there a way to solve everything ?

yap maybe there ish some way to solve it but it jus that i don willing to try ...

cause i might scare thing goes the other way round ... haiz

am really feeling damn confusing right now ... my mind was empty ...

wat i must do to retrieve everything and get ready to do the for the next thing happen

to me ... haiz really feeling empty in my mind but u guess i might jus go along the flow bah ...

TO : THAT BASTARD

lim pei knnbpcb you man ... hello wanna said i cheap knn u better

look at urself first before saying me lah hor ...

looks whos talking over here sia ... u bitch around with guys and saying i love you

this and that and so and so ... i never even said u or wat ...

u pcb said me cheap ... so wat i go around and hug my frenz ?

hey this ish me ! GET IT ! i used to be sooo open that if u cant accept the way i am

den jolly well fuck off and don come make frenz with me ... _l_

who do u think u are ? hello i don wanna said u only luh ... nb tink what u are rich den ?

fuck off lah u are jus another LOSER that trying to act rich nia luh ...

am not trying to be petty or what by scolding u or cursing u ...

but seriously i need to said u luh ...

GO LOOK URSELF INTO THE MIRROR AND SEE HOW "SLIM" ARE U

LAH HOR . LET SAID EVEN IF U INTIMATE AND HAVE SOME ONE NIGHT STAND

WITH THAT GUYS I CAN SIMPLY TELL U THAT ... THAT GUYS WHO HAVE ONE NIGHT

STAND WITH U WILL EVENTUALLY END UP IN THE HOSPITAL LAH HOR ...

TRYING TO ACT BITCH INFRONT OF ME ? FUCK OFF MAN ...

telling other how bitch are u yea ? u have never seen the whole world before luh ...

i can tell u that am more hotter and sexy and bitchy den u lah hor wanna to

compete with me ? come on lah see u in stage den i not scare of u luh ...

only noe how to grid guys and unzip them ... and slot ur hand inside and touch their dick .

u are nothing better den a animal man ! fucking horny bastard no wonder no one stead with u

and no one willing to be ur bf ! go train somemore years before trying to bitch around lah hor .

if u donnoe me well den jolly well don judge me act as if u really noe me that well ...

i can jus said LIM PEI KAN NI NAN BUAY PUA CHEE BYE ...

KAN NI NA BUAY LAO CHEE BYE !!! U THIS PU BOR KIA :X

u wanna see how bitch am i den i show u ! but u jolly well don go and beat up ur frenz or

at their back backstabbing them ... NA BUAY CHEE BYE

i don easily let out my temper but u force me to do that ...

THIS BASTARD I REFERRING TO ISH U ( B . T )

ppl who go club with me will noe who ish he ... i swear i gonna hate u for life _l_

sorry for being such a rude person this time

Hmm nothing le bah gonna end here le

nite nite earthling

hahas irene from mediacorp channal 5 i love you hahas

u are my idol man ur character really cool i like it hahas ...

From : Ethan Chan

I Love You <3>

Muacks

haiz

2009-10-17T14:21:00.000-07:00

am back to blog again hmm so long never even update my blog liao luh

haiz cause quite busy after come back from genting ...

hmm ok gonna write wat happening in this few day hmm

This few day after come back genting went to suntan with ah na

den after tat went to shop shop at bugis with lay hong and falend hmm

yap it quite fun but jus cant enjoy too much as i sick mah sian 1/2

keep eating medicine den still not okae yet hmm totally damn fuck up ...

hmm ... den today went clubbing after work with some frenz and

hahas it really damn fun but i jus can let get to enjoy as my nose keep block

hmm going to talk abt my mood le bah for this few day

hmm ... am getting more and more stress because of ur action ....

u keep going around and ask my frenz abt my thing where i don even noe u g ask untill they tell me ... zzz am a human too leh i need my own privacy too luh

cant u jus respect my decision ... ish not that i don wanna share with u guys ish because i don tink there a need to share everything to others ppl luh ... haiz i noe u would said u wanna noe more ish because u wanna to get close wit me so and so but ur reaction ish making me lyk oh my tian are u controling my freeodom cause of u ask me not to mix wit my other group of frenz ...

but anyway they are still my frenz bah there not a need for u to said that luh ...

haiz suan le bah .... not going to said more abt it le

hmm *someone* bought me a polar bear it sooo cute can ... oh my tian

still got recording inside de sia am not going to leak out wat ish the recording talking abt ...

hmm anyway thx for that bear i really do appreciate it alot and don worry i will take good care of him de hahas ... won let u down de ... thx for cheering up my day yea ...

hmm anyway thing won alway goes the smooth way for u de luh wat i mean was the other ppl ...

haiz nothing to write le bah sian actually wanna continue de but too tited liao cant continue anymore ... as jus ate medicine hmm kkae bah nite eathling i go slp liao luh hahas nite ntie

From : Ethan Chan

2009-10-08T21:14:00.001-07:00

some picture that posted abit only cause lazy to post hahas will post up alot of photo soon kakas

unlucky day

2009-10-08T20:46:00.001-07:00

hmm damn sian yesterday was a unlucky day for me luh have scratches at my body out of sudden donnoe why also luh ... after tat went up to my office den i knock my head at the metal cupboard and have a freaking scar down there ... it lyk WTH can and freaking pain can ... hmm

but lyk the pain anyway OH GOSH am feeling lyk a psyco luh hahas but seriously luh it was damn pain and the blood was lyk RIVER passing across my head luh hahas am lyk so sway but jus cant stop laughing at my clumsyness den after tat line kanna cut off for nothing ... i was lyk damn pissed can ... i call the starhub customer service ppl to give them a big bad lecture and they reconnect my network it was lyk WTF can seriously if my contract over i gonna change my line to singtel or watever luh not going to use that freaking starhub line GRR!!! hmm anyway will not be blogging everything down here anymore all my worry or watever will be blog at my private blog ... and

lastly somehow my mind was lyk in a MESS luh i donnoe wat to said luh ... u jus giving me alot of confuse thinking tat making me paranoid luh haiz suan le bah ... let the natrual take it own course bah haiz anyway i don lyk the feeling of being left out and being treat cold cause it TOTALLY SUCKS i hate it haiz ... nvm bah nothing more le gtg le takeaire earthling ...

From : Ethan

the world seems to be ending soon !!!

hmm wondering day...

2009-10-06T11:57:00.000-07:00

Lols ...came back to post my blog le haha lols
feeling was sooo happy ... hmm anyway happy or sad i don really mind as i won be posting any sad
thing around here luh hahas hmm going to start on wat am doing this few day kakas
ok recently been clubbing as don wanna tink so much uh hmm and after that carry on nite life and nite life i noe it abit too over or wat i donnoe but still i will keep continue de lah ...
cause i don wannan to tink that much luh hmm as i said am a happy go lucky person mah hmm anyway i have change my name to ETHAN instead of NELSON le cause i wanna to change everything that related to my freaking dad ... will be calling ETHAN CHAN hahas for chinese name of ish jun xi cause my mum lyk this name alot as she wanted to give me tat name since i was born luh hmm so will be calling this name from now on hmm ... and lastly ish club was soo fun whenever i had the chance to club or go out my life was in cloud nine luh hahas so will be waiting for another clubbing nite uh hahas lols kkae lah gtg le don tink gonna post much le bah haiz nite earthling hahas muacks muacks <3 gonna post a long long blog next time behh

cheers to the nite life

2009-10-04T05:15:00.000-07:00

finally got the time to update my blog le hmm yap recently lots of thing happen

and i was lyk donnoe how to handle and donnoe wat to do .

but i jus manage to get over by myself ...

ok gonna start blogging abt this few day thing .

Getting more and more into nite life liao

everyweeks seems to go club once or more cause it fun going there .

but still i love going to PLAY cause ppl over there are friendly and they don find trouble

easily ... donnoe why jus hate the feeling rite now ... feeling abit miserable and emo .

tat why i been going club cause only club can forget everything and shake the stress away .

trying to forget everything but it seems to be so hard luh but no matter wat NELSON will stay strong and not easily beaten up so easily ...

noe two guy at play party and they seems to so friendly luh amd yap from now on i no need scare go there no frenz liao le hahas cause getting to noe more and more ppl down there le haas

frankly speaking play was so hell fun yea hmm waiting for the another event coming up next .

hmm tink tat all le bah donnoe wat to blog anyway going to genting soon next week cant wait for that day to come hahas ... hmm kkae bah gtg liao le BUTTERFACTORY today hahas

going club club club shake the stress away hahas nite earthling ...

will blogg soon

From : Nelson

I Gotta This Feeling ...Tat tonight gonna be a goodnite !!! ^^

ok i admit i lose in the end

2009-09-25T09:40:00.000-07:00

haiz no gonna post any pic today cause quite lazy ...

hmm alright gonna post a blog tat recently had happen to me .

recently had been clubbing and go pub alot

doing the same thing and everyday seems to be so high for me .

as clubbing i can dance alot and hmm yap i admit am using clubbing to make my stress away but it still no use hmm cause i been acting as if am so happy wit my life right now but no i cant .

yesterday i have let out myself and feel so paranoid wit myself ...

everyone finally see weak am i le ... infront of my frenz have been acting strong but

in the end i feel so ashame in front of everyone tat i actually cry out ... hence i sweaer this ish the last time tat i show my feeling out and no other time anymore ...

yesterday at DBL O it was sooo embrassing can i felt sooo Shameful ...

first time at club am so down ... not gonna step in DBL O for a period of time ... cause of my unglam thing ...even if i go i make sure i don let them regonise who am i ... sure change my every outfit to cover my own identity . Gosh ...

Ok after wat happen yesterday am really tink open le i don wish to have any more past bugging me so to prevent of that i gonna to change my life style again ...

not only go clubbing only i also will go do alot of thing to make myself busy and not gonna

to give a damn or wat to the past or thing that keep bugging me ... feeling rather randomly at alls times .

was wonder tat when can everything be over and when can we live in peace withput any

thing bugging us .... haiz u make my mind so mess up ... i donnoe wat ish going on wit u

awhile treat me nice awhile treat me lyk wat ...can tell me wat ish going on wit u ...

hence ... and one more thing ish i have to thx alvin :) cause he been beside me and cheering me up came to club wit me and stay at my side so i should said thx to u really thx yea haas ...

oh yah and one more thing i have forget to post ish

tat day go out wit sebas they all ish so fun man cause we take alot of photo and we walk here and there but not happy the thing ish someone there and lyk giving this looks =.= whenever i talk to him ... hmm but nvm who cares yea haas anyway get to talk to him jiu can liao ...hmm

u are making me so wild and so mess up in my mind ... hmm

at times peoples should give in to something

tat important to them , and not to misunderstand thing easily .

i choose to live my own way why cant other jus live in their way .

being stress up jus because of a small thing and gave up entirely .

why in this world god are alway around us to fool and and ply us out .

perharp everything comes for a reason bah .

don trust a person easily even something had happen between u two cause

ppl alway wear a mask and face ppl ... as for me i will jus believe wat i saw and wat i heard i don trust others cause i don wanna to been frame up ... so yap ... don judge a book by it cover ...

cause u will never noe wats his/her tinking ...

and thru this i have learn to live stronger one day by one day...

and tat me hahas nite earthling :)

MISSING YOU ALWAY<3

From :Nelson

Never Ending Sense

I LOVE SENTOSA TRIP!!!

2009-09-22T10:37:00.000-07:00

me and tat _l_ haha no lah actually he ish falend haas

camwhoring around far east wit family :)

Poosssh !!!

camwhoring while waiting for lay hong

me and sherlynn !!!

muacks !!!

sentosa trip with family

camwhore at sentosa haas

the four of us haas

me and sherlynn !!!

see lao di haas his tired .

the all of us erm not actually all bah !!!

da jie lao di si mei and me ( my cheeky face)

Post to the cam !!!

