haiz no gonna post any pic today cause quite lazy ...
hmm alright gonna post a blog tat recently had happen to me .
recently had been clubbing and go pub alot
doing the same thing and everyday seems to be so high for me .
as clubbing i can dance alot and hmm yap i admit am using clubbing to make my stress away but it still no use hmm cause i been acting as if am so happy wit my life right now but no i cant .
yesterday i have let out myself and feel so paranoid wit myself ...
everyone finally see weak am i le ... infront of my frenz have been acting strong but
in the end i feel so ashame in front of everyone tat i actually cry out ... hence i sweaer this ish the last time tat i show my feeling out and no other time anymore ...
yesterday at DBL O it was sooo embrassing can i felt sooo Shameful ...
first time at club am so down ... not gonna step in DBL O for a period of time ... cause of my unglam thing ...even if i go i make sure i don let them regonise who am i ... sure change my every outfit to cover my own identity . Gosh ...
Ok after wat happen yesterday am really tink open le i don wish to have any more past bugging me so to prevent of that i gonna to change my life style again ...
not only go clubbing only i also will go do alot of thing to make myself busy and not gonna
to give a damn or wat to the past or thing that keep bugging me ... feeling rather randomly at alls times .
was wonder tat when can everything be over and when can we live in peace withput any
thing bugging us .... haiz u make my mind so mess up ... i donnoe wat ish going on wit u
awhile treat me nice awhile treat me lyk wat ...can tell me wat ish going on wit u ...
hence ... and one more thing ish i have to thx alvin :) cause he been beside me and cheering me up came to club wit me and stay at my side so i should said thx to u really thx yea haas ...
oh yah and one more thing i have forget to post ish
tat day go out wit sebas they all ish so fun man cause we take alot of photo and we walk here and there but not happy the thing ish someone there and lyk giving this looks =.= whenever i talk to him ... hmm but nvm who cares yea haas anyway get to talk to him jiu can liao ...hmm
u are making me so wild and so mess up in my mind ... hmm
at times peoples should give in to something
tat important to them , and not to misunderstand thing easily .
i choose to live my own way why cant other jus live in their way .
being stress up jus because of a small thing and gave up entirely .
why in this world god are alway around us to fool and and ply us out .
perharp everything comes for a reason bah .
don trust a person easily even something had happen between u two cause
ppl alway wear a mask and face ppl ... as for me i will jus believe wat i saw and wat i heard i don trust others cause i don wanna to been frame up ... so yap ... don judge a book by it cover ...
cause u will never noe wats his/her tinking ...
and thru this i have learn to live stronger one day by one day...
and tat me hahas nite earthling :)
MISSING YOU ALWAY<3
From :Nelson
Never Ending Sense
