.something getting not rite le haiz
...Tuesday, July 28, 2009

haiz today damn shag luh cause everything seems to goes
the other way round on me luh instead of good thing luh
haiz day passes yes i am loving u more but i am getting
more and more stress luh not because of my baby of cause
ish i have lots of thing to tink luh haiz
my sis still don wanna to find work
den no one helping my mum and i have to help
den i cant even go overseas liao luh haiz
really hope tat one day she can find work .
the other thing was donnoe why everyday when i have nothing to do
my mind start to pop out all the images tat i and him have gone thru before .
hmm sian i really damn piss off with this kind of life luh cause said hao
le i don wanna to be his brother anymore but i jus cant bear to see
him like so pity luh but today heard my baby said tat he stead wit
michelle le i am damn down luh cause wat he told me all ish BULLSHIT man
said wat he don like michelle and won stead wit her den now haiz ...
anyway also not my problem mah but i still donnoe why i must care abt him
haiz donnoe really damn shag and piss off today suddenly
mood change den i jiu go shopping and buy thing luh
cause that the only way i can vent my anger or let me happy abit
actually don quite lyk to spend money but everytime when i am down i will eventually buy thing to eat or go buy cloth this all luh hmm
I SWEAR UPON MYSELF FROM NOW ON NO MORE
BECAUSE OF HIM MY MOOD CHANGE LUH
FUCK IT MAN DON BE A FOOL ANYMORE NELSON !!!
hmm no one can really understand me at all luh hmm
how i feel , what i wan , who i am . no one can totally tells
only ME!!! myself noe what actually happen luh haiz
jus wish someone could simply understand me and won betray me at all luh ...
haiz
To : Baby , i am not avoiding u or wat ish i recently really donnoe
wat i am doing and tinking suddenly will become STM luh haiz
toward my mood not good it doesn't referring to u ish my own problem
everyday i am jus simply fall into deeply in love wit u .
so no matter wat happen . don tink too much cause
i will still love u the way i used to love u and DON LEAVE ME UH HAHAS !!!
love LOH XUE NI <3>
From : Nelson
The moment i feel so alone !