Today went work abit sick luh but still went to work haiz den all the way
cough hmm after tat go HTA again do the project .
went back early cause when doing the project half way
cough till got blood den captain send me home .
donnoe whether tmr wanna go see doctor onot .
den went home totally weak lah den slp after bath luh .
baby call me and sms tot i don wanna ans or reply her call but i am
really sick luh tat why no reply and ans .
haiz den after tat wake up , eat medicine .
cant slp den jiu use com and blog and see show on YOUTUBE luh
hmm but see the ZHONG JI SAN GUO till episode 21 den cant watch le luh sian .
must wait them to upload liao den can see . hmm
recently feeling so paranoid .
cant really realise wat i am tinking rite now .
looks lyks something ish bugging me deep inside my heart .
while watching the show , i was lyk never watch all luh ....
cause while watching my mind all was tinking tat can he jus lyk the ZHONG JI SAN GUO
PPL so loyal , so trustful and so united as one luh till one part the show came the peng you de song haiz i listen le jus drop my tear , hmm yah i noe i should not do this anymore again but
i cant properly control myself .
jus wanna to be alone to tink this question and face it by myself
i don wanna anyone to help or pity me , cause i don wanna ltr outside got ppl
to said abt me luh haiz . as wat i really wish was tat everthing will goes well one day .
i had told myself this before ....
treat it as i am taking a holiday and relieve myself ,
don wanna tink so much .
But my mind was lyk in a whirl i donnoe wat to do,
donnoe wat to said , and donnoe how to face it .
feeling so lonely in the path of my life journey .
need someone who really noe me well .
who ? who could it be ? i really donnoe .
in work today .
at lunch time i look up the sky and whisper in my heart to the sky
saying tat : God , why in my life u had put a frenz beside me
and in the end u take it away jus lyk tat , without any notice for me
and without any preparation .
wat i wan was someone who can totally understand me
but u have once send me tat someone before but ...
hence u jus confiscated it back where i donnoe wat i do
i have treat wat u send me really good but in the end i gain nothing .
can don God don fool me in this manner ?
i really hate the feeling tat i have gone thru rite now .
i promise myself to forget it and i have try my best and force myself
but i jus couldn't get it right .
Life ish lyk an rocky road , tat will face lots of obstical .
Life ish not perfect , without any failure .
once gone jus let them gone , don't ever hesitate to bring it back .
Cause whenever gone it will be gone forever , even how u bring it back there will also be a scar rite there .
Life ish lyk a cloth , once it tear up , it will never be a perfect piece again .
even u sew it and no matter how u found a good sewer , the scar will be there forever .
it just like how i am saying abt my own life ,
wat happen i will never forget it , whatever u do i will keep in mind .
cause i cant simply forget it cause u left the foot print in my heart before but u did not wait for me to accompany u to walk thru our bro life journey .
promise to stay forever and be there no matter wat happen ?
u did not do it , everytime am i the one to came when u are facing a problem .
For me u did not even appear when i was in a deep problem .
i did not said anything and i don demand for anything .
wat i demand was we can don betray each other . and stay the bro tat everyone
envy . but i did not hold ur promises .
u jus leave without a single words . left me behind waiting for u
to come back .
Hence...But for now i don tink u will come back again , cause i have been waiting u
to come back but u did not yet u still enjoy outside . but nevermind cause this ish wat u wan in ur life , i cant stop u or wat .
anyway i will not be a fool to wait for u to contact me anymore neither would me .
cause for now i will be a philosophy person
an optimastic person ,
a joyful life without u . don regret when u tink back
cause i am not the same as last time ...
so sorry for saying tat but wat i wanna said was i will not be a fool and treat u good anymore .
this ish wat i wanna said in my last sentence swear tat i will never write ur name in my blog in anywhere tat can put ur name or wat .
IT OVER !!! THE GAME ISH OVER YEA!!!
I have learn to protect myself for letting u to hurt me in my life once again .
brother? i don tink so anymore .
to me all ish fake everything ish fake and it a illousion to me .
GAME OVER !!!
From : Nelson
NELSON HAVE DEAD SINCE THE DAY U DID TAT TO ME !!!