Cheers

normal de us we are being snap shot !!!

said cheese !!!

hmm ... tired !!!!

hi earthling

>.<>

still the same pic do all the talking hahas

actually still got lot of pic de but lazy upload wanna to see go

to my link there and search for ah na bah all photo will be at there

enjoy !!!

hmm sorry for the late posting

erm cause this few day damn busy wit thing and stuff so never update my blog recently

hence yap this few day has happen alot of happy thing and sad thing ...

my mood was lyk up and down luh haiz cause of something tat actually bother me alot and

frenz are cheering each other up ... we are jus lyk one big family yea hahas lols erm and am loving them alots one day by one day hahas ...

ok got to said my own thing le ...

hmm i was really wondering wat was going on wit me i cant make my mind clear as

in why everyone change so fast ???

why everyone likes someone and don dare to tell them straight ?

why need to hide everything and keep them in the dark ?

making the other party feel so confuse donnoe wat to do or react . haiz ...

don really wanna speak much le as thing ish getting better for me days by days ...

hope it will everyday goes smoothly ...

oh ya and one more thing sentosa trip was fun , and we all have sun burn ...

we was lyk don touch me it pain ouch hahas beri funny everyone ...

hmm don feel lyk blog much le cause am really really speechless ....

so i shall end till now le luh hmm sorry for the posting tat have no conclusion at all ...

cause only am the one who noe everything ... and don wish to speak .

ok that all nite earthling ...

Thx Falend Kosanto (misu) hahas for the outing too

anyway hope u do enjoy the time at sentosa hahas nite :)

Somehow i do miss u when not wit u

when can our next time outing ???

waiting am waiting

and sorry because of i busy and cant accom u alway ...

From Nelson

Confuse days are so awful...

i had try to smiles with all my might ...

2009-09-15T15:44:00.000-07:00

hmm alright today nothing special to update abt jus some thing tat recently family have a little problem .

and feeling so tired le but i still have to hang on with it ...

God can show me some light thru my life of journey ?

can really make everything smooth ... hence

sometime i really need a shoulder to cry on . a person to really understand me instead

of misunderstanding me or don even cares abt me .

who am going to speak to ?

who am going to face to ?

wat am really wan to do ?

how can i overcome everything by myself ?

when can everything goes well ?

sometime i really wish u to be there ... but i jus don have the courage to tell u .

sometimes really wanna meet u up for some chat and really feel lyk hugging u but i don wanna

u to see my unglam looks so i choose to smiles and i did it .

am really useless i cant tell u wat ish going on with me .

i jus can keep everything up and i don even noe how to speak when i saw u .

so i choose not to meet or tell u ...

but when the times comes i can meet or going to see u am really happy everything will jus simply goes away .

my pain , my worries , my stress , my personal thing and lot and lots ...

cause i feel tat ur smiles really brigten up my day ... tinking back of ur smiles i really feel soo

peace and ease ... frankly speaking am starting to donnoe who am i . wat am i doing .

but the only thing i noe ish i do really love/likes you lots ... but ish tat ....

jus don wan u to stress up with me so i rather choose this way by making myself feel happy and optimistic tat me . and i don wanna to share my pain to ppl around me ... tat all .

hmm i guess i choose this way ish the correct way bah ... so i have make myself happy and i wish tat everyone around me ish blessed by my wishes ... and for me i will stay as happy as i can and tat ish forever de thing i won go tink so much anymore and i hide in one corner and whisper to myself and said i really love you ... CHEERS

To someone

am really dissapointed with u ever since the day u mix with them

u really change alots ... haiz

From : Nelson

Cheer up everything will gone fine one day !

i hate 14/09/09 i swear it a bad day ...

2009-09-14T08:49:00.000-07:00

My New Hair Style:)

hmmm camwhore camwhore hahas ^^

when was out going to lay hong bday time ...

Before go work camwhore infront of my mirror

<3>

same shoe (yawhui and Me de)

O.O lols shes crazy hahas lols jkjk

saw this crab at ps looks really nice the colour of the shell .

Bungy Bungy !!! I Swear That I Never Sit On That

Cause It Really Nuts !@.@

hahas while waiting for bus and tat yaw hui behind me . <3

Alright today after work really damn no mood

donnoe why maybe ish because abt my family thing bah haiz ...

was abt to go home and rest de luh but don have the mood

to go home . den went to anyhow walk walk luh .

from my work place hill street walk to clark quay and walk the whole clark quay

alot of thing have been bugging me am tinking alots of unhappy thing tat happen .

den after tat the furthur i have no idea why ended up in chinatown luh .

so went to Tooth Of Budda there to pray pray . after praying walk the whole chinatown and neil road . really damn moodless ... it not tat i mood swing or wat ish tat i really cant figure out wat happening recently ... hence ... no mood contact anyone no mood sleep ... no mood to eat ... no mood to play ... was lyk a wondering ghost walking here and there Thought of go drinking . asked lim she said don wan go wan go home slp but in the end i heard tat she go back bendemeer to find belinda they all slack ... haiz nevermind luh don go don go luh also no need her to accom i also can go out de wat ...lols hahas am alway trying to be optimistic ... but thing seems to ended up in a hilarious joke to me ... ain't going to carry on my life like this ... i gonna make my everyday packed up ... find a part time job after my army work time . defination was work at the night . after work go home slp the next day do same thing everyday lyk this i can get rid of being so moodless and so stress up luh .

gonna be a freaking busy person after i found a part time job ... even i really free on one day u gonna go take up my license course so that i don even had the time to slack or wat ... cause whenever slack wanna to find ppl they will be wit those ppls tat i really don like de luh . cause those ppl life was lyk slack at one corner if nothing to do or wat jiu go fight with others luh . don like that kind of life and ppls ... now my da jie mixing up with them luh den don wan go find work all pattern same with those spoil brat ... haiz really hope she can go do something useful luh ... lastly ish i hope that thing will turn well one day ... and to yawhui (brother) cheer up nah kkae no matter wat happen i will alway be at ur side de and i wil support every decision u make de luh kkae ... no worrys u will have me be at ur side whenever u needs help de . B-F-L (Bros For Life) and today realise one thing ish actually one person go walk around ish really really fun yap although it boring but it fun cause whenever i go to a shop they will ask me erm u taiwanese ish it den i will lyk erm .... =.= No , am pure singaporean .

and i went to other shop those sales gals and guy will ask the same question ... lyk excuse me sir can i help ... after chat awhile they will said are u a taiwanese ... den i was lyk why everyone keep asking the same thing ish lyk i told them am a pure singaporean they will said don joke nah cause i don look lyk one singaporean ... wth . den from that on ward i go to other shop to see stuff and when they ask me .... again u are taiwan ren arhz den i said erm yap why ? den they will said orhz nothing cause see ur attire and hairstlye can see tat u are from taiwan ... after tat word i rusht o toliet to see wat ish happening to my hair of outfit den it was lyk nothing wat . lols ... clark quay ppl and chinatown ppl was so hilarious funny and cute luh see the attire den can make a wrong prediction . hmm but overall ish ok lah they said this as long as they don said are u from bangaladesh country i sure wack them up hahas ... lols tat all for today le bah ... nite earthling...<3

From : Nelson

Feeling So Miserable in A Short Day

thursday nite

2009-09-10T18:18:00.001-07:00

froggy froggy muacks muacks

the another post of the model

shag tinking wat am doing in the club jus now

post to the cam

Am Alway Ready For The Cam!

Cheers to the Friendship

The Shots

Copy My Post!!!

CamWhore in The Club

At the Mrt Hees

Alright today after work went to club at DBL O

lols and was damn damn happy cause can meet till lots of frenz but someone cant go .

haas while waiting for the dance floor start ... we went to open jug and drink den amanda

open shots for everyone . thx manda haas after tat went to smoke at the smoking room to take

a puff haas when the dance floor start i pull belinda to the dance floor and dance .

at first she don dare to dance and after wat i told her she join me for the dance and

we was lyk dancing lyk nobody business luh hahas den gui peng and lay hong also join us for the dance . after tat amanda come dance wit me and she said am damn hot wit my out fit i was lyk

OH MY TIAN (SHY) hahas den i said thx to her for the praise hahas while the nite getting late .

something happen ... lay hong intro her frenz to me and his a aj and haas den he treat me a POP after the drink ... lay hong ask him to dance wit me at the dance floor and i was lyk ok why not cause i only go for dancing anyway hahas ... i agree tat am high at that moment and i was being GRID by one guy ... oh my tian can ... he hold my waist freaking tight and i was lyk HEY !!! and den after tat he came dancing wit me again ... den he start to hold me and slowly put his hand into my shirt and start to touch here and there and i was lyk keep on reject den he actually squeeze my butt and keep touching gridding lah KAO!!!

den after tat he actually wanna to slot his hand inside my PANTS and touch my tat wan ....

seriously i was lyk damn damn damn lucky tat belinda amanda and gui peng came to my rescue .

as i cant push him away cause am quite weak tat time plus he hold me really really tight den gui peng faster run to call belinda come and den belinda and gui peng and the amanda pull me away from him . and was lyk thx god they have save me . lay hong was lyk so drunk luh ... but am not drunk at all luh jus abit high and seriously i love DBL O cause the jug ish damn cheap can ! and the dance floor cool but the guy who touch me uh haiz oh my tian can .

swear tat if tat guy was there again i will sure push him off and fuck him off luh Grrr ...

Irritating ... haizo on that time i hope he was there cause perharp he can help me and protect me and am sure he will do tat hahas but ...

haiz kkae lah nothing much le luh after tat we went back home le my mood was quite down today .

so am really sorry for letting u guys worry kkae and those who did not go for the club also worry for me luh am really really sorry guys ... and i miss u guys hahas

To : Gui Peng(auntie Ho) Belinda(brother)

amanda(besties) Lay Hong(Loser hahas)

Lim (Sistaz) trena ( Best Frenz)

Brina (best frenz) Viona(Best Frenz)

Hui Ling (best frenz) haas and lay hong frenz too thx for he drink yea haas .

From : Nelson

Delighted days

2009-09-06T17:21:00.000-07:00

camwhore at cab :)

my new bought bling bling ring yea XD

camwhore outside the juntion shop hees
the bicycle looks cute !

taken at the fitting room hees

me and lim (Asia Model) haas =.=

Eeeee!!!! wat that Fucking Face !!!

erm look at the uncle behind

slp so soundly hees lols (so bad uh)

look at the signboard trying to post it hees

Ugly de us Kakas!!!

say cheese ^^

again Ohhh how sweet hees but it jus camwhoring nia hahas

don misunderstand uh Kakas!!!

me and gui peng

Yo HONG TOE JIN i am ur SUN lah hahas rem me >.<

Lols as if i own this trishaw uh haas

(don come near it uh i tell u uh hahas)

post to the future erm -_-" hahas

Camwhore around the trishaw KEKEZ...

SAWATIKAP !!! (posing as the little thai gal)

Alright today nothing special jus go out with some frenz and went for Pray Pray

and i finally can get to pray le cause i have been a long time no go pray le luh cause i busy mah zzz

den i have to lyk find free time to go and yea today afternoon i get to go pray at chinatown .

hahas and we camwhore alot .

although only me belinda and gui peng but we still enjoy the time .

we went to camwhore around after praying luh and went maxwell market eat abit hees

i never take the food photo luh but i swear it a freaking delicious food i ever ate .

