hmm recently jus change my phone to X10 Xperia hmm it look super duper cool can hmm i like the application inside and lot of thing to experience luh am loving this phone alot alot hahas am beri sure that am not gonna to anyhow leave it luh hahas hmm there alot of thing keep pop in my head the first thing ish my bday thing hmm i wish that it can be successfully done but guess that am wrong le now i have to drop this idea due to something crop up and have to super duper save money hmm cause it over the badget hmm so there ish only one thing to do and that ish freaking drop the idea and never think of it anymore , though it kinda sad but what to do ? haha face the fact ETHAN CHAN !!! hmm and now there ish only one thing for me to do ish to work + work + work that all no other thing no more like shopping , and stuff hmm even now i have work with high pay i will never think it enough for me , cause i still have lots to support hmm a simple minded guy handling so much thing by himself and yet he still can manage to put a smile on his face and never show other ppl his weak point that ish Ethan Chan this ish me ! hmm though am super tired already but what to do life still goes on .

in my philosophy life , there ish alot of thing happen ,
people do come and go , frenz walked into ur life and dissapear
at the next moment , family ? having a great strauggle ! No bond ?
i don dare to said , relationship wise will alway never be good for me .
everything keep going againist me i did told my sir abit about my thing ,
and he told me this ish life this ish the stage that am start to grow up to
become a man , i was like if it like this am i counted as a man since 13 ?
have been moulding myself to be independent , and yet i manage to moulded myself
i have lots of question lots and bundle of question but jus that u donnoe who to ask
no one can truely give me an answer , some frenz treat u well when u have money or
u are someone who have power ish this call frenz ? or jus making u as sparetyre ?
i donnoe , have been finding the ans that have pop in my mind for beri long time .
but till now i cant get the answer but den i still can proudly said that i seen thru alot
of thing alot alot of thing den you guys and for ppl who have readed my blog ... i have lots
thing to said but i don dare to stated it down here i jus stated everything in my private blog
Why ? why am i doing all this ? ans beri simple that ish i don wish to let anyone sympathy me
u guys can tell me that u guys are not sympathy nor pity me but still ? i won spilt anything out
as i can handle myself and my own thing i don need a LISTENING EAR :D cause every thing i said might burst out into tear i can said not only me , u guys might burst out into tear when u guys heard about the story of my life , but so sorry am not gonna to leak out anything so u guys can rest assure hmm am a Optismistic person i noe what am doing even if i done or walk a wrong path am still doing all this thing for the sake of myself
u can said that am sound beri deprived but still have to said NO am not .
i wanted to cry and shout out loud but i cant ! noe why ? cause this ish a freaking singapore that have no open space for ppl to let out themself
for me good : 20% Bad : 80% seriously when can i really get over this all thing ?
someone told me after army i get to work my own thing i might can survive on my own .
but haiz nevermind forget let jus sit and wait till i get my army done .
my feeling now ish like closing my eye and forever rest in one special bed and never wake up
but NO i cant cause i cant leave my MUM behind , there one time i have attempt to kill myself by over dose medication but in the end i throw everything away cause the moment i wanted to take up i think of my family , though both of my sis never speak up but i noe they seriously need me especially my mum , so i will never ever leave them behind i will work hard for it :D
hah ! droping my tear when blogging this post i guess that am not gonna said much le bah cause it hinting me not to drop any single tear anymore , last but not least am super tired but yet i can get to slp , am exhausted , shag and stress ! but i still have to hold on ... there only one thing that can buck me up only one word JIA YOU ETHAN CHAN JUN XI U ARE NOT A WEAKLING !

hmm recently jus change my phone to X10 Xperia hmm it look super duper cool can hmm i like the application inside and lot of thing to experience luh am loving this phone alot alot hahas am beri sure that am not gonna to anyhow leave it luh hahas hmm there alot of thing keep pop in my head the first thing ish my bday thing hmm i wish that it can be successfully done but guess that am wrong le now i have to drop this idea due to something crop up and have to super duper save money hmm cause it over the badget hmm so there ish only one thing to do and that ish freaking drop the idea and never think of it anymore , though it kinda sad but what to do ? haha face the fact ETHAN CHAN !!! hmm and now there ish only one thing for me to do ish to work + work + work that all no other thing no more like shopping , and stuff hmm even now i have work with high pay i will never think it enough for me , cause i still have lots to support hmm a simple minded guy handling so much thing by himself and yet he still can manage to put a smile on his face and never show other ppl his weak point that ish Ethan Chan this ish me ! hmm though am super tired already but what to do life still goes on .

in my philosophy life , there ish alot of thing happen ,
people do come and go , frenz walked into ur life and dissapear
at the next moment , family ? having a great strauggle ! No bond ?
i don dare to said , relationship wise will alway never be good for me .
everything keep going againist me i did told my sir abit about my thing ,
and he told me this ish life this ish the stage that am start to grow up to
become a man , i was like if it like this am i counted as a man since 13 ?
have been moulding myself to be independent , and yet i manage to moulded myself
i have lots of question lots and bundle of question but jus that u donnoe who to ask
no one can truely give me an answer , some frenz treat u well when u have money or
u are someone who have power ish this call frenz ? or jus making u as sparetyre ?
i donnoe , have been finding the ans that have pop in my mind for beri long time .
but till now i cant get the answer but den i still can proudly said that i seen thru alot
of thing alot alot of thing den you guys and for ppl who have readed my blog ... i have lots
thing to said but i don dare to stated it down here i jus stated everything in my private blog
Why ? why am i doing all this ? ans beri simple that ish i don wish to let anyone sympathy me
u guys can tell me that u guys are not sympathy nor pity me but still ? i won spilt anything out
as i can handle myself and my own thing i don need a LISTENING EAR :D cause every thing i said might burst out into tear i can said not only me , u guys might burst out into tear when u guys heard about the story of my life , but so sorry am not gonna to leak out anything so u guys can rest assure hmm am a Optismistic person i noe what am doing even if i done or walk a wrong path am still doing all this thing for the sake of myself
u can said that am sound beri deprived but still have to said NO am not .
i wanted to cry and shout out loud but i cant ! noe why ? cause this ish a freaking singapore that have no open space for ppl to let out themself
for me good : 20% Bad : 80% seriously when can i really get over this all thing ?
someone told me after army i get to work my own thing i might can survive on my own .
but haiz nevermind forget let jus sit and wait till i get my army done .
my feeling now ish like closing my eye and forever rest in one special bed and never wake up
but NO i cant cause i cant leave my MUM behind , there one time i have attempt to kill myself by over dose medication but in the end i throw everything away cause the moment i wanted to take up i think of my family , though both of my sis never speak up but i noe they seriously need me especially my mum , so i will never ever leave them behind i will work hard for it :D
hah ! droping my tear when blogging this post i guess that am not gonna said much le bah cause it hinting me not to drop any single tear anymore , last but not least am super tired but yet i can get to slp , am exhausted , shag and stress ! but i still have to hold on ... there only one thing that can buck me up only one word JIA YOU ETHAN CHAN JUN XI U ARE NOT A WEAKLING !

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