Hmm am back to blog again recently really busy with stuff and no time to blog and so on ...
wat am i going to write ? i donnoe . haiz why everytime am in alone mode i start to tink of everything that use to happen in the past ... i really having a big regret a big big big regret that someone that actually can break my heart deeply ... i tot that i have already got over him but NO !!! i haven... went back to kb my last time hometown and make me recall alot of memories down there and i will start to tink of i use to have a beri beri good frenz and everything that we do together i will never forget though he hurt me so deep and betray me i don really wanna blog abt him but this ish only the way i can shout out loud ...
when ever i tink back of him , my heart really bleed and cry , yet at the outside am staying beri strong ... i wanted to cry out loud real real loud but i hold on to myself and i control when i really feel like crying haiz i donnoe wat got into me perharp that his the only one i trust the most bah haiz maybe i still need time to get over it bah ... haiz this time round i lose to myself again , i shed tear for him again ... i wanted to get rid of this feeling but i cant , haiz guess that i need to make myself more and more busy so i don have the time to go think of that bah ... recently my mood was like freaking moody can .... but am jus putting a fake smile on my face that all ... so that everyone tot that am fine , but actually not haiz i noe it really stupid for me to tink back abt him again but i had no choice i cant forget how he treat me luh haiz ... don talk abt this anymore le bah am not in the good mood to said this as am already dropping tears right now but who can see ? who will noe ? no one ! cause i had never told other abt my feeling cause i don really need any sympathy from other ... my own problem i can handle myself , i really donnoe wat to write and so on i only had the feeling of lonely in my heart ... haiz i really wanna gone crazy liao luh ... i don wanna to write anymore le cant control myself right now ... anyway recently meet up with liying they all really ish a fun day hmm and mahjong all the way luh hmm ... kkae bah nth much le luh the rest of my problem i shall keep it to my heart can le bah ain't gonna tell anyone abt my feeling so yap it my decision and i decide to go my own path le ... hmm kkae bah shall blog till here le bah takeaire earthling
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From : Nelson aka Ethan
the day when i feel so lonely !!! haiz
