Hmm am back to blog again , hmm where to start ? alright i should make it short den hmm
this whole week am damn restless luh also donnoe what happen ... wanna to update my blog also lazy to update ... hmm this whole week had happen quite alot of thing for me and it quite some happening week bah hmm i laugh like no body business , i did drop my tear again , thx for the memories that came back again , i have tried to to cut down on my diet hahas , and lots of thing
Alright one thing that make me cant really forget the past ish because whenever i tot i have already forget that person already but that day that person appear infront of me again , hmm but i told myself am not a weakling come on i can overcome it ... XD guess what ? I MANAGE TO DID IT !!! am feeling so proud of myself cause i can get it over but bad thing ish .... thing really have to end up like this jus to end everything ... i been thru hard time a really hard time till now ... hmm even though am blogging now my tear are around my eye i have to control it i cant drop anymore tear for anything not anymore ... I noe that it not good when i have to bear everything on myself , alot of ppl saying that am jus torturing myself but frankly speaking NO !!!! am not cause i donnoe who to face to even i found someone to talk to i donnoe how to start and i don even like ppl to sympathy me that all so i rather keep everything to myself .
There are once , someone had told me this , don worry no matter what happen u need me i alway be there to be ur listening ear share ur every sadness happiness together , but did that person did it ? haas the ans ish Big Fat NO !!! everytime i did try to call that person but in the end being hang up on the phone , i had enough of all this nonsense luh , what i wish for ish to be like normal ppl whenever they are sad ppl will be there for them ... i had put on a fake smile for ages no one had realise it , i admit i do envy , i do jealous , i do wish for thing like that but perharp this fate bah :) hmm i learn to tink positive and everything luh ...
Once again , i had to thank them for leaving footstep in my life , and walk away without giving any warning ... and let me be alone down the lonely street in the cold weather ... let me learn how to fight alone in the lonely war , thanks for everything i will forgive everything but never will i forget you !!! you noe that who am i referring to . i tink am not talking much about all this thing le bah cause whenever i recall back this thing i jus feel like crying out ... hmm kkae bah should stop here am not talking much bah ...
LABEL : I MIGHT SEEMS TO BE STRONG BUT DEEP INSIDE ME AM NOT ,
I HAVE MY OWN SORROW TIME WHO NOES ? HMM GUESS NO ONE DID
I LIVE FOR MYSELF NOT FOR OTHER , THANK FOR LETTING ME
BECOMING SO INDEPENDENT AND STRONG THANKS FOR EVERYTHING
From : Ethan Chan
i might be strong outside
but actually am not life
alway full of sadness and happiness
jus live for wat u are and u will see the
sky turn blue and flower scent everywhere
and there alway be a fine rainbow above us :)
Hmm am back to blog again , hmm where to start ? alright i should make it short den hmm