OH MY TIAN the hainanese chicken rick the rice was lyk YUMMY .

and after tat went chinatown walk walk abit den went to town find lim .

as we were on the bus we did camwhore too and no need to said tat much cause pic will said everything le . as we really enjoy our time . haas den went we meet lim we go bugis find howard and slack den go eat wit mummy at QQ noodle . was so fun luh at there and i bought a bling bling ring

oh my fucking god it freaking nice can . (40 bucks) zzz but worth it nah hahas .

stainless steel , hmm after tat went to walk at juntion and someone msg gui peng and make her spoil her mood . zzz but we still make her smiles and we jus lyk so enjoying going out even it was jus a window shopping luh hahas . diao wanted to buy shoe and one spec but need to save money first hmm nvm i believe i can save the money to buy the thing i wan de . hahas erm and yap saw someone at street and i don lyk him luh . zzz alway pull one face de but who cares i am not link to him anyway . fuck off dude . lols hmm and den saw trena at parco she works there and i was lyk omg u work here cause the shop shirt ish damn nice . and cant believe my own frenz works there hahas

next time buy shirt got discount le cool . after tat slack slack jiu go home le . today nothing much lah

but we still enjoy going out hahas it really fun . and this thurs hopefully i can go PLAY peacefully and dance . hahas cause something happen in my personnal life . and really hope everything goes smoothly seriously i hope won be precastinate this club luh . hmm i love this kind of life

everyday happy and keep smiling not lyk ...=.="

and lastly hope my dream and wish will come true one day .

GOD BLESS !!!

wat i wanna said was i miss u guys

guipeng smiles more lah hahas kkae arbo winkles run out liao luh

lim also don suddenly mood swing leh beri scary leh lols

howard better be free one day luh arbo lao ge going kill u liao hahas

belinda don feel shag u got me ur fashion designer u will become pretty de lah kkae hahas

sherlynn don feel soo down and no confident in ur N level u will pass de ok it beri easy de jia you !

ah wen hmm u change liao luh , now never even said hi to me liao luh haiz (am becoming stranger to u liao luh )

Ah ting eh long time no meet liao leh hor ever since ur bday till now u MIA arhz . faster meet us yea

Liying, Philip u two arhz change liao hor won call us anymore luh faster find one day go out hor

Nelson and tat me hahas must everyday happy go lucky cannot

Alvin i mean my other frenz not alvin ler uh hahas Thx thx

From : Nelson

The Happy go lucky boy boy ^^

boring days haiz

2009-09-05T12:22:00.000-07:00

kinder joy hahas

today was so boring can saturday nite and i was at home luh . haiz

actually am going to go town today de den was telling sebas tat i going town .

tot can saw him . but sadly i fall asleep luh .

donnoe when can meet him and jojo hahas .

because of something on and we keep procastinate our meeting luh hmm

but hope my sickness can beri fast recover luh hahas cause lyk this meet my frenz

will not spread wit them luh hmm not speaking abt this le luh haashaas

went down to my house downstair and eat with mummy luh den brought a kinder joy

hahas and lots of snack yea kekes . now going to rest le bah cause wanted to sleep liao le

as tmr going cut hair liao hair too long le den need cut :(

kkae shall update soon abt my blog thingy le . oh yah and jojo today never sms me luh tmr gonna msg him and said him liao hahas jkjk XP hahas lols nite nite earthling

From : Nelson

boring saturday nite

Friday Nite!

2009-09-04T17:30:00.000-07:00

On my way home my house there

having some event !!!

saw this bunch of hamster cuddle together

and sleep so cute can ! hmm 30Bucks for one nb

ever since kb spread we hardly meet up

now can meet with her too hahas HuiHui(Never Said Die)

me and Lim hees camwhoring all the way

LIM(SISTAZ)

hmm me and gu peng (Auntie)

First time take wit her >.<

this pic of her post she looks lyk someone

makes me think back abt some **** hmm

On my way to polyclinic take medicine

Grr still sick mah haiz

This ish me and sherlynn (Whole Class of God Please Forgive Them)

Had our supper at tpy hahas all said cheers ^^

camwhoring at the bridge too am the

sitting on the metal bar kakas .

the Juniours Company team ^^ (jus randomly nia)

one boy three gal ?? weird kakas

hmm alright looks lyk picture does the talking for me

there still alot but never upload cause jus randomly upload only .

ok gonna blog abt wat happening today .

Went to H2 drink with some frenz ... hmm den after that went camwhoring alot .

gu peng looks quite sad uh hmm , after the drinking . went outside to smoke den she suddenly ... (cant said)

den after awhile she back to herself le . den went to walk around at tpy .

(oh my tian this ish my first time walking and slacking around at tpy whole nite)

hmm something have been changing now adays . u said no slp wit .... but in ur **** i have seen it my own , but i jus don wanna to said , nevermind anyway i am not ur who either so i don have the right to cares bah maybe . who noes yea ... hmm anyway not gonna to said abt ur thing le bah .

hmm recently have been procastinating all my thing luh wat i wanna to do it jus seems to

be procastinate . haiz and also donnoe when i can meet my frenz all , due to sickness .

bored bored bored !!! am so tired luh really damn tired ... cause i keep work slp work slp .

don even really have the time to slack or wat and finally today i can get to do my thing .

hence , i am not trying to be overwhelming ish tat everything seems to falls back .

but overall today outing was sooo fun . we are lyk sooo crazy can ! camwhoring all the way and

doing all sort of thing . chit chat alot that the only thing i will never forget it .

hmm finding myself an part time job for nite time to make my time packs . hmm hope one day i really can find one work at nite . finding pub or club job now haas .

Yawn ... am so tired rite now luh feeling sleepy . zzz gonna pray for jus one day and i can falls sleep for 3day without waking up and tat will be cool and den after tat i be in a concasion den forget everything . and that will be a sudden horrdous . Peeps ^^

From : Nelson

keep procastinate every off my thing jus

because am soooo sick FUCK THE SICKNESS !!!

hmmm

finally get to blog

2009-09-03T17:09:00.000-07:00

our meal ^^

the moment i felt so lost without you .(jus randomly haas)

hmm so long no blog le luh finally get to blog now le

cause recently was quite busy with something on and i was lyk ...

no choice have to finish and rush up all my thing . life ish getting more and more

boring i donnoe wat to do . being cheated by someone and yet i still can smiles .

donnoe why maybe ish perharps tat i can get use to tink positive bah . but jus really

cant get to forget everything that has been so miserable for everyday .

i get to smiles while i can , i get to live as happy as i can .

and yet i am doing fine , haas but jus down with some luck and ...

hmm i tink i shall not talk abt this topic le bah , hahas

cause it rather boring and i tink i can get to emo after writing all those thing in blog ,

so will jus merely update wat going on wit my life rite now .

hmm was busy with some STUFF!!! and yeap finally i can finish up everything .

get to meet howard lim and belinda . went for some window shopping =.=

and chit chat awhile . hmm and it been a long time since we sat down and chat for sooo long

am really miss the past with them . haas

anyway we will alway be lyk that close from now on . and that ish wat we said before ... hahaas

There one more thing hahas Sebas ... HUMP said wanna to msg me den in the end he did not luh but

hahas also my fault lah for not msg him to ask whether he done with his tuition onot . so we said sorry to each other , and guess wat he said i am funny =.= diao

the Past few Days

i felt that my sir ish really damn hilarious and they are lyk kids luh hahas

they can argue straight away wit jus a small topic . and

sometime they alway tease each other and i find their attitude so warm luh .

hahas we looks more lyk one big family instead of in army sir ... Frankly Speaking .

they treat me really good and they everytime will ask me go eat wit them and they will be

starting their Long Long Old Grandfather story while eating but it fun being wit them although they are old but they seems to have the same thinking as us thier joke uh was totally ROFL luh ...

i really feel tat am so blessful with the life over there and i sure i gonna miss it alot when i ORD .

hmm tink that all for today le bah will update soon de ^^ going to see doctor now le cause my cough

still haven ok yet stupid medicine drink whole bottle finish le still haven ok yet KAO !!!

I HATE SICK MAN ! IT SUCKS ...

From : Nelson

philosophy life !!!

something change my thinking

2009-08-30T10:29:00.000-07:00

today was lyk damn sick can stay at home two day never even go out at all luh .

hmm jus finish watched a HK show ...

i find it tat really intersting and meaningful luh .

every part of the hk show do have reason behind it ...

it wan us to noe tat every person around us must be treated as a human and not being treated

for granted at all cause

and had reflex myself and i noe i really had treat u guys badly since the day i noe him .

and wat i wan to said was from now on no matter wat happen u guys will be

treated equally to everyone and no abandon u guys anymore

am really feel touches when u guys never even forget me after while i did all those stupid thing

and i do alway believe tat

wat comes around goes around it may takes century years to get ur karma

or it may come as fast as a lighting . it all depends on fate .

wat i have learned ish to respect ppl around me by not taking them for granted at all .

and i like tat show alot and i give it 4 stars stars haas .

and after wat i see i already change my thinking and i jus hope everything will goes well to me ASAP.

hence , now i have already made the decision as i noe ppl around me will be sad and
family may feel unhappy jus because i made the decision

though tat no one force me but only this way am feel more happy or maybe can find

myself at the world over there , am

going to do wat exactly i am tinking right now and without any hesitate .

i jus hope everything will goes smoothly to me leh hor .

hmm and lastly happy goes lucky always ... wish me good luck :)

From : Nelson

The One Decision tat alway be there

Happy Birthday Day See Yi Ting (BA GUA SAN REN ZHU)

2009-08-28T15:00:00.000-07:00

Lim , Me , DA JIE

My Qin Ai De Da Jie

See she cutes and pretty uh ^^

me ah na ah ting and lim

me and the birthday gal

Ben Poh , Jim , ER sao , Ah ting , Ah na

Lay Hong , Vivian , Me , Da Jie

L.O.V.E the another way of Love =.=

Camwhoring all the way yea

The beri blur de us

lastly the same ppl and pls one Ah Boy(my xiao mei)

Hmm today was a fun day

but only shi qi dave and howard never join us for the photo shoot .

haas went to eat at CHONG QIN (swear not going there unless special occasion)

we order the Tom Yam soup and MA LA soup

that tom yam really ish heavenly soup can lols

damn nice i all the way only eat that wan nia ... but not in a good mood to eat cause having fever and flu sian den alot of thing lyk no appetite to eat luh but no choice cause ah ting birthday mah

oh ya anyway happy birthday see yi ting hahas .

and was having alot of fun down there . camwhoring all the whole nite ...

ah qi dave came too hahas i saw ah qi coming i tot tat gal got come i tot of hiding up luh but in the end no she never come ... hmm oh yah and one more person came too but don wish to said his name cause i don really lyk him cause of his arrogant face but who cares ... haas

after tat went lim house play mahjong haas i win man hahas ...

den after we ply le go had our breakfast at mac and that sherlyn ish totally OH MY TIAN can

keep said "God , pls forgive him/her" whenever we did anything wrong ...zzz

we was laughing lyk no body business lyk tat luh .

somemore ppl still at the mac studying ... den after tat go out smoke den talk abt the 2012 incident ...

lols anyway i jus tink positive even it ish real i jus care abt how am i going to live my day good

and happy tat all at least die with no regret .

den after tat went home . on the half way to my house i realise tat the uncle did not on meter sia .

lols den i jus diam diam hahas den reach home around 15 bucks cool uh save 6 dollar .(typical)

hahas hmm now damn shag luh down with flu i hate it man den feeling so giddy now luh got to go rest and see doctor ltr le ... NITE EARTHLING !!!

From : Nelson

In My Darkness World I Choose To Be Silence !

2009-08-27T15:01:00.000-07:00

The Uv Effect !!!

camwhore outside the toliet mirror kaas...

hmm today went for clubbing and yea it amanda birthday .

and we went DBL O for celebration .

hmm it quite boring inside .

cause jun ren and amanda keep run away ... den it was lyk so boring luh no one accom me dance at all den i was lyk keep bearing the temptation although i really wish to dance .

but i still control until the time strike 12.30 amanda still don wanna to come mah den i don care her

luh i go dance myself . trying to entertain myself at the dancefloor .

haas RAN UP TO STAGE TO DANCE cool

was enjoying myself over there , kakas my dance skill at club still haven gone rusty luh .

hahas but abit tired luh ... noe alot of new army frenz erm yap haas .

all jun ren frenz and one of them exchange num from me .

den the other one jus talk talk nia .

he damn funny ask me don so sian don so sian den he keep buy jug luh den ask me to drink wit him .

and i jus drink luh haas anyway i am a good drinker (thick skin) kakas

erm den after tat drink liao ran up to the dance floor and go up the stage there dance .

hmm den there was a lady come toward me and dance wit me . and i was lyk

Erm excuse me , and i jus went the other part of the stage to dance . cool cause don feel lyk dancing wit any gals . as i can entertain myself i don need them . haas

having the whole nite fun (alone) =.="

after tat amanda and brina join me for the dance so we jus dance and shake lyk no body business .

hahas was fun lah due to so much stress and pressure i can jus merely vent my anger on the dance floor . shaking all the stress away ...XD and tat wat i alway do :)

after tat dance awhile heard jameson told me tat junren already gone case liao den i rush down the stage and go find the whole club to search for him . zzz he was lyk

sooo drunkee can ! den spoil my mood to dance den we had no choice but to send him home .

