Through this lonely summer road , i am feeling so truly empty inside Deep in my Heart .
Donnoe wat am i tinking right now and everything keep went wrong . nothing seems to be smooth for me . as i told myself in this world there ish no free lunch .
everything i do , nobody seems to appreciate wat i am doing and everything i do other will jus take it for granted but wat to do ? jus can merely shut up and bear wit the hurts tat i am facing rite now . haiz
when i Know u have started to change i am so seriously paranoid
cause i donnoe even noe wat i have done and u jus heartlessly throw me behind and let me face the big lonely ocean alone . And normally i have u to be wit me but now it seems tat everything has now fade and vanish into thin air . wat i can do ? i jus felt tat life ish really meaningless for me when i noe some frenz tat being good to me in the end betray me . Haiz , can jus anyone tell me wat to do ? i really feel so SHAG for the time being and i feel so damn paranoid i really confuse abt it and i am totally tired abt it . wat i wan was lyk finding a place to jus let myself be in peace . find one place tat i can find no sacastic ppl , no hyprocrite ppl , and no backstabber etc...
i am jus feeling lyk going to burst out in jus another second . PEACE !!! JUS PEACE IT ALL THE THING I WAN ! AND TAT WILL BE ENOUGH FOR ME AND I WILL FEEL BERI BLESS WIT IT WHEN I AM IN A PEACE AND NO MORE STREESFUL LIFE .
I noe tat life sometime cannot be perfect but it cant be so unsmooth all the way . wat i do i am jus a criminal to other and especiatly from my best frenz . haiz wat i can do ish only let the nature take it own course from now on . even if the time won come back . i will also jus take it tat i have done enough for him and never feel so sad for him anymore luh , wat i said i am jus putting a strong act infront but inside me i am really weak and dying . how he treat me inside my heart ish bleeding damn fast . wishing to find some tool to heal my heart but no matther wat i do inside me will still left some wound tat will never be heal at all .
As the dawn rise and i tink i have found u . the one and only who can brighten up my life and it could only be u and from the day u have told me the promise tat u make to me i have deeply keep in my heart and i am never gonna to be forget hope tat wat u promise me won be going into a drain and i do really hope tat when days passes by u can start to don suspect me . Cause everything i do i am mean it and i do really treasure it alot . Don't Forget That Everything i Promise u i am not joking or wat .
Wat i expect was tat u can jus simply trust me and give me ur whole heart by loving me and never let me down at all . i do have many gals Frenz but they are jus all my frenz cause no matter how close they are to me , they are jus my frenz and i hope u don jealous abt it as i do really wish tat we will be a happy everlasting couple and never because of a small thing and argue lyk wat . ok ? will we be happy ever then after ? will we be happiness ? will we trust each other and don listen to other ppl comment ? i can said tat i can do all that but wishing u to be able to give all ur trust and start a new afresh no matter how other ppl said or wat past u had . change all ur attitude . i never demand tat ask u now to change u can slowly change as i will accompany u to change no matter wat ok ...
for all this i guess u noe who am i referring to .
To the gal that i wish to tell her all this . (u noe who u are )
From : Nelson
the lonely summer dude
