Hmm been busying with lots of thing like , frenz bday , my own stuff , meeting up with frenz , trying to entertain everyone around me , but what makes me happy was to see them laugh and their smile on their faces , hence but for me ? i don wish to stay unhappy , who wan right , but i jus cant seems to be controlling all my emotion , when times comes i will eventually wear on a mask
to face ppl . it not those evil mask yea :) it those happy mask but i aint happy at all ... sometime i
did question myself why am i facing so much thing and i still can smile ? why not jus show out all
my emotion , Laugh when am Happy , Smile when i feel Delighted , Cry when i feel Sad , Frown when i feel Devastated or Vex , but i still cant find the ans yet but i keep telling myself , i can do it no matter what happen , there sure a way to solve it hmm that why am being so optimistic putting a smile all along my life ,We question love because we did not find it. We question the meaning of dreams when they dont turn out the way we expected. The problem with dreams and ideals is that they prolong our pain and disappointment, making us wonder was it wrong to think that way in the very first place, or when can these dreams come alive.
We need to learn to believe that although some things have not been found does not mean that they don't exist. Perhaps we just did not open our eyes wide enough to realise what is around us. Love, dreams and ideals they're all around us. Life doesnt give us the most perfect answers and most times our hopes and disappointments taint our view of the world - but we should not be unfair to ourselves and to others. And those who hold on steadfast will find their way out of all the darkness that surrounds them.
Like the quote above which is directly translated from chinese, the show actually inspired me alot. It tells us that although things may not be the way we want it to be, we may be devastated over and over again and the rain in our hearts can be prolonged almost as if it's eternal but let's not forget that some day all of it will be washed away. All of this requires our faith and continued hope that there will be something meant for all of us.
But in order to do that, we need to let go of the rainy season. We need to come out of it in order to let go in order to receive. Some day all of this pain will go away.
ALRIGHT ENOUGH OF ALL MY EMO THING .
Hmm so where shall i start ok yesterday it Amanda Gan Ye Shan my 14 years best frenz finally she turns 20 haha old one more year luh so i hereby wishing u another HAPPY BIRTHDAY YEA MY BESTIES !!! yesterday was quite a fun and hectic day didn really get enough of sleep and went to work , after work rush home to change and go bugis meet up with lim , howard , lay hong , ah ting , my sis , ah wen , vivian . we went for steamboat at chong qin , we ate quite alot of food we like eating lots of junks luh haha den after the dinner , i went to maxwell to meet up with amanda they all as she celebrating her birthday in club mah reach there i already see that she been surrounded by her best frenz and present luh , after wishing her happy birthday i sat at other day , watching how happy she ish , I can see that she really enjoy and everyone over there really brighten up her day , i was super envy luh noe :) all my frenz around me are like having ppl to celebrate with them present all around hmm like example : Family , Friends , GF/BF etc etc . but me ? haha nvm forget it :) am alway happy go lucky :D maybe am jus born to envy ppl and cant have the thing i want hahas am not trying to act pathetic down here and don need anyone sympathy at all . cause it jus some of my PERSONAL THOUGHT that all :D
hmm i really donnoe what to said liao le luh i tink i had enough of writing liao hahas :D
Thinks that am going to stop here le luh :D
This all thing ish what am been thinking of everytime haha silly me right ? haha i noe :)
From : Ethan Chan
Just Some Personal Thought
Seriously No Offence :D
Cheers Earthling ...<3>