GRRR !!! den after tat sending him home it was raining cats and dogs and wondering how to

send him home . but in the end still get to send him home safely .

went for our supper wit eunice shawn jameson amanda and one guy donnoe his name .

hmm after tat we went home thx eunice for sending me home ^^ really appreciate uh haas .

Erm yah and one more thing ish jameson ask me to go out wit him on the 11th of sept go drink .

he also asked amanda too cant wait to go drink again hahas

and next thursday going to DBL O again to dance hahas hopefully it will be more fun next week . hmm ... and no one drunk at all .

yawn was so tired now damn sway whole day down wit flu and slightly fever ... haiz sian hope can recover by tmr ... hmm nothing much le bah as nothing to blog also le .

Overall For Today

quite fun **** four star for today haas ...

From : Nelson

donnoe ish it true but i still choose to trust u

tat all i can said ... and good luck to me yea

a day out wit howard they all haas

2009-08-26T16:43:00.000-07:00

Sherlyn , Lim , Howard , Me & Rave .

The Four Of Us The Only Person That Can Be Trusted!
Wearing shade can protect myself sometime ( when seeing Couple Too Sweet) Kakas

The Time I Felt So Lonely ...

Looking to the Bright Side Of My Life ^^(New Bought Shirt)

Today wake up and went to orchard find lim

without taking my lunch cause we meet sherlyn and howard at bugis mah .

hmm when the time am at orchard was stuck at a place cause saw lots of ppl crowded at

a corner tot wat was going on so went to KPO abit haas den saw one guy was doing his

painting at the floor wit his equipment ...

hmm it was soo nice can the painting he drew abt the sky turning to dawn and

some outer space planet ... jus by using spray and a scriber ...

was so stuck by his art and cant even bear to go cause am learning how to drew till so nice lyk him

as i loves ARTS also haas not the other kind of arts but ish the real art pieces lah haas

but i cant stay any longer cause meet lim at 5.30 and am going to late so rush to the taka and find her hmm buy some old chang kees to eat haas of cause my fav SUSHI ROLL , BREADED CRAB .

after finding her we went to bugis to find howard and sherlyn ...

lols tot of plying mahjong mah den sherlyn come meet us at mos burger den said she cant ply ....

den we find ah bee ply luh . haas was having quite alot of fun wit them although it was jus a short period ... we take photo before we go and yap i do agree one thing ish go everywhere must bring SHADE haas cause no matter wat we can jus take out and camwhore all the way luh .

the other thing ish to prevent from any SWEET COUPLE TRYING TO BE SWEET INFRONT OF US ... hahas so we scare they sweetness too bright den we got shade to protect us hahas ...

hmm sherlyn was lyk beri funny luh she said take photo den me howard and lim straight take out our shade and wear den she was lyk O.O" wth all got shade she don have hahas ...

sherlyn arhz u shoud learn to bring a shade out whenever u with us cause we everytime also got bring shade along de luh kakas lols join us for the shade shooting next time behh although this time u don have KAKAS ... hmm den after tat went to lim house ply mahjong ...hmm lose 8 bucks kao .

but heng lah not lose so much ... hees shall win back one day cool uh haas lim u better prepare ur money first hor hahas i gonna win all le kakas jkjk only lah but overall was so fun luh being wit them

hmm at least i can get to do wat i wan ... no need too because of "HIM"

i cant meet my frenz ... so sorry yea to all my frenz .

and yap same goes to kelvin(jadore) hope he one day can really stop saying sebas le luh .

haiz felt so sorry tat i bring sebas so much thing ... i hope his not angry wit me luh ...

somehow jus felt tat his kinda good and kind luh ...but alway being bully bah if i not wrong ...

hmmm something which bugging in my heart i cant really tell but i have told myself to be

optimistic to everything i am facing rite now . and yap i manage to get hold on to myself now .

and one more thing surely have to post this i had enough of this thing le .

the first day i noe u i noe u been sad and i have been comforting u and so and so .

it jus a frenz care and tat me and i donnoe i have make u so hate me ....

i noe u write in ur blog without stating any names out but i noe u are referring to me .

trying to tink positive tat u are not saying me but the fact ish ur blog ish getting more and more obvious tat the person u saying in ur blog ish me . i really donnoe why i said this to u and makes u have the wrong idea . i wan was jus a frenz and yap u are a great frenz indeed . i really donnoe

why or somehow u jus treating me an ... i donnoe how to said u love someone don u dare even said it out to that person ? why not jus tell him how u feel abt him and wat makes u tink so ...

as i have said to u i am seeking but i never said i need it desprately ...

somehow i really donnoe wat the fuck i had done luh , frankly speaking no offence at all .

i was jus trying to concerning to u as u might have alot of thing to said and yet

i get nothing but i gain all ur vulgar langange and being scold by u for nothing ?

i really donnoe wat i had done wrong leh . ish it a fault to concern u ?

ish it a fault to listen to u whenever u need ppls to talks to ?

whatever i do , i ended up being scold in ur blog ! kao ...

am totally lost leh u make me really really confuse i am totally donnoe wat happening to u or wat

or maybe i have said the wrong thing before where i am sure i did not even said anything wrong to u

and if a frenz cant concern another frenz den wat for being a frenz right .

ALRIGHT ! don trust me tat ur problem . am not giving any damn anymore .

don judge me if u donnoe me well tat all . am a guy who listen to every of his frenz thing and

a Mr . Nice Guy to his frenz . and tat me wat i can said ish i am jus lending helping hand to my frenz .

i don see there anything wrong u said till lyk i am a liar ? hello sorry to ask u . when did i lie to u .

don put words in my mouth . if u really wanna to write in ur blog commenting me so and so , i have nothing to said abt u le luh . but wat can i said ish i am sorry to let u misunderstood the feeling between us . and lastly who do u referr to tat guy i am with ?

and i am single ok . am not in any relationship rite now lah stop makeing wild guesses tinking tat i have my stead rite now ... looks i am freaking single now i don have a bf tat its . don keep said wat

" i with him i will feel better and feel more important den u "

cause i don even noe which guy u are talking abt and can tell u i don have any bf mean don have .

stop writing as if i am really tat bad to u OK ! wanna to put gadge an wall between us ?

let it be ! it ur decision . i never force u to and i had never said this word I LOVE U BEFORE .

i mean toward u . if u really likes me why u are jus avoiding everything tat seems to come .

jus let urself happy instead of being so emo . ish it so hard to make u tink positive thing ? i don tink so ... one more thing ish ur thing ish jus a small matter . it jus tat u are making urself into depression state , my problem ish bigger den u one day when u came to notice my own problem u will said tat mine really ish a headache ... but i still manage to get on wit my life . SO WATS GOING ON WIT U !

am not ur slaves at all . i don need to lyk goes according to wat u likes . i am human i need my right too , i need my freedom also i noe u would said tat u never control me at all but wat u write and how u react really ish a freaking annoying thing to me . i keep trying to figure it out who really the guy u are talking abt ... but now i guess i noe , Erm i don tink i need to use guess . ish i comfirm noe ish who u are referring luh . and if u really likes him tell him how u feel . and see what he reply u !

if really cannot be together den why cant u jus be frenz first ?

as he noe u not long also . he donnoe how ish ur character at all ... maybe u came to his life and

will hurt him once u might not noe . and noe one can predict thier own future so , get thing right before u said me or pushing all the blames to me yea .

i bet tat u noe who am i saying ( Guys)

am not saying this delibrately ish because i have enough of wat u post in ur blog and i been asking u who u referring ish it me ? den u will lyk why u think ish u wat make u tink so ?

sorry i don lyk to beat around the bushes i lyk it straight forward ... don beat around the bushes when u are talking to me . seriously i don lyk . i wan it to be straight and frank tat all .

NO OFFENCE !!!

From : Nelson

The day when i start to noe the fact !!!

went C.H.I.J.M.E.S for dinner

2009-08-25T10:15:00.000-07:00

Today wake up quite late luh den rush to bath and go out haas

went to C.H.I.J.M.E.S had my dinner cool so excited today can ... hahas

inside the place so nice can ! den order my BEEF STEAK! cool tat was nice

me and alvin place the same order luh haas noe wat the beef ish half cooked and it sooo thick can

the meat when put that beef into the mouth the juices of the beef drip slowly inside ur mouth luh

kao can imagine tat mah ...

hmm den had our appetize first den had our main course after tat

going to finish our main course the dessert ish abt to out soon le luh den russell call me said he got problem kao den i never eat my dinner finish i jiu rush down to kallang bahru luh hmm den i have to skip my full dinner course luh hahas but what to do brother more important luh .

hahas so i will go down even if there ish problem , den after tat settle all thing le .

slack at kb awhile with russell they all den meet lim at prata shop .

ah na howard shi qi and xue ni come down also .

when the time i saw xue ni i ji tao donnoe wat to said and do luh

damn ps don dare to look at her at all luh ... keep looking to my hp ... and sms

but donnoe why i keep peeping at her in my corner eyes luh her smiles her look

hmm i jus cant resist it ...haas but it over le lah it all the past le luh i tink i have gone crazy abt her le lah . kao but i have to said ish tat everything ish the past le luh so we jus can be frenz bah .

haas am tinking that everyday jus spend my day happy can le as she can find her happiness one day de bah ... hmm

thx alvin for the dinner today although i cant finish the whole dinner course wit u

but i sure next time sure can de kkae hahas and alvin ish my other aj frenz of mine yea hahas not alvin ler kakas ...

now i have learn a new lesson le .

everything i done i have to face it and not to hide from it luh

so from now on be myself and agree to mr jojo hahas be ourself kekes kkae hees

From : Nelson

Sweet memory alway last longer den Sweet Dream ...

kao stupid tower

2009-08-24T11:06:00.001-07:00

lols today went up to my work place de tower luh nb damn scary lah wtf the staircase so narrow luh

me and my frenz was lyk stuck there for quite a long time lah cause we both are afraid of height mah

nb den bo bian have to come down luh zzz i close my eye while walking luh along the

way i feel the wind coming in thru the window so big luh the wind den we was lyk anytime can fall off and if we really fall off we will be lyk this +_+ comfirm de luh

i swear to my life i will not go to tat stupid tower again because of my captain was lyk calling

Nelson , Nelson where are u come help me clean tat tower cause long time no clean already

and i was hiding mah as i don wanna to go up but in the end being frame up by my frenz den need

to go up wit him kao !

after work go meet howard lim and ah na while walking to the bus stop was being tail by someone

i at first did not notice at all but where ever i walk he will jus follow my back

at first i tot he was some crazy fellow so i did not care but when he keep follow

i turn back and see he don look lyk one crazy fellow at all

his out fit was lyk so OH MY TIAN can ! den

i run up to the bus den he also follow me run . den i was lyk shit i gonna to

be dead this time ... but i manage to shake him off thx to the bus crowd and i manage to get out safely .... not tat i overwhelm or wat ish tat he was damn obvious tailing me luh ...

nb den after tat went to lim house ply mahjong and lose 10 buck cause too tired le feel lyk slping

den after tat help lim find her WU GUI till i forget the time mah den have to take cab home

18 buck sia Grrr lols lim u better appreciate the three besties tat accom u the nite uh hahas

if not i hunt u down arhz haas SISTER FOREVER UH kakas ...

hmm currently using com to blog and staff and nothing to do luh ....

oh ya btw i have to thx one person tat ish jadore thx for those thing u said u wanna to help me

i do really appreaciate it alot u guys will be my besties forever haas 2 more day cant wait to go clubbb...

and lastly today heard abt wat ish happening in her life i was lyk damn piss off luh .

nb i don wan to talk gangster de luh but ish u force de luh ....

a guy hit a gal WTF ... u better watch out slack at lor 5 wan ish it

u watch out u fucking fatty nb hit gal and i am sure u will be find out one day ....

alot ppl are looking for u this fucking fatty ccb now u don dare slack at lor 5 liao uh ccb

i make sure i find u out or i make sure they find u out ....

