today having some problem wit baby and we have abit argue
hmm sian cause of tat stupid "frenz " of mine and we argue
but nvm i alway tink positive ish tat we argue ish to bring us more close together .
wat i wanna said was baby let face the problem u having together and have trust in me cause no matter wat u facing
it alway be me to be at ur side
and no matter wat happen u are stillthe LOH XUE NI i noe and u will never change in my heart .
yap don deny tat i having lots of problem but everytime u came across my mind i am so relieve do u noe ?
hmm i really donnoe how to express to u but ish tat never ever betray u but jus tat u must have have trust in me .
we will XIN FU de rite once more baby i love u .
hmm den went to GOMBA mit eric they all awhile den feeling abit dizzy i tink ish because not enough slp . haiz fever still have gone away sian sian sian ...
den when on the way home my mind suddenly tink of kc haiz i really feel lyk calling him i miss his voice and sms but haiz wat he had done to me i have really dissapointed .
on my way home all i tot ish kc kc kc and kc noe wat i have drop my tear out of sudden haiz i have try to bear wit it but i jus cant cause wat he have done to me really heart pain . don dare to tell anyone how i feel ish i don lyk other feel pity me cause i don lyk the feeling . wanted to concentrate on my own thing but i cant
i jus donnoe WAT THE HELL i am tinking abt .
wat i tinking was going to a peaceful place and
relieve myself
i need to put off all my anger
everything tat i am facing rite now i am totally stress up
no one totally understand me at all
i might be using a smiling face and attitude to face everyone but inside me i am deeply hurt and deeply bleed wat he has done to me i feel tat i am jus a fucking KUM GONG ! i really wish time can go back to last time tat i don even noe him at all cause if can choose i choose not to noe him at all .
every single word every single thing and every little thing we went thru and wat i have done for him i will never forget never ever forget cause it a TOTALLY DISGRACE I HATE MYSELFFOR DOING TAT JUS BECAUSE OF A WORD BROTHER FUK THIS SHIT !!!
HOW I WISH SOMETIME HE COULD READ MY BLOG AND UNDERSTAND HOW I AM FEELING BUT HE DON CAUSE HE HAS NEVER EVER CARE FOR HIS OWN BROTHER .
All he think ish GALFRENZ , SOCCER , EAT , SLP , tat all nothing else .
i really wish i could eventually forget everything but i jus cant .
i tot of making myself into concusion by jus running out of the road and jus gone lyk tat i am so fuking stress up on my way back tear keep dropping and cant even stop my tear from dropping . so i run to the middle of the field tat not even one single ppl at there and SHOUT OUT LOUD . i jus feeling lyk i was breaking down anytime . Anytime can gone berserk
wat to do i really donnoe wanted to find amanda talk but i don dare cause i promise myself notto drop a single tear infront of them . but i jus couldn't take it feeling hard to breath whenever i tink back the memories till now when i was blogging my tear jus cant stop .
CHEUNG KA CHAI I HATE U .
I HATE MYSELF TOO FOR KNOWING U IN THE FIRST PLACE
I HATE THE WAY U TREAT ME .
I HATE THE FEELING OF HURTS TAT U GAVE ME .
I HATE EVERYTHING U TELL ME CAUSE IT A LIES .
FUCK YOU!!! I AM TOTALLY REGRET ABT WAT I HAVE DONE FOR U .
TOTALLY FEEL SO DRAIN UP AND I AND REALLY TIRED TOO TIRED LE
WANNA REST SOON LE .
Although i have shout in the middle of the field i still keep been tinking of u cause i really treat u as my brother but u jus cheated me in this way. u feel tat it beri fun for doing all this thing ? i tell u NO ISH NO FUNNY AT ALL .
said wanna contact me but in the end u block me in msn i tot u will change but u
did not instead u change from bad to worse .
haiz wat to do jus can bearly keep in my heart and let my heart crying where i gace other ppl ish looking beri cheerful but i am not i am jus hiding my own faces behind me tat all . not going to talk much cause i wanna to STOP MY TEARA!!! tat all ....
friendship = haiz
brothership = haiz
family = haiz
work = haiz
relationship = not bad can improve
lonelyness in me = 100%
From : Nelson (STRESSFUL LIFE)
loves LXN muacks!!!