WATCH OUT FUCKING FATTY !!!

From : Nelson

life ish getting more and more philosophy when day pass by ... haiz

fuck up day

2009-08-23T09:30:00.000-07:00

Seriously there something in my mind!

woot wat was tat

checking my face hahas

camwhore again !

Alright today seriously

today was so fuk up after my work i was finding where ish the truth and who ish speaking the truth

behind all this thing ... am not really going to care abt this thing but seriously speaking

i am so dissapointed abt ur reaction and everything ...

haiz yap had a fierce arguement wit u ish because i don wanna to be treated lyk a fool tat all .

i tot u are a true frenz but u have been cheating me and telling me all lies ...

i really donnoe wanna believe u onot but whatever it ish i won give a damn anymore

yap i will still be ur frenz but i won go care so much anymore ...

whatever happening between u two i don wanna to ask and interferr so much ....

u are telling me ur philosophy thing and i jus felt tat it was totally hilarious for me to cares

and wat i wanna said was from now on i will lead my way and day by not being a busybody anymore

and i won be caring whos in the fault i have totally give up i have wash my hand out of u all cause it really getting to be more and more complicated luh ... so

yap i won cares le ...

To : Falend

u this bastard i hate u man for saying me mr grass yea KAO ... i swear i gonna hate u luh hahas .

and yap am happy to make ur day today but hey no so rude arhz i tell u arhz hahas ...

said tat again u gonna get it from me kakas ...

Today i have bought a new cloth jus for that stupid amanda birthday luh at DBL O

nb hahas so ex can lols hmm but overall it nice lah hahas hmm den i really happy luh i can buy wat i wan luh hmm my enchik his really cute can today going to shop close den he open the indian fm

den he keep dance around at the counter infront hahas damn funny lah den me and hisham at there laugh lah tot of video him de but when the moment i take out my hp he stop dancing and said .

"hahahahas u wanna to video me right hahas i am not so stupid i don wanna to dance liao"

hahas damn cute can he was lyk got a fatherly care to us luh but donnoe why joey and him jus lyk buay gam zzz and his attitude toward us lyk abit weird weird liao luh hmm anyway wat i wanna to said was recently alot of thing really happen to sudden le luh am not going to cares wat happening around me and continue to live the way i am now

FUCK THIS SHIT !!!

From : Nelson

in this world thing really happen sudden luh and

for no reason u will jus be play one day !!!

the day wit kel they all

2009-08-21T11:00:00.000-07:00

THE MONKEY FAMILY !!!

BESTIES FOREVER ! KAKAS

eh yawhui cannot lyk tat stare arhz i tell u uh hahas smiles !!!

MINE AND YAW HUI DE MONKEY

CUTE RITE HAHAS

THE DAY WHEN I WAS OFF AND CAMWHORE HAHAS

ERM NEAR CLARK QUAY

hahas today went out wit jojo, sebastian and dave after my work .

den after work . hmm waited for them at orchard mrt den after awhile they appear le luh .

hahas tot tat the first time meet we be shy and not talking to each other hahas but in the end

we was lyk long lost frenz ... can we see each other we talk lyk nobody business hahas... tat good

actually i never saw them de ish i saw sebastian hahas his head pop out lyk in the middle of the crowd looking where i am and hahas den i waved to them .

we went almost the half of the ION to find tat metrox shop luh den in the end we found out tat we pass by it oh my tian can hahas .

den after tat pei them go interview and i help them ask the salesgal .

after tat filled up the form we went to shop shop awhile den i forget tat yawhui today LAST DAY AT CAMP ! his booking out as he said wanna meet me omg how can i forget it hahas .

den after tat told sebas abt it tat sry i cant stay any longer le have to go ...

can see tat they abit don bear me to go hahas (thick skins yea )

hahas but i promise u guys there will be next time we go out together de .

ok i will accom u guys to go out de hahas and although yap although i never even talk to dave

but hahas perharps next time we will talk bah erm and yap do really enjoy going out wit u guys

as i also abit don bear to go cause u guys totally makes my day brighten . hahas

hmm went to meet up wit falend at lucky plaza den go find lim and howard together .

when we reach bugis falend stay awhile jiu go le cause he meeting his frenz at orchard DIAO ...

hmm waited for yawhui sooo long luh was damn hungry when he reach we went to

QQ Noodles house at along the bugis street beside BREKO ...

order quite alot of thing hmm so nice luh the roasted chicken won forget the taste yea hahas lols

hmm after tat went to ILUMA walk walk saw one jacket at adidas wow tat cool luh wanted to buy but nah i don tink it worth it hahs so i never go buy den after tat went to arcade to catch doll doll luh hahas we waited quite long den reach our turn hahas noe wat we manage to caught four doll doll sia so cute lah hahas ... each of us got one monkey sia i take the monkey wearing the mouse hoody de hahas so cute and i named us THE MONKEY FAMILY !!! hahas

after tat forget the time luh almost miss my last bus lah hahas

thx for sebastian msg me and i see the time omg so late liao den we jiu go take bus home le .

hmm nothing much le luh .

To : Sebastian & JoJo

yap i will meet u guys de next time yea hahas whole days u all de ok hahas as u all booked me le uh hahas kkae no worry ... and take lots and lots of photo uh hahas.

To : howard ,lim , yawhui>

although times for us ish short and we hardly meet up but when we go out i do really enjoy the time being wit u guys and lastly thx yawhui for the monkey .

and howard lim yawhui and ah na . really really appreciate for ur guys accompany when i was

down , and alway be there for me especially yawhui i love u guys hahas hugs ...

To : WEN WEN

yah u are absoutely rite , wat u said and ur guessing ish correct but wat to do .

i have no choice but to let go yea ... i noe i am stupid but all i wan ish to see

other happy can le although i am not happy but i see them happy i jiu happy le .

as wat i want to said ish now i am leading a life where i can truely find myself and

u are indeed my besties uh YI CHAI JIU CHAI ZHONG . haas

takeaire ...

To : Jadore

stop singing those oldies song in my blog uh haas stop it can . diao

From : Nelson

My day ish getting more and more better le

hope it will last forever !

am happy wit it

2009-08-20T09:04:00.000-07:00

looks like wat i done ish right bah haas hmm hope u two will be together back uh

and lastly i really wish u a happy relationship tat all XD

Not going to said this anymore

hmm recently feel so randomly luh donnoe why .

hmm but after all i do feel so lighten up when i blurt out everything to howard and ah an .

hmm den today went out actually wanna to meet up wit yong de but he overslp .

den i go meet jadore luh he buy thing den i pei him luh den talk alot ... zzz

he lyk some nuts staff luh hahas zzz keep singing and lyk -_-"

after tat went to tangs saw one ring it from DKNY de luh damn nice haas

tot of buying for my sister but too bad she don wear it anyway if she does wear i also won buy haha

cause haven take pay yet arhz hahas ... erm den went to walk along orchard road lol suddenly there a big pour den was lyk hiding at the shelther lols den he at there lyk crazy luh donnoe how to said him luh hahas den after tat went home today nothing special nah jus lyk doing the same thing everyday zzz hmm anyway hungry ghost festival ish here le so scary can luh zzz i tink i gonna to go home early le luh hahas to prevent i provoke those AH PIAO (ghost)

lols hahas erm tink tat all le luh nothing special to blog abt today . oh ya tmr bring jojo go interview le luh at ION hahas and sebastian maybe coming too erm hope jojo that piggy can success in the interview behh hahas .

Nites earthling ...

From : Nelson

The guys who alway wish ppl for happiness instead of his own ... haiz

am tink when will mine come and alway be there ...

lifes goes on...

2009-08-19T15:41:00.000-07:00

hmm alright shall post wat happening today .

hmm went to spa in the after at hill street hmm damn shaung luh .

after the spa feel relax uh . hmm den after tat wnet to china meet up wit howard actually was going walk walk de but den nv cause lim got some problem den went to her house find her , after tat pass 12 am le zzz i forget got mid nite charge den after tat jiu stay at her house slack till 6 am den come home cause no charge mah . had our mahjong session as nothing to do hmm lose abit today maybe ish not in the luck bah haas , after tat went down wit howard and ah na chat till 6 hmm anyway thx for listening up all the stuff tat have been bugging me and so and so ...

thx guys ... without u guys support i tink i won have the courage to tell ppl tat wat am i .

erm sherlyn (ah na) thx uh like ur sentence

"although u are a gay we support wat u do alway "

thx at least u won despise me uh . hahas and howard too ...

hmm ... sms wit MrJoJo (piggy) haas his quite funny anyway i tink he facing some problem rite now bah hmm but nvm cause whenever there me i will help u de yea sat i bringing u to interview tat work hope u success in the interview at ION JIA YOU !!!

and anything u got thing bugging in ur heart , don mind telling me kkae hahas as i am alway there to lend a listening ear de uh same goes to sebastian too ^^

To : Piggy

protect each other from anything yea hahas takeaire don feel down le bah as thing will goes smoothly one day de uh .

To : Sebastian

don worry i will help kel de hahas so don worry le jus concentrate on ur exam first yea hahas . lols

To : Sherlyn & Howard

thx alot i really appreciate u guys de support and u guys de advise to me yea takeaire .

meet up whenever free bah ^^

and lastly noe alot of thing today heard alot of thing going on .

sometime hiding away from the fact it feel good luh .

don alway noe the fact cause it really hurts ...

And lastly i will work really hard to get wat i wan de hmm.

am not going to tink abt the past le gonna lead to my new life ...

and way to go cheers everyone ...

goodluck to me too hmm i will be who am i now won regret anything i have done before de .

and one thing for sure ish gonna hate tat shit forever as wat i heard from other u are not a good guy nor man luh and u seems to go on bed with lots of guys before luh ... u noe who i am referring to really speechless donnoe wat to said abt this boy le luh . kinda joke sometime

haiz

From : Nelson

Fate sometimes really do play around wit us ... and yet i am still smiling ...

pissing off with thing going on

2009-08-18T09:21:00.000-07:00

alright today have nothing better to do at work totally no have the mood to work this all

cause really alot of thing pop out in my mind . i don wanna to tell anyone but to keep it in my heart tat all and one thing ish tat i don wish her to find out the reason tat all cause i found my reason ish totally stupidlity but i jus have to do so ... but somehow there a more dumb slut keep at my back saying bad thing but nvm bah mouth ish hers so wat let her be and tat gal i swear i saw her i will tear her into pieces if i can ... GRRR !!! but anyway i told myself tat slut ish not worth it for me to do something on her cause it only dirty my hand ... hmm not going to said this unhappy thing it jus make my mood worsen tat all .

Am going to said abt other thing

many thing had occur on me and i jus found tat i am totally a useless person cause whenever

i get someone will snatch it away from me watever i get ish the last thing from the earth or maybe a rotten apple ... but i have never throw them aside . i been polish them but after tat it been snatch away by other ... hence i tried tink positive everytime but everything jus went corrupted tat all . yesterday wanna to slp but jus cant listening to my song i tink back the past

again i have promise myself not to tink back le everything ish a past ... i agree wit wat she said to me before ... she said he don even treat u well wat for u need to shed tear for him . but do u noe why i shed tear not u donnoe ...it my intergrity tat all u donnoe tat ...

i jus feel tat i have totally lost my soul ... my soul have ran to a place where it so despiceable and so low morale it hurtful whenever i tink back ... althought i manage to gain back my smile but deep inside me ish totally freaking bleeding ...told myself not to cried yesterday but i cant control and jus drop my tear out not only because of him and still alot of thing .

sometime i really envy those ppls wit good life born to be so fortunately but wat to do

this ish all fate and i noe i cant change it so i jus merely accept the fate ... been thru lots and lots of thing le but i jus seems tat i cant handle everything well . i am seriously a failure .

but from now on i won be a loser and failure tat everyone seems to be taking me for granted and do everything jus to hurt me and frankly speaking i will strike for my best to get wat i wan from now on . and i jus can said i am doing beri well now and leading a life as happy as i can now so hmm NELSON !!!

JIA YOU !!!

From : Nelson

The Lonely nite after the dawn !

hmm intersting

2009-08-18T08:25:00.000-07:00

reply tag to everyone

To: Jadore

thx for helping me in my blog but it does't matter to me watever they said let them be bah cause said more thing goes worse yea thing will eventually reveal soon so why bother to make everyone piss off rite now . rite so jus jolly well stop everything here le kkae.

To : shi qi

yea i won said anything tat being no good to her and nasty .

wat i can said ish i delibrately said all this thing de so i can eventually forget everything tat use to happen on me yea . everything goes for a reason and yap i never said am in the wrong and from the start till now i did not ever said tat i not in the fault . yea so maybe one day u came to noe wat happen and u will said this

"lols i noe nelson not lyk this de luh now i noe his reason le haiz he so dumb can "

yah so call lyk this but am not going to said so much le cause i don wanna thing goes worse .

erm and i did not post anything till i heard something lately and den i post arhz . u not happy to see my blog i am sorry to said tat i cant delete it cause it my rite for writing down here and

yap i agree i am too much this time for saying such an hush word but do rem one thing

everything happen wit a reason not tat everything ish the other party fault yea .

i donnoe whether u got side her not but hmm ish ok wit me anyway i am used to it tat everyone keep on mistaken me as a baddies so yap let it be uh . i won mind de .

To : lian lian

erm ish ok i never blame u for saying me yea but hmm it jus tat thing has over le don rack it up le for jadore thingy yap his also in the wrong by showing off yea so i down here help him said sorry to u guys by offending u gals uh . and i don tink u gals need to be piss off wit his words yea as ppl are born to be speech free so jus let him said watever he wan jus don care and everything will eventually gone into peace right :)

so cheers yea don get so angry ...i do this ish not because i scare u gals ish because i jus donn wanna thing gone into so un peace yea so to prevent unhappy thing happen i have to be humble

so erm yap u are a gal rite haas don get angry bah ltr got winkles u will regret le luh haas ... kkae so smiles XP

To : the 1st passer by

eh halo u don even noe wat happening den jolly well stfu lah

tink wat u said tat i will be piss off by tat lols . sorry i won entertain CLOWNS lyk u

jolly well don said me and i won said u ... and get urself an life to do . don judge me where u ownself also nothing better den me .

To : 2nd passer by

erm for ur info his not my bf at all his jus my frenz erm yap maybe ish jus my another bestie

so no need to ask much yea ^^

To : Jaslin

erm yap u are rite his not my bf but ish my frenz yea so wat i can said ish don argue anymore le

bah cause wat bygones be bygones bah and i donnoe which jaslin u are but i tink u noe u .

so don get angry easily cause winkles will come out beri fast de haas so don get so piss off yea .

CHEERS!xD

To : Zelton

haas u again i noe who u liao lah lols u really funny leh hahas

using a same .... in same time hahas kkae anyway thx and one more thing ish yap jus let me noe if u are meeting me yea hahas but plan go where walk walk first hahas ^^

To : MrJoJo

ah u this piggy haas sat go oversea ? haas u must be joking uh hahas such a rush

idea but i like it haas maybe next time go for long long holiday uh hahas .

and there will be me jojo sebastian and maybe other yea hahas Cheers

thx for the msg today hahas i appreciate it alot thx ^^

To : Xue ni

erm as i said i never said anything liao so jus stop saying all those thing lah

u are jus trying to be sacastic luh talking to me u never seems to be not sacastic luh but i jus give in luh so i don wanna anymore agruement along my blog liao luh so jolly well tell ur frenz don come here argue anymore le and for if u tink jadore ish too arrogant den i said sorry behalf on him uh so don get thing so mix up le luh and yah really hope tat u will never noe my reason for doing this and i tink i must keep everything to myself le not telling anyone le cause scare one day u might came to knew it and u will .... am donnoe wat u going to do but i am sure u

can stop ur tears le do cheer up bah

To : Sandy

can i noe u are ? erm u seems to noe abt him uh .

and tat gary seems so familiar to me hmm yap i noe tat i tink u get wat i mean bah .

LASTLY TO EVERAYONE

get something to do instead of spamming here anymore cause it doesn't matter to u guys liao luh and it between me and her why get urself involved in such thing yea so the next time i hope to see in my blog was a pleasent thing and don said this thing le .

trying to be understanding abit so jollywell stop everything le bah .

i bet tat u guys are mature enough to do something better yea so don get urself into any quarral le bah kkae cheers everyone

From : Nelson

everything will gone fine one day i guess hence ....

a piss off day

2009-08-17T09:47:00.000-07:00

hmm where should i start wit ? hmm ok i shall start wit this .
today was late to work and jus rush out of the house after preparing myself den i found tat my hp ish in a low batt condition . wat the fuck . den nvm went to interview at 4 pm cause i told my sir i got something on , and went there to meet up wit kel hence unfortunately i cant get in to the job cause i am in the army and they got deduct the CPF wtf . waste my time going down den after tat we went to majestic bar hmm cool the astmosphere was fucking nice can !
den after ask the price of the room den we headed to orchard to meet up wit lim den went to ION walk walk hmm saw one ZARA MEN'S t-shirt KAO ir was so freaking nice can . haas
going to buy that shirt soon . den went around to walk walk had our sushi break at the top floor of ION hahas i bought alot of thing i ate salmon my fav and scallop etc etc ...
Know wat we saw ADAM CHEN at ION kao he so cool luh better den on tv . I SWEAR HE MY IDOL FOREVER ! and after tat saw PATRICK MOK XIAO LING ... she freaking choi can ! hahas
saw DONG FANG BILLY also lols damn lucky today saw three stars ^^
den after tat continue our walk along the orchard street . hmm taken the photo for free at a photo shot box hahas so fun the background ish all about the F1 race de luh hahas . den after went cine bought my tounge piercing stuff cause something happen to my stud ARGH don wanna said le . hmm den after tat slack at cine outside listen to song and alot of thing jus pop out in my mind hence ... den after tat went home luh doing nothing ...
Oh yah forget to said who start to write and if not happy don come view my blog anyway i have my rite to blog watever i like in my blog tat all not happy jolly well close the window den ,
and yah u will alway said till lyk i am a a bastard or wat or BLA BLA BLA eh .
i never said i not in the fault if u donnoe how to read english den jolly well ask someone to translate to u then . and hello from the day u are together wit me u are hiding everything from me . and lastly i did not even tink so highly abt myself luh go wake up ur mind lah .
read my blog properly den said anything lah since u don wan admit den forget it whose noe ?
no one will noe u can said tat u never , u never but it jus all an lies luh don said i am a lier if u donnoe anything uh halo whose the lier u noe urself . i don wanna said out yea let time reveal everything and tink u will be opps PS don dare meet other i donnoe ? haas after reading ur blog i jus cant stop laughing noe why ? cause it all totally bull shit ! get it . JOKES !!!
anyway i don even owe u anything don said till everything ish my fault everytime thing happen only we two no one will noe . and u been saying wat and wat ... lols joke still dare to said it so loud ask the ppl come out lah . PLS LAH REM TAT TIME I SAID MEET U IN THE END I NEVER MEET U I SAID I GOT THING GOING ON AND ACTUALLY BLUFF U CAUSE I WANNA GO UR HOUSE DOWNSTAIR AND CALL U GIVING U AN SURPRISE BUT WAT I SAW IN THE END I REACH TPY ? LOLS TOTALLY XI WAN AND IT A JOKE REALLY A JOKE TOT TAT AM I SEEING THE WRONG THING BUT IN THE END NO HAAS U NO NEED TO NOE WHEN LAH . IF U GOT DO IT OR NOT NO NEED TELL ANYONE HOW INNNOCENT U ARE CAUSE WHEN PPL TELLS ME I WILL CANT FORCE MYSELF FROM NOT LAUGHING .
LOLS HYPROCRITE ? HMM TINK U ARE THE ONE I DONNOE ? BUT AM HOPING U ARE NOT THE ONE TAT ALL . TURNING TO AJ I HAVE MY REASON AND U WILL NEVER NOE THE TRUE REASON AND NO ONE WILL EVER NOE NEVER ! GET IT SO IF U DON WANNA ANYTHING TO BE POSTED IN MY BLOG DEN U SHOULD STOP UR OWN MOUTH AND SO SORRY TO SAID TAT I AM POSTING ON MY BLOG AND NOT SAYING OUT TO OTHER I AM NOT LYK U ...CAUSE I DON GAIN PITY FROM OTHER . I AM NOT TRYING TO SAID TAT U ARE GAINING PITY FROM OTHER . I AM JUS SAYING TAT I DON GAIN PITY . AND ASK UR FRENZ JOLLY WELL FUCK OFF THEY DONNOE ANYTHING DON SAID AND ESPECIATLY TAT MICHELLE . AND SINCE WHEN I JUDGE PPL LOLS I DON JUDGE DON PUT WORDS IN MY MOUTH YEA I NEVER JUDGE BEFORE I DID SAID LAVIN THEY ALL BUT ISH NOT JUDGING I AM STATING THE FACT THEY PLY GUM AND I REALLY LOOK DOWN ON PPL PLY DRUGS SO TIS NOT CALL JUDGE OK GET IT RITE ! AND DON EVER SAID I AM A LIER WHERE U URSELF ISH TAT ONE KIND . I HAVE NOTHING TO SAID LE I WON POST ANYTHING ABT U ANYMORE UNLESS U SAID SOMETHING ABT ME .
AND LASTLY TAKEAIRE OF URSELF BAH . THERE NO MORE FURTHER FOR ME TO POST ANYTHING DOWN HERE LE . IF UR SIS COME TALK TO ME I WILL TELL HER EVERYTHING AND U WANNA NOE GET IT FROM HER . TAT ALL CAUSE I DON WAN ANYMORE NOUNSENE OR SOME LAME PERSON TO COME MY BLOG AND SPAM
SAYING ALL THOSE CRAP WHERE THEY DON EVEN NOE WAT ISH GOING ON .

sometimes it takes two hand to clap

and it doesn't matter whether it my fault or ur fault
if u did not did all this thing why i should do all this thing to u
pls go tink what u have done before saying me all this thing .
and hello i did everything i got my own reason luh .
i did not delibrately do it .
tat all i have nothing to said and stop saying tat how angel u are kkae .
cause noone ish perfect at all i noe i am in the fault for being a AJ .
but tat ish me . no one can change me at all from now on . NEVER !

From : Nelson

I have totally lost trust from u !

alright i shall post here den

2009-08-17T08:47:00.000-07:00

hey guys here my reply to all ppl de tag yea :)

To: brenda

hey u don even noe wat happening den jus jolly well get ur mouth shut den u are jus a xiao mei mei to come and talk to me and i can said u don have the rite to said me at all luh . pls lah
despice me ? den don come my blog and view wat i write then . correct ? get urself an life to do lah better den interferring other ppls life and hello see urself and listen to both party too yea ... yawn u are jus another small kids luh . grown up before u talk to me lah .

To : Shi Qi

erm yah i do agree to wat u said but i have no choice but to said till so too much on her luh seriously i do feel beri xin ku talking to her . perharp ish communication error bah . since u said u have noe me and i am ur frenz too den u should noe i am not this kind of person , and i do everything ish got reason de . not i delibrately do tat luh and sometime i find tat she too hillarious luh but i jus donnoe why ... and do u noe i have really tried to love her but she dissapointed me again and again . i noe u will said tat she ur sister and u noe her well . but do u spare a thought for me . let make a example , i meet gal she will go tell her percious abt me and everything but do u noe i meet gal ish meet li ying they all ? u donnoe but she noes and she will alway find problem wit me . i go ply mahjong she argue wit me go out wit her out of sudden will quarral and lastly i am in army now leh i cant alway reply her msg de leh and lyk tat she also wanna find thing quarral do u noe tat i am really exhausted for the past one month jus wit her .
i try to tolerate her and yet it been taking for granted all i can said tat she ish another CHEUNG KA CHAI tat all . partern ish totally all the same . and i can swear tat wat i done i really have my own reason de luh waited for my msg ? lols laugh ! she ish totally too kua zhang liao luh . everytime tell other how angel she ish . ask her urself how many promises her made to me before and she break it . and i never even break once before luh . ask her to PING LIANG XIN said i can tell her everything and i can rem everything we did before and wat she said before . but u ask her , did she ever tried to go listen to wat i said before ? no need to ask i can tell u the answer ish NO . noe why cause she jus tink tat every guy ish so fake and don trust anyone at all . frankly speaking if she don trust a guy a all wat for stead wit that guy where she noe tat she cant forget everything tat she happening and going thru . ask me to put myself in her shoe ?
why not she come put herself in my shoe . i told her everything before but ish jus tat she don even get to understand wat i am trying to mean tat all . i can tell u wat i said in the blog ish i don wish to go for an relationship where there ish no trust and faithful at all . i am looking for a long lasting relationship and faithful , trueful , loving relationship and not this all kind of bull shit luh . every mens need a person to care for and love but i jus cant feel anything at her .
not because i am a AJ or wat i can said tat this ish only an excuse . frankly speaking i am not using her to turn straight or wat cause i am not a AJ when i wit her tat all but ish tat her feeling given to me makes me totally don trust her at all hide everything from me , and i can tell u now i won even go hesitate to change back le from now on i am a AJ and tat me don expect me to trust a gal anymore luh . frankly speaking not anymore le i swear ! now i live the way i really lyk . can said tat yah i do really enjoy the time wit her i don bear to leave her but not the time because of small thing argue till lyk fuk luh . i had enough wit her le i won tolerate anyone who jus simply give attitude where i don even noe wat happening luh , tat all le i have alot of thing i really cant said out i have been too much stress le luh wat i been going thru i can said tat my life ish totally fuck up den her . don believe den tat it cause i don wanna to said anything abt me anymore cause i don wanna to gain and sympthy from other and tat me . if u really wanna to noe wat actually happen i can tell u i don mind cause i believe u won said anything luh . as i noe u are a secret keeper too . so if really wanna to noe den ask me bah .

To : Michelle

hey slut i am not finish yet . don tink i will let u off so easliy luh . hey slut wat i said u forget le uh get urself an fucking life lah hor don come in and interferr in other relationship lah hor . get ur fucking own business to do lah hor cb . i do really hate u really i swear and curse tat u will be a bitch one days and opps ... guess tat u are one already so there no need much for me to said so much on u cause u noe wat type of person u are . u are indeed not so good also so don come and said me at all luh . wan said me look urself into the mirror bitch guess tat u are even worse den me . erm nope i cant use guess . ish totally worse den me u are lucky u never call u as a ... yea . i have enough of ur fucking nounsene lah hor stop joining in the conversation where u did not even noe wat happening around get ur fucking EQ done before u wanna to said other and ur english damn sucks get urself an english tutor yea _l_ don come and bother me at all and interferr in my life i don wanna to rem u in my life cause it only dirty my mermories tat all . GET IT BITCH !!! GET URSELF A LIFE TO DO FUCK ! OH YAH FORGET TELL U ONE THING U ARE JUS ANOTHER STUPID CLOWN TAT I SEE AND U ARE JUS MAKING ME LAUGH IN THE WAY U TALK YEA REALLY XIAO MEI MEI JOKES I CANT STOP LAUGHING WHEN I READ UR TAG AND FUCK OFF FROM MY BLOG CAUSE AM NOT RELATED TO U LAH HOR WANNA TO COME TALK TO ME DEN JUS BRING IT ON YEA . AM NOT SCARE OF U AT ALL LAH U THIS PCB SLUT . OR U CAN JUS HIDE URSELF UP OR DIG A HOLE TO HIDE LAH CAUSE I DON TINK U HAVE THE RITE TO TALK WITH ME YEA CAUSE WHEN I TALK TO U I FEEL SO DISGRACE YEA CAUSE U ARE JUS ANOTHER BRUT OR CAN SAID LYK ERM FAT BITCH UH HAHAS LOLS GET UR FUCKING SELF AN LIFE !

To : Zelton

haas i noe who are u . u view me in friendster de rite hahas . anyway thx for the tagged yea haas and all those gals except shi qi lah they are jus a small kids in chinese ish XIAO MEI MEI only so let them talk lah as they are so unmature yet . don care them anyway .

To : Reader

haas thx too i am living the way i really like now . am so sophiscated luh haashaas .
don actually need to care them at all luh . haas cheers ^^

To : sebastian

hahas yea thx thx ^^

To : kelvin hahas hallo piggy hees meet up real real soon hahas

lol

2009-08-16T10:00:00.000-07:00

lols now adays ppl lyk to talk behind other back luh but donnoe wat to said

anyway gonna said other thing tat ish ...
LISTEN UP !!!i am really happy tat now no longer wit u le .

noe why ?

u donnoe rite .

cause everytime u start to argue wit me and u will go around and

tell everyone tat i am the one who start tat first .

nvm let u said bah it ok de ...

cause u jus wan to be an angel infront of everyone

acting tat u are actually beri good .

Haas ... NAH FAT HOPE !

u can even said tat i don even cares for u .

where i alway ask u wat happen and u keep said nothing nothing and i keep on ask u

will change topic u are everytime lyk tat . pls lah which bf will tolerate his gf

lyk so called 365 days keep argue de .

and i am beri good tat i tolerate u .
haas serve u rite .

bet tat u regret tat rite cause u noe tat ur bf ish actually a AJ uh .

haas don tink i donnoe u outside got meet guy wan luh .

said wat i got meet gal also hello .

jolly wake up ur mind , i meet the gal ish li ying they all luh

and u noe them also . and u go meet guys i don even noe them at all luh

maybe u be flirting outside i donnoe but i jus can said tat

u are jus another CHEUNG KA CHAI !

tat all ur attitude totally same lyk him .

said u actually love me ?

Haas ... don make me laugh i have caught u many time go meet guys

and u jus can deny and said no .

why i don wanna to persuade ish because everytime i ask u

and u will start to throw thing on the floor and act as if u are angry
UH UH !!!

u are not tat angry ish because u jus feel tat how u gonna explain to me rite .

haas i noe tat . so don try to act infront of me can . lols

and stop telling how u are an angel to other luh pls .

when u are being reveal i am sure u comfirm ps till siao .

i swear !!!

if u continue to tell how angel u are .

i curse and swear tat u will be reveal one day .
Still wanna hide and deny ?

TICK TOCK !!! uh uh times up .

everything has to put to an end cause u noe wat u are doing .

at least no one delete my photo , no one control my freedom .

no one argue wit me for everyday , i can no need to wear a mask infront of u

i am totally so exhausted when i am with u .

and i can said tat u are too despicable .

so sorry to said tat cause i jus found tat u are jus totally hillarious .

tat all yea haas u can treat it on other but not on me cause i am smarter den u .

i can predict wat ur next move . so yah i don even scare i post this thing on the blog cause there

are nothing which i can hide . and tat me all i said ish the truth , if u despice me den go tink abt urself first cause if u despice me i will despice u back too .

lyk me den enjoy reading my blog .

despice me den jolly well leave my blog and don come back again .

tat my attitude , i won give in to another person and someone lyk u i won

even hesitate to give in anymore so yap jolly well change ur freaking attitude toward

other first bah , wan ppl accept u den change ur freaking INSANE ATTITUDE .

i wanted to show u more love but UhUh i cant . cause ur attitude ish totally sucks .

freaking hell ... and i can said tat this ish jus only a appetize for u if u still don change

the main course will be up one day and the dessert for u will be BITTER GROUND !

lol ur blog ish totally a joke of the days man . KAO !
and wanna post something for today ish nothing much

currently not in the mood to do anything rite now .

sorry for those hush word to u luh .

but i have no choice but to said u all this .

and lastly ...

THX KEL for the perfume yea and the small keychain ^^

hmm nothing much le bah . nite

From : Nelson

WE HAVE OUR OWN PRIDE!!!

today outing

2009-08-15T10:34:00.001-07:00

Today after work , tot of going to chinatown wan to pray

wit yawhui but in the end kanna one aeroplane by him .

zzz he said his there raining but my here not raining luh bugis so near kallang bahru if there rain i here sure rain de mah hmm but nvm lah if he don wanna go den i also don wan force him luh sian den go walk walk at orchard ... hees den go find lim too waited for her to finish work .

while waiting for her me and kel go walk walk went to alot of place .

to shop all go in to the branded shop mah lols

as if we buying lyk tat but i found one bag totally damn nice luh but too ex le

maybe perharp wait till next time i den can buy bah lols

hmm den went to top man earlier on to buy a SHADE . cool jus 36 bucks

and it was jus rite size for me .

so feel so worth it to buy den went to skin shop and see those stuff luh

den i bought one for my skin de 17.80 =.="

going to broke soon liao luh sian .

I MUST FIND AN PART TIME WORK !

quite broke now so cant do much shopping .

kao den at armani exchange saw the T-shirt so nice can !

den saw one leather back bag 56 buck kao !

den nv buy in the end maybe next month bah haiz

and after tat went back again to find lim after she finish work we go to

STARBUCK and slack .

awhile lim so funny can . i help her order le den in their lang said regular size ish call as TALL

den when lim heard that den she whisper to me said eh don wan lah tall i cant drink finish le

too big liao luh i jus give her this face -_-"

den nv care her den i in the end i told her in thier lang regular size ish call TALL

den she said ORhz den she ji tao ps sia . den went for sit at the sofa there talk den

actually wanted to camwhore at there but nah hahas don wan cause wear not so nice .

den after tat at outside slack and talk they two was freaking hillarious can ! hahas

keep laughing and laughing den make those action tat when see liao comfirm ROFL

de luh zzz den kelvin said tat don laught too much can ltr the six pack come out .

den i was lyk WTF laugh also can six pack come out uh den lim like sticking to the wall and laugh lah so KUA ZHANG can !

den after awhile of joke den we jiu go le

hahas as falend was at orchard too and i meet him at the mrt station go home wit him .

noe wat he ish so shy can hahas talk to me uh lyk psps lyk tat haas

To : falend no need feel shy toward me de lah hahas cause there nothing to feel shy abt yea

hahas don hide anymore hahas i noe tat i noe tat hahas .

den was talking lyk we are long lost frenz yea hahas

and after tat he reach his station he give me a PEACE and his face was lyk blushing hahas

so cute can hahas

Opps i am sorry falend i have no choice but to said out hees

don mad at me yea hmm den after tat at the mrt on the way home saw my BRTC CPL

damn miss him lah cause he treat our platoon ppl so nice lah .

hmm den after tat reach home go bath after tat i apply the lotion i brought from the skin shop

hmm tat all for today yea hahas .

happy outing erm and KELVIN ( MRJOJO )

when ur turn to meet me out haas we agree to find work together de leh don forget hor

hahas and last thing i really not tat pro in dancing para para le nah cause i rusty liao

haha wait i train back le den i will come compare wit u kkae hahas Bleahz

hmm and lastly lastly lastly

To my new AJ frenz i am really happy to noe u guys

cause only u guys make my smiles come back

only u guys let me tink positive

and i have to special feature in my blog u guys are

KELVIN

KELVIN(MRJOJO)

SEBASTIAN

ALVIN SNG

u guy will be in my heart forever

cause u guys are my besties

hearts u guys lots

and one day we have to go out together

i mean we guys yea

From : Nelson

U guys gave me Smiles ^^

Friday night

2009-08-14T16:10:00.000-07:00

Hmm today wake up in the afternoon .

and i recieve kelvin msg hahas and was msging wit him .

and when i see the time i realise that i was late .

cause i meet my bestie yawhui . and rush to bath and do all my staff .

after tat i jus wear normal all WHITE hahas

den go out after tat went for dinner wit him at kallang bahru .

and went down to town straight .

msging wit sebastian while walking to cine .

after tat reach cine we go walk walk awhile before we go buy movie ticket

hmm spend quite alot and i also donnoe wat the hell i spending .

bought a silver berms at (Friday , i'm in love)

and the berms ish damn nice so it worth it to buy .

although it expensive but after discount it was ok .

hmm will be going back to buy the suspender & the T-shirt over there

hmm den after tat we went to buy movie ticket .

watched the OPHAN and i swear tat it a Super power show .

the gal in the ophan ad was so fuking cruel . oh gosh , if she happen to be one of my sis i

give her a one tight slap put dig her nose with tat freaking sharp knife of lock her up a cabin and call police to nap her for sure , cause she ish a a kind of human tat won't grow taller and it lyk a drawf

alway maintain a kid body size she killed the whole family who adore her .

she totally insane (SOTSOT)

hmm den before the show went to ply para para awhile hahas but long time no ply liao den abit rusty luh hmm den saw kelvin wanted to call him but i was plying and he jus went in and see me after tat went out .

LOL see me twice today and jus walk off cause he said he shy -_-"

den i tell him next time cannot walk off le uh must call me hahas den he said haha ok ok

anyway his a funny guy luh hahas erm quite lots of fun having them cause from the time noe them hmm i been smiling . not lyk last time all smiles ish so plastic luh .

hmm not talking about this le bah so piss off with last time thing .

hmm den after the show slack at cine outside awhile when i heard this song came out

CHICHIQUITTA ... cool damn nice it damn retro yea .

after listening to that song it abt 3plus and when home straight cause tmr still got work zzz

hmm nothing le bah tat the end of friday nite haas

From : Nelson

28/08/09 cant wait for the day to come haas

meet up wit my besties and club for sure ^^

the day when i outside ^^

2009-08-13T16:50:00.001-07:00

Reflection of us !!!

At The Escalator Hees

Am alway ready for CamShot kakas...

camwhore at mrt ^^

while we was waiting for howard !

Going for Solo

Don snatch my bag uh , i tell u uh

So wat up niggle...

At braddel Mrt Camwhoring all the way yea

haas thx for my da jie for helping me take yea haas

lols today went down to tpy to meet my mummy and jie they all luh haas

den eat alot Kao hahas forget to take down the photo luh ...

hmm it seems lyk everyday i going out luh . hmm maybe ish because no mood bah but

jus acting and putting a plastic smiles on me .

but at least now my smiles ish coming back le i can see tat .

perharp ish some miracle bah .

i guess haas lols .

den going back times we went to braddel to take mrt den suddenly tot of plying mahjong

den call howard den while waiting for him ...

haas i camwhore alots lah hahas damn fun .

yap although it taking alone but i jus feel tat it fun anyway .

anyway chat wit sebastian abt the complexion thing and i tell him a way to

make face good . tat ish RED WINE hahas i love it .

but it does really work nah . hmm so i intro him red wine to improve his complexion

so he no need to be so worry and piss off with his complexion thingy hahas ^^

hmm shall meet up soon wit them .

haas cant wait to go club on 28 aug cool Going to DBL O for celebrating amanda 19 birthday haas cool ...

hmm anyway nothing le bah gonna slp le ltr going to jalan bahagia to fetch my another besties yaw hui haas cause today he book out mah den said hao we go watch movie luh ...

hmm hope to see some of my frenz there too ...

kkae bah gonna log off le shall update soon ...

From : Nelson

Although i have lost u but i found new thing .

To gain something better u have to sacrifies one of ur thing

and that ish life ... wondering why fate are alway playing a fool

on other ....

lols

2009-08-12T13:44:00.000-07:00

the time we reach vivo

CamWhore again !

Ermm.... soo blur down here

perfer to see my phone de haas

hmm looks abit tired taken at mango...

haas the photo does't look this way but jus donnoe why inside here

soooo ...

althought we been busy we our own thing but u are not forgetten!!!

looks lyk howard strike some lottery yea hahas

camwhoring all the way!

TAT ME XP tat blur -_-"

taken at the vivo outside

the shopping mall XD

wat we have ate today yea we look quite hungry ^^

Hmm there still somemore photo .

but did not upload cause keep appear error .

hmm perharp next time i really need to buy a digital camera

and bring out wit me everyday so

the pic don look so blur and will look nice too .

haas saw Kelvin Ang at vivo he and his frenz

shopping haas saw him at mango ... i tink

den tot of buying one of the shirt inside but don have my size

all sooo BIG the smallest ish L

... i am not tat fat i am slim so i did not brought .

after tat headed to zara to see some stuff

yea there the shade ish nice but too ex i don wanna buy .

hmm after tat headed to

Pull And Bear

haas the jean over there damn nice as i told howard they all mah

they jus sat down on the sofa continue talking without giving

some attention SHIT THEM ! hahas

jk^^ don kill me when u see my blog haas

den after tat went to top man .

den went to pedro .

i am really happy tat can meet up wit that howard cause it was lyk

sooo long never meet him also donnoe where he M.I.A to

haas usually we slack together but now because of everyone

busy we had to meet once awhile ...

but still enjoy going out wit them today cause although we jus do some window shopping

but we did gain something tat ish we camwhore whole day lah haas

hmm today did not buy much thing cause never go to my FOURSKIN shop as vivo don have

and top man hmm not so much t-shirt .

wanna to find shade but don have the pattern i wan ...

den went to armani exchange shirt don have my size all ish L

WTF !!! was lyk sian half .

hmm nvm afterall today was so fun .

after all shopping went for slack and do some stuff yea .

hahas so much fun .

hmm went back and reach home around 2.45

cant imagine to upload a photo so long

it takes me more den 1 and half hour to do so

not being a noob for uploading but

ish the blog problem cause keep window shut ...

damn piss off wit today blogger .

hmm anyway i have learn to be positive le and

i am jus seeking ... hmm yea i wont wrote down here

of cause so hmm ,

nothing much le bah shall post till here le bah ^^

everything happen with some reason

So cant be probably all my fault .

what i have learn ish to gave up

i rather hide inside the darkness hole instead of standing outing to see the light

wat i wan was purely some good rest and nothing much i can do

i am not GOD , i cant satisfies u .

hence , So i rather alway be hiding from the dark instead of letting u to found me out

said watever u wan cause i don wanna to talk much

talk much make thing worse

if u don shut up den carry on bah said bah

and i will jolly well shut my mouth up

Never forget abt today One Kinda Stupid Msg tat i recieve today

Don : Hi ,

Me : Hi U are ?

Don : hmm u donnoe me wan , i found ur num in the facebook.

Me : FACEBOOK! ... ok den ?

Don : Heard tat u because of someone and u sold ur soul ?

Me : how u noe ? Who are you ?

Don : i told u my name ish Don and u donnoe me want . btw mind having lyk one night stand .

Me : Oh well . tink u found the wrong person .

Don : why ?

Me : I Would't have sex wit u even u are the last man in this earth . get it . get urself a life !!!

Don : U are freaking arrogant ! Tink who u are ? Hot ?

Me : yea i am . i bet tat i am hotter , Smarter den you . And sorry I don entertain Clown:)

after tat he did not reply . i am not trying to be arrogant but seriously i swear he jus another

Stupid Freak or some kind of AID or STD guys trying to have sex wit other .

lol

This ish other msg .

Vincent : Hi , Care to intro ? seeking for ? single ? mind having one night stand or something ?

Me : Hi , Ask Someone , To Teach , U Speak , English .

Vincent : Sorry i donnoe wat u mean ?

Me : I am Trying To Mean Get , Urself , An , English Tutor ! DUHH!!!

Vincent : O.o? I am not seeking for english tutor . why u need ?

Me : FUCK OFF !!! get urself an life .

after wat i reply him , i did not recieve any of his msg again hahas lol

now adays this kind of stupid person do appear and maybe they are too DESPERATE for Sex I Guess .

Go Drill some hole in ur house or wat to fuck the wall urself instead of finding ppl for one night stand . DUH!!!

There still two guy name Derrick and samual . lols but don wanna to said cause they are asking for the same thing too . so don tink there a need for me to write any of their msg down here .

haiz

2009-08-11T09:56:00.001-07:00

i am feeling so stressed up because of a thing happen

i donnoe wat to do right now.

never feel this way for a long time le

but suddenly this feeling came back

i am totally exhausted , TOTALLY

i hate this feeling rite now

i need a long break

i need to take a good rest , really jus a few day also will do

jus a few day and i be more den enough for this

i noe it a obsticale for me to went thru

but along this way i am so pessimistic

wat i am doing ? who am i really ?

who really cares abt me ? who really can understand me?

donnoe why suddenly got a weird feeling for me i have shed tear for no reason.

alot of thing have been going thru my mind alot really alot .

but i still can let other see my smiles

but why cant i jus simply forget the past

before i slp , every morning i go work

everytime i alone at home , everytime i alone go shopping

i am tinkink the same thing

it jus lyk a nightmare hunting me

i am really scare , it totally freaks me out

and now i jus don have the mood to do anything right now thing are bugging me everyday

it jus lyk a nightmare to me

i am feeling so exhausted

really exhausted and tired

all i need i tink ish simply jus rest

when can i gain back my smile again

when can i walk on the street so freely tat nothing ish bugging me

might burst out anytime

Haiz

nation days hmm

2009-08-09T09:28:00.000-07:00

today was nation day and jus donnoe why don have the mood to laugh .

make myself smile all the way i jus couldn't do it so .

Haiz putting a plastic smiles really makes me so TIRED .

hmm thought of going shop to throw my temper at there

but i hesitate for awhile ... i tink tat cant alway feeling not good jiu spend money

hmm lucky got yawhui one of my bestie he stop me whenever i wanna buy thing

i have tried a new coat .

haas nice yea but cant buy :(

after shopping went to food court to have my dinner

wau kao order a plate of rice wit prawn beanspout and meat

nb 6.20 bucks kao .

den went to meet philip and li ying at raffles city shopping centre

while waiting for them me . me and yawhui camwhore at the fountain there

hmm den after they reach we went to marina square xin wan eat

hmm feeling so full so i and yawhui jus ate some ice

i order a MANGO ICE

yawhui order a STRAWBERRY ICE

hmm quite nice lah

the pic of the ice

TA DA !!!

OUR SO CALL ICE CREAM

in the end cant finish up -_-"

yum yum

a healthy meal should eat this way

after eating we went for walk walk

and i finally see how typical singaporean are

haas but they are really united

haiz suddenly feel tat my life ish so boring one day by one day

i gonna get something to do ASAP

feeling so miserable rite now

today camwhore whole day

i look back those photo tat we take recently

i found tat inside the picture my

my smiles has gone

i donnoe where my smiles has gone to

was wondering when i can get back my smile

smile and laugh all the way i used to be

when ? i really donnoe when i can smile again

i am soo stress up and tired .

i wish i could jus get paranoid or brain wash one day

so i cant forget all the hurt ,

all the pain

all the unhappy memories i had

and gain my smile back .

when ? when ? when ?

really tired damn shag .

i need a good rest , a good holiday to relieve myself

I'M WEAR OUT NOW !!!

don wanna wear any mask anymore

From : Nelson

Changing to another person!